Chapter 1 - Changes

Buffy sat in the middle of her bed looking around at her childhood room. Tears sprang to her eyes as she thought about the past year and the events that would change her life. At the beginning of her senior year at Sunnydale High School, she applied to the Harmony Academy of the Arts in New York City. A few months after sending in her application and a video of some of her performances, she got her acceptance letter. Out of thousands of students trying to get into this prestigious school, she made it. She was getting the chance to chase her dreams. Never in a million years would she have thought that she was good enough to get into the Academy. Sure her grades were good and she had outstanding recommendations from all her music teachers but that was high school, this was college. Would she be able to handle it? Not to mention moving across the country and leaving the only home she has ever known.

Her inter conflict was interrupted by a knock at the window of her bedroom. She looked up to see Xander Harris trying to keep his balance on the ladder outside. Smiling she quickly made her way over to the window to let her best friend in. Her smile turned sad when she realized that this would probably be the last time he would ever do that.

“Sheesh, I’ve been knocking on the window for the last ten minutes. I thought I was gonna have to be normal and actually use the front door for… “Xander paused when he noticed the look on her face. “What’s wrong Buffster?”

Buffy sat down on the bed never making eye contact. “Nothing really, I guess I’m just realizing how much I’m going to miss this place.”

“You know you’re going to be great right?” When she didn’t say anything he sat next to her and put an arm around her shoulder pulling her closer. “This is your dream, Buff, what you’re supposed to be doing. You’re a musical genius that’s gonna make her dreams come true and I for one couldn’t be more proud of you.”

“You mean that, Xand?”

His heart almost broke at the insecurity he saw in her eyes and the tears that were now flowing freely from them. “Of course you’re going to do great things Buffy Anne Summers!” He stood and grabbed her hands to haul her to her feet. “Now what do you say about a goodbye dinner at the Bronze then I’ll ride with you and your family to the airport?”

“Sounds wonderful!” She said, jumping up to stand on her bed. She grabbed Xanders shoulders and turned him around so she could jump on his back like they used to do when they were little. “Remember when we were about ten; I fell off the monkey bars at the park?”

“Yeah, you twisted your ankle and I had to carry you piggy back all the way home while you were screaming and crying in my ear.”

“Do you remember when I tried to ride my bike down Dead Mans hill with no hands?”

“Yes, again I had to carry you when you scraped up both knees and broke your arm screaming and hollering just like the monkey bar incident. Is there a reason you decided to bring up all the stupid things we did when we were young?” He commented as he made his way down the stairs.

“You are always there to carry me when I need you Xand. You’re the best friend a girl could have and I love you so much for that. What am I gonna do without you?”

Feeling the tears well up in his eyes at her confession, he slowly put her on her feet when they reached his car. “I’m not going anywhere Buffy, I’m still going to be just a phone call or e-mail away. We are still going to be best friends nothing is going to change that.”

“I know I’m just going to miss you so much!” They stood there face to face no one talking for the longest time. Tears streaming down both of their faces.

“Enough with this weeping already, we are not going to spend your last few hours in Sunnyhell crying like four year olds. Let’s go and get dinner and enjoy ourselves before your flight.” He said as he helped her into the passenger side of his car.

“Your right, I’m starving and a burger from the Bronze is what the doctor ordered.”

She turned on the music as he pulled out of her driveway, grimacing at what he considered music. “There will be one good thing about us being on opposite coasts.”

“What’s that?”

“I won’t have to listen to the scariness that is your taste in music.” She had to giggle at the offended look he got on his face as he placed his hand over his heart.

“This coming from the girl that wants Wind Beneath my Wings played at her wedding.”

“I was 12 and Beaches was my favorite movie, what do you expect?”

They both burst out laughing and the rest of the ride to the Bronze was a mixture of their usual banter and fighting for control of the stereo.


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The ride to the airport was excruciating for the three youngsters in the backseat of the Summers’ car. Buffy was sitting between Xander and her brother Angel as they all tried to calm down an inconsolable Joyce Summers in the front passenger seat. Even Buffy’s dad Hank was having a hard time calming her down.

They all flinched as Joyce’s sobs reached an ear piercing decibel as they pulled into the airport parking garage. “I can’t believe… my little... girl is going away to….COLLEGE!” She was blowing her nose and hiccupping all at the same time.

As soon as Buffy stepped out of the car Joyce had her in a vice like hug as her crying became louder.

It was Hank that stepped in to help out his little girl. “Joyce, we raised her to be a smart and respectable young woman. She is going to be fine.” He wrapped his wife in a hug and smiled at Buffy when she mouthed ‘thank you’ to him.

As they gathered luggage and started for the check-in line, Buffy notice that her big brother was being unusually quite for a change. She fell into step with him and wrapped her arm through his bigger one. “I’m going to be okay.” She stated quietly.

“I know, it’s just, what if someone tries to hurt you, or something goes wrong, I can’t protect you when your thousands of miles away from me.”

Buffy smiled up at her big brother and protector for all her life. “I’m going to be fine Angel. You taught me to defend and stick up for myself a long time ago. I’m a strong person and I owe a lot of that to you.”

“I AM a pretty good big brother.” She giggled at the wink he sent her way.

“Yeah, when you’re not totally pissing me off.” She said as she leaned up to give him a kiss on the cheek.

When she was all checked in they headed to her gate to say their goodbyes before she boarded the plane.

Buffy walked over to Xander and wrapped her arms around his waist as she laid her head on his chest. “Your one in a million Buffster.” Xander’s voice was a mere rumbling as he wrapped his arms around her.

“Luv ya Xand.”

She slowly let go of Xander after she gave him a loud kiss on his cheek, and made her way over to Angel. “I’m gonna be just fine big bro. Maybe you can come and visit me over spring break and I’ll be home at Christmas, I promise.”

“I got ya little something sis.” He reached into his jacket pocket and handed her a little purple gift bag.

She rolled her eyes when she saw what was inside. “Pepper spray?”

“Keep that with you at all times. I mean it Buffy, you can never be too careful.” His tone told her that it was not up for argument.

“Aye, aye captain.” Buffy mock saluted him and stuck the pepper spray in her carry-on.

Her mother was next in line and as Buffy walked up to her Joyce threw her arms around Buffy again and started crying. With a roll of her eyes, she hugged her mother back and whispered in her ear how much she loved her and was going to miss her. This in turn just made Joyce’s wailing hit that soprano pitch again as Angel tried his best to comfort her while Buffy said bye to their dad.

“I love you daddy, so much.”

“I love you to princess, I’m going to miss you so much.” Hank let out a chuckle as Buffy threw her arms around him and blew a raspberry on his cheek. “You’re my heart baby girl, please don’t forget it.”

“I won’t daddy, I promise.”

“Flight 325 to New York is now boarding seats 1-25”

They broke apart as the announcement came over the loud speaker. Buffy took a deep breathe as she realized that this was the last time for a couple of months that she was going to see her family.

“That’s me. I’ll call as soon as my flight lands in New York.” She took one last good look at her family and turned to walk to through the gate.

“Buffy wait.” She turned as soon as she heard Angel call her name. He reached into his back pocket and handed her a wad of money. He laughed as her eyes bugged out and she just stared from him back to the money in her hand.

“I can’t take this Angel. You were saving this for you new motorcycle.”

“You my dear sister are a better investment, now no arguments, I want you to have it.”

Stunned into silence Buffy just opened her carry-on and stuck it inside her journal. “You are the best big brother ever, I love you Angel!”

Buffy started walking to her gate once more. As she gave the clerk her ticket, she turned around and gave one last little wave to the most important people in her life.

Chapter 2 – Getting Settled

Buffy let out a relieved sigh as her taxi pulled up in front of her dorm. It had started storming a few hours ago which made for a very bumpy flight. Baggage claim was nightmare and it took forever to get a taxi. Not to mention the phone call to her parents that consisted of her mother crying so loud the cab driver heard it. Not even lowering the sound on her cell phone helped. Now as she was standing in front of the building she would be living in for the next four years, she suddenly felt very overwhelmed. “You can do this Buffy, your going to do good things here. Now stop talking to yourself before someone actually hears you.” Taking a deep breath, she started for the lobby doors.

As she was turning the corner to the elevators, Buffy ran into something very solid, making her drop her luggage and fall to the ground.

“Bloody hell, I’m so sorry, are you okay?” A deep, British accent filled her ears as Buffy looked up into the bluest eyes she had ever seen.

“I’m fine, I think the ground broke my fall… and maybe my back.” She groaned as he helped her to stand again. “You sure you’re okay pet?” She nodded her head yes as she finally got a better look at him. He was clad in a tight black t-shirt, black jeans, and combat boots, with his bleach blond hair slicked back. In one word, GORGEOUS.

Buffy blushed as she looked away from him and started gathering her luggage.

“Names Spike Giles by the way.” He said as he picked up one of her suitcases and extended his hand.

“I’m Buffy Summers.” She shook his hand and went to grab the suitcase from him.

“Let me help luv, it’s the least I can do after I knocked you on your arse.”

His smile was warm and she found herself staring at his lips wondering what it would be like to kiss him. ‘You just met Buff, stop with the happy lust bunny hormones.’ She shook those thoughts away as she offered him a smile of her own.

“That would be great, thank you.”

“What floor you on?”

Buffy pulled a piece of paper out of her jacket pocket. “4th floor and I’m in room 5.”

“Well its small world luv, you’re right next door to me.” He replied with a wink.

Spikes heart about stopped at the blinding smile she gave him in response. “Lead the way then neighbor.”

Finding his voice again Spike replied with a sweep of his arm, “This way m’lady.”

She giggled as they made there way to the elevators. ‘Maybe it’s going to be easier settling in than I thought it would be’ Buffy thought as she snuck a side glance at the man standing beside her.

‘Beautiful’ was all Spike could think of as he stood beside Buffy in the elevator. After he had knocked her over he couldn’t help but think of what she would look like laying like that under him on his bed. ‘Nice mate, you’ll never impress the girl by talking to her with you lower half saluting her.’ He thought as he discretely moved the suitcase he was carrying in front of him.

After showing Buffy to her room and helping her get all her things inside, Spike told her he would let her get unpacked but that he would be back later to show her the way to the cafeteria. Everyone on the floor was meeting so they could all get to know one another.

Three hours later Buffy stood in the middle of her room very proud of herself. All her clothes were put away, pictures hanging, computer set up, TV and DVD player hooked up, and bed made. “Not bad if I do say so myself.” Buffy said as she put her hands on her hips and smiled.

“Talking to yourself Summers?” Buffy squealed and quickly turned around to find Spike leaning against her door frame, smirk firmly in place.

“Jesus!” Buffy said as she tried to get her breathing under control. “Bell…neck…look into it.”

“Come with a nice leather collar does it?” Spike replied with a raise of his eyebrow.

“Ggrrr” Was her only reply.

“The place looks good luv.”

“Thank you kind sir.” She replied with a mock bow. “Now, would you be so kind as to escort a lady to the cafeteria?”

Spike chuckled at her antics but none the less held out his arm for her. “This way my lady, the dinning hall awaits. The introduction session awaits us.” He couldn’t help but think that there was something very right about her being on his arm. ‘You barely know her you git, she probably has a boy back home, so just chill.’

Little did he know that the same thoughts were floating through Buffy’s head at the very same moment. ‘It’s like we fit or something. He’s probably taken though. I mean how could a great guy like him not be taken?’ The waving and yelling of very hyperactive redhead broke into both their thoughts as they entered the cafeteria.

“Over here Spike!”

“You might want to yell a little louder next time Red, I don’t think they heard you in China.”

“Very funny bleach boy.” The girl said as she glared at him which immediately turned into a bright smile as her eyes landed on Buffy. “I’m Willow Rosenburg, you must be Buffy, right?”

“All my life.” Buffy smiled as she shook the other girls hand and took a seat next Spike.

“Great we are all here, we can make with the getting to know each other!” Willow said as she excitedly hopped in her seat.

Buffy leaned over to so she could whisper in Spike’s ear. “Is she always this peppy and hyper?” She said so only he could hear.

Spike was finding it very hard to make a complete thought as he felt her hand on his arm and her breath in his ear. He shook his head slightly to clear the daze she always seem to put him in, “You should see her on caffeine, pet.” He whispered back. Buffy’s eyes got comically wide in response as Spike let out a chuckle.

“Okay, lets go around the table and tell everyone our name, age, hometown, year you are in school, and your major, Cordy you start.” Willow said to the dark haired girl sitting at to her left.

“Cordiela Chase, 19, Miami Fl., sophomore, with a major in dance.”

“Oz, 18, Boston Mass., sophomore, music.” Everyone laughed at his monotone response.

“Spike Giles, 19, London and Manhattan, sophomore, music and creative writing.”

Buffy was finding it hard to think when Spike casually leaned back and draped his arm across the back of her chair. ‘This is getting out of control Buffster, all he did was put his arm on your chair, and since when did my inner voice start sounding like Xander?’

“You’re up luv.” Spikes voice snapped her out of her thoughts, as she replied “Oh ah, Buffy Summers, 18, Sunnyhell…I mean dale CA., freshman majoring in music.”

Cordy raised a perfectly sculpted eyebrow at the antics of the two across the table from her. Especially when she noticed the blush that rose in Buffy’s cheeks when Spike moved his arm. A broad smile bloomed on the dancers face as a possible match making opportunity presented itself.

“The name is Lorne kiddies, I’m a 21 year old Gemini from Hollywood, CA, and I’m a junior who’s main goal in life is to become an actor.” The wink he sent to everyone had them all laughing.

When the laughter died down the guy next to Lorne spoke up. “I’m Riley Finn, 18, from Canton, IA, and a freshman with a major in theatre.”

All eyes turned to the pretty blonde sitting next to him. “I’m Anya Jenkins, 20, Las Vegas, junior, my major is painting. I plan to open an art gallery in a big city and make lots of money so I can actually marry for looks and have many orgasms.”

Buffy and Riley’s eyes bugged out as the rest of the table just groaned at her bluntness.

“Oh how we have missed you Anya” came Cordy’s sarcastic reply.

“What, like you didn’t enjoy the many orgasms that you got from that guy Wesley last year.”

“Okay!” Willow broke in. “I believe it’s my turn!” she cleared her throat and began to speak once she was sure the usually Cordelia vs. Anya war was averted. “I’m Willow Rosenburg, 20, from Manchester, NH., I’m a junior with a major in art history and theatre. Oh and I’m also the floors RA.” She said as she pulled a folder out of her bag and pulled out some papers along with everyone’s keys.

“Okay, official floor business time.” Willow said as she handed everyone their room keys. “Okay the common room on our floor is fair game for all of us. Pretty simple rules actually, you make the mess you clean it up, if it has a name on it other than yours don’t eat or drink it. Showers are coed also so no walking around naked.” She said as everyone at the table save for the two freshman gave pointed looks at Spike.

“That happened once!” Spike replied with a roll of his eyes.

“Anyway,” Willow interjected “I believe that’s all I got for now, any questions?”

“Why do Summers and I have two keys and you lot have one?” Spike asked as he and Buffy held up their keys.

“Oh yeah, I almost forgot. The second key goes to the door that separates your guy’s rooms. When they remodeled this summer they made Spike’s old room the common room and turned the only suite on the floor into two single rooms. Now everyone on our floor has their own room.” Willow explained as Buffy and Spike cast a look at each other.

“Here luv” Spike said as he handed Buffy his key to the adjoining door.

At her confused look he added, “Just so you don’t have to worry about the door.”

She smiled as she handed the key back to him. “Not worried.” She simply said. At his shocked look she just winked at him and turned her attention back to the table.

“Okay, now that that’s settled, let eat.” Willow said as everyone got up from the table.

Chapter 3 – Not So Much Like Home

Buffy groaned as she looked over at her alarm clock. 2:45am it read. After everyone finished eating they all headed back up to their respective rooms to finish getting settled in. Now she was staring at the ceiling, apparently not going to fall asleep anytime soon.

“I have to pee anyway, I might as well get up.” She said to herself as she stood and headed to the door. She quietly made her way down the hall to the bathroom noticing that no one else seemed to be up. “I’m glad everyone else is all cozy, far off in dream land.” She grumbled to herself.

After she finished washing her hands she caught a glimpse of herself in the mirror. Her hair was a tousled mess and her eyes had bags under them. She tried to straighten her hair a little but it just wouldn’t seem to cooperate. “Ggrrr...this is exactly why you need to get some sleep, you look like you just got out of a wind tunnel.” She said to her reflection.

“Talking to yourself again Summers?” Buffy was glad that she had already went to the bathroom cause she would have really just embarrassed herself in front of Spike. Well not that getting caught talking to yourself wasn’t embarrassing but at least she was dry.

“You really need to quit doing that “She replied as she glared at him.

“Sorry luv, couldn’t sleep either I take it?” He said as he leaned on the sink next to her.

“New place I guess. This is the farthest I’ve ever been away from home. I know it sounds silly I mean I’m 18 years old, but I guess I’m kinda missing my bed back in Sunnydale.” She stared ahead at one of the stalls never making eye contact with him.

“Nah, not silly pet, pretty normal to feel like that. I was having a hard time falling asleep to.” He move to lean on the stall in front of her as she jumped up on the counter.

She finally got a good look at him now that he was standing in front of her. He was clad in a pair of black jogging pants and nothing else. Buffy about started drooling when she got a good look at his chest and abs. ‘Well defined and oh so lickable’ She thought as she continued to indiscreetly check him out.

Spike was loving how innocent she was looking in her Yummy Sushi pajamas. ‘I wonder just how innocent she really is.’ He smiled when she started kicking her legs against the side of the sink like a 4 year old would do.

“You wanna come and hang out in my room since neither of us can sleep?” He asked with a tilt of his head. “We could watch TV or something maybe chat a bit?”

‘Alone in his room with no one else around….OH MY’ Buffy’s face blushed a pretty red and as she quickly tried to find the voice that ran off as soon as he asked the question. “Sure, sounds like a plan.” She finally replied hopping off the counter.

She followed him down the hall to his room and he quietly shut the door behind her. “Okay, you wanna watch regular TV pet or would you rather watch a movie?”

“Movie sounds good, whatcha got?” She said as she sat down on his double bed.

‘Damn she looks good sitting on my bed. I bet she’d look even better lying under me on it though.’ Spike shook those thoughts out of his head as he began to look at his movie collection. “You in the mood for scary, romance, comedy, or drama?”

“Can I see what you have?” She asked. In seeing his nod she made her way over to his shelves of movies. “You have The Breakfast Club?” She said with a raise of her eyebrow.

“Oi, it’s a bloody classic pet!”

“Let’s watch that!” she said as she made her way back to his bed. “I think the last time I watched it was when Xander came over to my house with movies and ice cream to try and cheer me up. I was like 10 or something.”

“Why’d you need cheering up?” he replied as he put the movie in and sat down on his bed next to her.

She propped herself up on his pillows as she continue her story, “I wrecked my bike going down this VERY steep hill back home and I scrapped up my knees pretty bad and broke my wrist. Xand carried me all the way home piggy back with me screaming and crying in his ear.” She got a far off look in her eyes as the memory assaulted her. “After I got back from the hospital, he came over with movies and ice cream to keep me company that night.” She was looking at the TV when she finished the story but Spike could tell she wasn’t really paying attention to it.

“You okay kitten?” He asked as he scooted down the bed to lay next to her on his pillows.

She rolled over on her side so she was facing him. “Does the feeling go away?”

“What feeling?” He asked as he turned his head to look at her.

“Being homesick?” She said quietly and his heart about broke at the sad look in her eyes.

He rolled on to his side so he mirrored her position. “It goes away I promise.” He said. “It might not seem like it now but once classes get started you’ll feel better.” He reached out to tuck a strand of hear behind her ear.

She smiled softly as they both turned their eyes to the movie. Both paying more attention to the person lying beside them than the movie.

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After awhile Spike cast a glance over at Buffy and noticed that she was having a hard time keeping her eyes open. “Tired kitten?”

Buffy’s eyes slowly opened to look into his. “Yeah, but I don’t wanna go back to my room. It’s too lonely over there.” She said as her eyes drifted closed again.

Spike didn’t think that he could have her in his bed all night and control himself. ‘Think you git, gotta help the girl without scaring her’ He thought as he looked around the room.

“How bout this.” He said as he moved to get off the bed. “We can open the door between our rooms that way it won’t seem like you’re alone?”

She gave him a sleepy smile and asked “Really?”

“Sure thing pet, anything to help ya sleep.” She smiled again at the sweetness of his voice as she moved to get off his bed.

“You’re the best.” She said as she threw her arms around his neck and hugged him. As she let him go she whispered “thank you” in his ear.

Spikes lower half started to stir in his pants as the smell of her entered his senses. The feel of her body pressed against his became almost too much. A quick trip to the bathroom for a long conversation with his had was defiantly on order soon since the door joining their rooms was going to be open. “No need to thank me pet, just go get some rest.” He replied softly.

She smiled sweetly as Spike watched her climb into bed. ‘This is going to be a longer night than I thought’ He told himself as he watched her fall quickly to sleep.

Chapter 4 – Friends Found & Enemies Made

“I can’t believe him!” Buffy yelled as her and Riley made their way off the elevator to their floor. They had spent the day at some freshman orientation thing which basically consisted of a tour of campus and class scheduling, and having the rules repeated 50 billion times.

Now Riley was trying to calm down a VERY pissed off girl. “Buffy, they were just words, don’t let that jerk get to you.”

Buffy whirled around on him so fast that he had to take a few steps back. “GET TO ME?!” She yelled so loud it had Cordiela, Spike, and Lorne coming out of their rooms to see what all the commotion was about.

“Did you hear what he said? Where you not standing 2 feet from me? I can’t believe you stopped me! I could SO have taken him!” She was so mad that she didn’t notice the crowd or the amused look on Riley’s face appear.

“I grabbed hold of you because it wouldn’t do you any good to get kicked out of school for knocking that jackass out before classes even started.” Riley was trying to be calm hoping that if he was, she would start to do the same.

It seemed to have worked a little as she smiled at him and replied “I really could have kicked his ass huh?” The evil gleam in her eyes had him laughing and soon she joined in. Neither noticing the others that were just looking at them very confused.

“Someone want to fill us in on what’s going on?” Cordy’s question halted their laughter when they turned to everyone.

“Just me trying to save Xenia Warrior Princess over here from getting suspended from school already.” Riley replied as he shook his head and gave a little wink towards Buffy.

“What, you expected me to just let him talk like that? Who the hell does he think he is? I mean first of all the whole ‘Hey baby, where you been all my life’ line is so messed up. Does crap like that even work?” She cast a glance at the group standing in front of her suddenly feeling very sheepish at her outburst and at the amused looks they all were wearing.

Riley rolled his eyes and decided to come to her rescue for the second time in the last hour. “We were walking towards the lobby vending machines before we headed to the last lecture of the day. When we turned around after getting our drinks, this guy gets up in Buffy’s face and tries the whole ‘Hey baby, where have you been all my life’ crap. Buffy told him she wasn’t interested and we turned to go. The guy decided that he didn’t like getting reject and yells down the hall ‘You probably wouldn’t be that good anyway, one time would be enough and even then I know I’d be bored.’ Well as you can imagine, our little Buffy here saw red and went after the guy, fangs and claws showing.”

“I would have SO kicked his scrawny ass too if you hadn’t stopped me.” Buffy interrupted with a pout.

“Cupcake, your five foot nothing and a skinny little thing to match. I have a hard time imagining you kicking anything but a gnome’s ass.” Lorne said with a smile.

“Oh believe me she is MUCH stronger than she looks. She’s got a good right hook I might add.” Riley rubbed his arm where she had accidentally hit him when he grabbed her to pull her away.

“Drama, drama, drama.” Lorne replied with a shake of his head. “Well kiddies I think Queen C and I are headed to the mall now that the crisis was avoided. Anyone else wanna tag along?”

“Nah, I’m gonna grab a bite then head to the gym. I need to reinstate my manhood after being taken down by that scrap of a thing.” Riley replied nodding towards Buffy then giving her a small smile before he turned to go get his things.

“I didn’t hit you that hard, you big baby.” Buffy yelled after him with a roll of her eyes.

Lorne and Cordy both turned their attention to Spike who was casually leaning on the wall across from them. “Oi, hell no! I wouldn’t be caught dead looking at girly things with you two, I have an image to maintain you know!” He said as he started walking to his room.

“What about you Wonder Woman, you up for it?” Cordy asked.

“I think I’ll pass. I’m a little tired after my almost fight today.” Buffy replied opening her door and stepping inside.

“Looks like it’s just you and me sunshine.” Cordy said as she linked her arm with Lorne’s and pulled him toward the elevator.”

“Drama, drama, drama.” Was his only reply as they waited for the elevator to reach their floor.

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About an hour later Buffy was sitting with her guitar in the middle of her bed, eyes closed. While she was changing into some comfy clothes earlier, a tune popped in her head and she was now trying to put words with it.

She opened her eyes when a knock sounded at the door leading to Spike’s room. “Come in.” She said as she laid her guitar beside her on the bed.

“Watcha up to pet?” Spike said as he leaned on the door frame that separated their rooms.

“Got a song in my head that’s trying to get out.” She said as she grabbed her notebook and wrote a few more words down.

“Can I hear what you got so far?” He asked as he grabbed her desk chair and turned it to so he could straddle it.

“I only have the first verse and chorus done.” She said as she again grabbed her guitar. “No poking fun either.” She said as she adjusted the guitar in her lap.

“Wouldn’t dream of it luv.” He replied with a soft smile.

When Buffy started to play the first chords of the song, Spike’s heart skipped a few beats. ‘Damn girl, what are you doing to me?’ He thought. When she opened her mouth to sing he was a man lost.

You’re not sure that you love me
But you’re not sure enough to let me go
Baby it ain’t fair ya know to just keep me hangin round
You say you don’t wanna hurt me
Don’t wanna see my tears
So why are you still standing here just watching me drown?

And it’s alright yeah I’ll be fine
Don’t worry about this heart of mine
Just take your love and hit the road
There’s nothing you can do or say
You’re gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go

“That’s all I have so far.” She said when she was done playing. She began to fidget a little when all he did was stare at her.

Noticing her discomfort, Spike quickly found his voice to reply. “That was amazing Buffy.” His voice came out a lot more strained than he would have liked but he was still kinda in awe of her at the moment.

She noticed the sincerity in his eyes and gave him a shy smile. “I think that’s the first time you said that.”

“Said what pet?”

“Buffy.” At his confused look she continued. “You usually call me pet, luv, kitten, or even Summers but never Buffy.” She said with a smile.

He just smiled in return and Buffy was finding it hard to breathe all the sudden.

She started playing around on her guitar not really playing any one song when she caught him staring at her again. She blushed as she asked “What?”

“Did you really go after that guy today?” He asked as his eyes watched her fingers pluck lightly at the guitar strings.

“Yeah, I don’t appreciate jerks like that talking to me that way.” Her eyes never left her hands as she continued, “Why?”

He moved to sit next to her on the bed as she draped her hands over her guitar. “Do you think that guy will cause you anymore problems?”

“Doubt it, he was just pissed cause I didn’t give him a chance. I am quite a catch you know?” She tried to sound serious but the smile that broke out on her face betrayed her.

“I’m starting to see that, luv. Just be careful.” He said as he winked at her and started to get up and move towards the door.

“You mean it?” She asked so quietly he almost didn’t hear her.

“Mean what?” He asked knowing full well what she was talking about he just wanted to hear her say it.

“You think I’m a good catch?” She asked, suddenly finding the pick in her had very interesting.

He thought about it for a minute then replied, “I’ll let you know when I’ve caught you pet.” He said with a smirk and then chuckled when her eyes grew comically wide when she realized what he said.

Not giving her the chance to reply, he leaned down and lightly kissed her cheek then quickly made his way back to his room, closing the door behind him.

‘He couldn’t possible want me.’ Buffy thought still staring at the door he just went through. ‘Could he?’ A huge smile appeared on her face at her face when she said into the empty room “God, I hope so.”

Chapter 5 – Surprises

Buffy was sitting in the common room going over her schedule for the next week. The first week of classes came and went leaving the whole floor stressed out. To add to her stress, Buffy had also gotten a job at the local community center helping with the youth music program. The kids were good, just in need of some one on one time. She had talked to her family and Xander yesterday and everyone was doing great. Buffy missed them all terribly but the actual homesickness was getting less and less. Spike was right, it did get better. A scowl came across her face at the thought of Spike. After that night when he said that about catching her, she had barely seen him. They did have one class together and did get to see each other for that, but it wasn’t enough. She wanted more Spike time, and damn it, she wanted it NOW!

“Goddess, what did that pencil ever do to you?” Willow’s shocked reply from the doorway startled Buffy from her thoughts and caused her too look down at the now broken pencil in her hand. “You okay? You look like you were in some serious thought.” Willow continued as she sat down on the couch beside Buffy.

“I’m good, just going over my schedule for next week.” Buffy said as she closed her notebook.

“How’s everything at the center going?” Willow smiled at the way Buffy’s eyes lit up whenever she talked about the center.

“Great! Tara this little girl about 12 or so has this most amazing voice I have ever heard. Only problem we have with her is that she is scared to death of an audience. When it’s just us she is okay, but as soon a crowd is there she freezes. I’ve never had that problem so I don’t know how to help her.”

“You need to find a way to make everyone else disappear for her when she is on stage. What always worked for me was to practice lines and such in the dark before I would do them in front of everyone. Made it easier to imagine the darkness later.”

“That’s a wonderful idea!” Buffy said as she hugged Willow and stood to gather her things. “I have the perfect idea of how to use that.” Buffy said as she headed for the door. “You’re the best Will.”

“Spread the word to all my teachers would ya?” Willow said with a laugh. Buffy just winked at her and headed for her room, already making plans to help little Tara. Thoughts of Spike forgot for now.

**********

Buffy was headed out of her room later that night. She had plans to meet Tara and her mother down at the Center and Buffy thought this was the perfect opportunity to try Willow’s idea out. She was heading out the front lobby doors when a head of bleach blond hair caught her attention. Spike was sitting alone on one of the outside benches smoking and apparently lost in thought.

“You know those things will kill you.” She said as she leaned over and spoke in his ear. She then laughed when he jumped so high he about fell off the bench.

“You know Summers, it’s not nice to scare a bloke like that.” He said as he scowled at her. But it turned into a smile when all she did was wink and reply “Paybacks a bitch huh?” and then turned and walked off.

“Wait up pet.” He said as he fell into step beside her. “Where ya headed?”

“The Center. I’m meeting with one of the students to try and help her with her stage fright. Willow gave me a wonderful idea and I want to see if it will work out.”

“Mind if I tag along? Haven’t gotten to talk with you that much since classes started and you started working, maybe grab a bit to eat after?” He was trying not to sound desperate at his attempt to spend time with her. When he was sitting outside he was planning on going up to her room and seeing if she wanted to go grab a bite to eat. He was just working up enough courage to go ask her when she ended up scaring the shit out of him instead.

“Sound great!” She replied with a bright smile and had to refrain from doing her version of Xander’s happy dace right then and there. ‘Ask and ye shall receive.’ She thought as they made their way a couple of more blocks to the center. ‘I guess I get my Spike time today after all.’ The butterflies started dancing in her stomach at the thought of him actually wanting to spend time with her.

They walked into the center about ten minutes later and Buffy smiled when she saw Tara and her mother waiting by the practice room. “I hope you haven’t been waiting long.” Buffy said as Tara ran up and threw her arms around her waist in a tight hug.

“We actually sat down just a few minutes ago.” Tara’s mother Sue replied. “Who might this handsome young man be?” Sue said as her attention turned to Spike.

Spike blushed at the compliment which Buffy and apparently Tara thought to be funny. He scowled as the girls giggled then introduced himself, “William Giles, it’s nice to meet you ma’am.” He said and shook the older woman’s hand.

“I thought you said his name was Spike.” Tara asked Buffy with a frown.

‘She’s been talking about me.’ Spike thought and tried to hide the smirk that was forming on his face but failed miserably when he caught a glimpse of Buffy’s blush. “Spikes a nickname, Nibblet.” He replied as he threw a wink towards Buffy.

Buffy made a big display of opening the door to the practice room and waited till Spike and Sue passed before she gave Tara a scowl. The little girl just giggled more as she made her way into the room.

“Okay sweetie, you wanna start with that song we practiced last time or try a new one?”

“T-the same o-one is f-fine.” Tara replied quietly. Buffy turned her attention to the girl when she noticed her start to stutter. Buffy realized with Tara that when she got nervous or scared her stutter came out more. ‘Now would be the time to try Willow’s idea.’ Buffy thought as she made her way over to the piano. “You’re not scared of the dark are you Tara?”

After seeing the girls shake her head no, Buffy glanced over at Spike. “Could you hit the lights Spike, I wanna try something.” At his confused look she just winked and turned her attention back to Tara. “Tara, honey come stand by the piano.” When the girl did as she was asked, Spike turned the lights off. The only light in the room coming from the hallway hiding everyone from Tara’s gaze.

“There’s nobody here but you and me sweets. Let the rest of the world disappear and just listen to the music, okay?”

“K” Tara replied a little more relaxed now that no one could see her.

As Buffy started playing the piano, Spike couldn’t help but wonder if there was an instrument she couldn’t play well. He found himself lost in the music and was even more amazed when the little girl started to sing.

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

Spike could make out Buffy’s face in the dim light. His breath caught when he saw the single tear that rolled down her cheek and the pride that showed through her eyes as she watched the little girl sing her heart out.

I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be
Free to fly
That burns with a need to know
The reason why

Why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

The three adults just sat in the dark in complete wonder of the sounds that just came out of the little girls mouth.

“Spike, please turn on the lights?” Buffy asked quietly.

When they were back on Tara started to fidget nervously. “W-was that o-okay?” She asked quietly afraid she didn’t do good because they were all being so quiet.

“That was amazing sweetheart.” Sue said as she walked over and gave her little girl a huge hug. She looked up at Buffy who still had tears flowing freely from her eyes. “Thank You.”

Buffy wiped her eyes and walked over to Tara. “All I did was make everyone disappear, that was all her.” She said as she wrapped her arm around Tara’s shoulder. “I knew you could do it.”

Tara just smiled at Buffy and threw her arms around her waist. Buffy closed her eyes as she tried to keep more tears from falling.

“You have the voice of an angel, kitten.” Spike replied and gave the girl a smile.

Tara smiled shyly at him and turned her attention back to Buffy. “How bout we call it quits for today? You did so good you deserve a break. I’ll see you next Tuesday, deal?” Buffy said as she smiled down at her prized student.

“Deal” Tara said as she hugged Buffy one more time.

Tara and her mother made their way out of the room and Buffy turned to Spike who was staring at her as he leaned against the wall.

“I bet I look like a big sissy, crying because of a 12 year old huh?” She asked as she made her way back to close the piano and gather her music.

“Not a sissy, that was wonderful, pet.” Spike said as he made his way over and stood in front of her.

Buffy blushed at his compliment and looked away from his gaze when he stepped closer to her. “I knew she had it in her, just didn’t think that it was that strong.” She said not really sure how the words made it out of her mouth considering how close he was now.

He put his finger under her chin to raise her eyes to his. “I might kiss you.” He said softly.

Her eyes grew big at his statement and she swallowed hard before replying, “I might be bad at it.”

His gaze moved from her lips to her eyes as he moved a little closer. “Not possible.” Was his quiet reply before their lips softly touched. His lips weren’t demanding at all, just exploring with light caresses as his arms wrapped around her waist.

Buffy’s arms came up around his neck when he moved to deepen the kiss. He lightly ran his tongue along her bottom lip asking for permission to enter. She moaned when his tongue made contact with hers sending an electric shock right between her legs. Spike’s arms tightened around her waist as she unconsciously started to rock against him, causing a small groan to escape his throat.

After what seemed like an eternity, the need to breath soon became an issue and the pair reluctantly broke apart. Spike leaned his forehead against hers and smiled as he watched her taking calming breaths.

“You okay, luv?” He ask as leaned back to look at her better.

“That…you…I….Wow.” Was all she could get to come out of her mouth. The blush that rose on her cheeks made her even more adorable in his eyes.

He smiled as he leaned in and place a chaste kiss on your swollen lips. “Let’s get out of here, ‘m starving.” He grabbed her hand and laced his fingers through hers as he led her out of the Center.

Chapter 6 – Hanging Out

“How’s your assignment going for Professor Burkel’s class?” Buffy asked as she looked over at the man walking beside her. They had just left the burger joint on campus and were now walking hand in hand to their building, just enjoying each other’s company.

“Not bad, the bridge needs a little work but other than that I’m almost done.” He replied and then smiled as she started to swing there interlocked hands. “How bout you?”

“I finished that song that you heard part of the other day. I’m probably gonna use that one. It fits all the criteria so I figured why not.”

They reached the door to the lobby and headed to the elevator as Spike asked “Can I hear the rest of it? Then maybe you can help me with mine.”

“Sure.” She replied as they made their way out of the elevator. “Go grab your guitar and meet me in the common room, I have chocolate ice cream and two spoons with our name on them.” She gave him a quick kiss on the cheek and went to get her things.

They met in the common room about 5 minutes later. They sat down on the couch facing each other with their guitars in their laps and the tub of ice cream sat between them.
“Chocolate, it does a body good.” Buffy said as she put a spoonful in her mouth. Spike chuckled as he took a bite himself and then left his spoon in the carton.

“Let see what you’ve got Summers.”

She smiled sweetly at him and began to play the first cords of the song.

You’re not sure that you love me
But you’re not sure enough to let me go
Baby it ain’t fair ya know to just keep me hangin round
You say you don’t wanna hurt me
Don’t wanna see my tears
So why are you still standing here just watching me drown?

And it’s alright yeah I’ll be fine
Don’t worry about this heart of mine
Just take your love and hit the road
There’s nothing you can do or say
You’re gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go

Buffy’s heart skipped a beat when Spike began to play along with her. ‘Damn he looks sexy when he play’s’ She thought as she began to sing the next lyrics of her song.

Now you can drag out the heartache
Baby you can make it quick
Really get it over with
And just let me move on

Don’t concern yourself
With this mess you left for me
I can clean it up you see
Just as long as you’re gone

And it’s alright yeah I’ll be fine
Don’t worry about this heart of mine
Just take your love and hit the road
There’s nothing you can do or say
You’re gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go

You not making up your mind
Is killing me and wasting time
I need so much more than that

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

And it’s alright yeah I’ll be fine
Don’t worry about this heart of mine
Just take your love and hit the road
There’s nothing you can do or say
You’re gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go

Leave the pieces when you go
Oh yeah, leave the pieces with you go

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Leave the pieces when you go

Buffy draped her arms over her guitar and tilted her head to the side studying him. “We’re good together.” Her eyes bugged out when she realized what she had said but then turned into a glare when all Spike did was chuckle.

“When you say together….” He said with smirk as he ran his tongue along the back of his teeth.

“PIG” Buffy yelled as she threw a couch pillow at him.

“Now, now pet, you know you’ve thought about me naked.” He said as he dodged the pillow.

“Am I that transparent?” She asked is mock surprise. Then in the best monotone voice she could muster continued, “I need you, I want you, oh baby, oh baby.”

They both burst out laughing not realizing that they attracted an audience. “What are you two on and why aren’t you sharing any?” Oz asked as he sat down in the chair across from the two blonds.

“Very funny, mate.” Spike replied as he tossed the pillow back at Buffy when she stuck her tongue at him.

“Spikey here was getting ready to play a song for me.” Buffy said as she set her guitar down and got comfy for the show.

“Still having problems with the bridge?” Oz asked as she reached for Buffy’s guitar and raised his eyes to her for permission. “Knock your self out.” Was her reply as she picked up the almost melted ice cream carton and started eating.

“Yeah, tempo’s wrong or something, just don’t feel right.” Spike said as he began to play the troublesome part.

Oz sat there and thought for a minute as he listened to Spike play the chords. “Why don’t you try and slow the whole tempo down like this.” Oz began to play the first verse and Spike smiled “That just might work mate, lets take it from the top.”

Buffy sat mesmerized as she watched Spike’s fingers dance along the strings. Never had she seen him so much in his element. When he started singing, Buffy couldn’t breathe. His voice was hypnotizing.

What day is it?
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can’t keep up
And I can’t back down
I’ve been losing so much time

Cause it’s you and me
And all other people
With nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it’s you and me
And all other people
And I don’t know why
I can’t keep my eyes off of you

Buffy was pretty sure that she was gawking, but she didn’t care. He was hot. ‘I bet he sounds even hotter when he’s getting ready to… bad Buffy, you need to pay attention to the song and not his body, what are you going to say? ‘Oh I’m sorry, could you play it again I was too busy having sex with you in my head and didn’t catch any of it.’ Yeah, right!’

What are the things
That I wanna say
Just aren’t coming out right
I’m tripping on words
You got my head spinning
I don’t know where to go from here

Cause it’s you and me
And all other people
With nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it’s you and me
And all other people
And I don’t know why
I can’t keep my eyes off of you

There’s something about you now
That I can’t quite figure out
Everything she does beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it’s you and me
And all other people
With nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it’s you and me
And all other people
And I don’t know why
I can’t keep my eyes off of you
And me and all other people
With nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And It’s you and me
And all other people
And I don’t know why
I can’t keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

“Much better man” Oz said as he sat Buffy’s guitar back down.

“The great and powerful Oz strikes again.” Spike said as he smiled his approval and sat his guitar next to Buffy’s.

“You two work even better together.” Buffy tried for serious but at Spike’s panicked look she busted out laughing and then squealed when Spike tackled her backwards on the couch.

“Oi, take that back!” Spike said as he began to tickle her mercilessly.
All Buffy managed to squeak out around her giggles was “Never!”

Oz just shook his head at the antics of the two blondes on the couch. His only thought as he made his way back to his room was ‘bout damn time.”

Buffy had managed to get the upper hand when she wrapped her legs around Spike’s torso and flipped them off the couch. When they landed she was on top with one leg on each side of him. With his hands pinned above his head Buffy leaned her chest against his and said “Now what ya gonna do Bleached Wonder?”

Spike was having a very ‘hard’ time thinking. When she pressed her breasts against his chest he was sure that he was going to embarrass himself right then and there. He arched his hips and smiled as she closed her eyes and let out a raspy moan when he pressed his hardness against her center. Seeing his opportunity to change the game, Spike quickly flipped them so he was on top his face just centimeters from hers. He smirked when she pouted and replied “No fair, that’s cheating.”

In reply all he did was lean down and suck her bottom lip into his mouth. He flicked it with his tongue a few times then released it. They just stared at each other for what seemed like forever, memorizing each others faces.

Buffy surprised them both by grabbing the back of his head and pulling him down for a hard kiss. Everything else disappeared as their tongues began to battle. Spike ran his hands down her side and moaned when he encounter the bare skin of her stomach from where her shirt had risen up. She moaned against his lips and threaded her fingers through his hair making curls appear in their wake.

“You know there are these nifty inventions called dorm rooms.” Cordy sing-songed as she walked into the room with Anya, Lorne, and Willow in tow.

Spike rolled his eyes as he moved to help a prettily blushing Buffy off the floor. He just winked at her then moved to sit back down on the couch pulling her to sit beside him.

“You two could probably give each other many enjoyable orgasms if you were alone in one of your rooms.” Anya said as she plopped down in a chair and flipped on the television.

Buffy was staring at her in amazement while Spike just chuckled and then leaned over to whisper in Buffy’s ear, “You’ll get used to her, luv.” Buffy shook her head and leaned closer to him when he put his arm around her on the back of the couch. She smiled when he absent mindedly started playing with a strand of her hair.

“The queen of bluntness strikes again.” Lorne said as he sat in the love seat next to Cordy.

“I saw you in one of the dance studios yesterday Cordy. Who’s your hottie of a dance partner?” Willow asked as she grabbed a pillow and laid on the floor near Cordy’s feet.

“Oh, that would be Collin Reynolds, her new flavor of the week.” Anya said turning in her chair to smile at the now scowling Cordelia. “I saw him leaving your room which happens to be next to mine. Seriously you could at least try and keep it down.” Anya finished as she turned her attention back to the T.V.

Cordiela blushed a little at the remark and then elbowed Lorne when he tried unsuccessfully to hide his laugh. “Watch it sweetness, I bruise easy.” Lorne said as he rubbed his sore arm.

“He did fill out those sweats he was wearing pretty good.” Willow said trying not to laugh, but failing when all Cordy said was “Oh yeah.”

“What’s so funny?” Riley asked as he walked into the room behind Oz.

“Nothing, just talking about the orgasms Cordy got from her dance partner.” Anya replied, never taking her eyes of the television.

“Sorry I missed it.” Oz said as he sat on the floor and leaned on the side of the love seat next to Lorne.

“We brought movies and popcorn if anyone is interested.” Riley said as he moved to the microwave.

“Oohh, our first official movie night!” Willow exclaimed as she sat up to lean on the side of the loveseat.

“We have Exit Wounds, Monty Python’s Holy Grail, or The Replacements.” Riley read from the moves he was holding.

“Holy Grail!” Came the chorused reply from the room.

“That was easy.” Riley said as he brought over the popcorn and popped the movie in. He turned off the lights and plopped down next to Anya’s chair.

Buffy looked around at everyone in the room. She couldn’t have picked a better crowd to be a part of. She smiled when Spike pulled her closer and kissed the top of her head. She raised her eyes to his and her smile grew when he leaned in to place a soft kiss on her lips. She slid her tongue along his bottom lip seeking entrance and Spike barely suppressed a moan as he tried to pull her closer.

“I can hear your lips smacking over there.” Anya scolded, never taking her eyes from the movie.

With a roll of her eyes, Buffy snuggled closer to Spike and laid her head on his chest.

‘This is gonna be a long night’ They both thought as they turned their attention back to the movie.

Chapter 7 - Decisions

Lorne was the first to wake up the next morning. One look around the room had a sweet smile blooming on his face. At some point in the evening Anya had laid down on the floor next to Riley. Anya not having a pillow decided to use Riley’s chest and now they were cuddled sweetly on the floor with their arms wrapped around each other. Oz was still leaning against the love seat with his head laid back on the arm rest and Willow was using his legs as a pillow. Spike and Buffy were lying on the couch facing each other. Spike had her cradled against his chest as he rested his head on top of hers. Content smiles showed on both their faces. Cordy was next to Lorne with her head on the arm of the loveseat and her legs sprawled over his.

“What a picture we make.” Lorne said quietly to himself as he tried to move without waking up Cordy. A little groan of protest escaped from her lips and he soon realized that his attempts failed. Cordy slowly opened her eyes as she sat up and stretched. “Well, sleeping on the couch just got added to my list of things never to do again.” She winced as she rolled her head around on her shoulders.

“I’ll see your no sleeping on the couch and raise you a sitting on the floor.” Oz replied from his spot still on the floor. He smiled down at the redhead that was now also waking up.

“Sleep well?” He asked when she raised her head to look up at him. The blush on her face as she realized that she was sleeping on his lap was too cute for words. Willow smiled back and ran her hand through her tousled hair. “A little sore actually.” She said as she made to stand up.

Cordy’s groan had woken Spike earlier and he was just enjoying the site of the blonde goddess asleep so comfortably in his arms. He was running his hands through Buffy’s hair when she started to stir ,snuggling further into his embrace. “Time to wake up, luv.” He whispered in her ear. She yawned and rubbed her eyes with her hands making him smile at how innocent she looked in the morning.

Buffy didn’t want to move. She was so comfortable lying with Spike and she decided soon after she woke that she defiantly wanted to wake up like this more often. She opened her eyes and smiled when she saw him looking at her so tenderly. “You sleep okay?” She asked as she gently kissed the tip of his nose. “Best in a long while.” Came his husky reply. She smiled at him and felt chills up her spine when he started to run his hands up and down her back.

“I do believe that this is the first time I’ve slept with a guy and didn’t have an orgasm.” Anya’s voice had everyone in the room turning to look at her.

“I don’t know if that’s a compliment or not so I’m going to keep my mouth shut.” Riley said as he sat up and smiled at the blonde beside him. Anya just smiled back at him and winked. “Oh, it’s defiantly a compliment.”

“Well in that case, thank you.” Riley said as he got up and stretched his muscles.

They all started standing and picking up the mess from the night before. Once the common room was all clean they headed to their respective rooms to get ready for the day.

********

Later that day Spike was sitting at his desk staring at his computer screen. Writer’s block had set in about an hour ago and didn’t look like it was going to be leaving anytime soon. He got up from his desk and laid down on his bed with his hands behind his head. He smiled when his thoughts turned to a certain blonde like they always seemed to do lately. Buffy was amazing. She showed so much passion when she was helping at the Center and he couldn’t help but think that she would be a great mother. Her voice and guitar skills were awesome as well as her piano playing. Her lips were so soft and he was pretty sure he could just get high from kissing them. It was becoming harder and harder just to keep it to kissing though. He usually had no problem controlling his hormones but there was just something about that fireball of a blonde that had them flying off the handle at a moments notice. Just one look from her and he was lost.

His thoughts were interrupted by laughter from the next room. He recognized Buffy’s voice but couldn’t place the other that he heard. Spike got up and went over to the adjoining door. Leaning his ear against the door Spike was able to make out what they were saying.

“What color would you like?” Buffy’s asked the other occupant in the room.

“Um…pink!” The voice replied.

“Okay, pink for Tara, and red for Buffy.” Buffy answered.

Spikes smile widened when he realize that the voice belonged to the amazing little girl from the Center.

“Where’s Spike at?” Tara asked as Buffy began painting her nails.

“He supposed to be in his room writing a paper, but he’s probably hangin with one of the guys on our floor.” Buffy replied.

“Do you think we can go see him before my mom comes?”

“You bet, I’m sure he would love to see you.” Buffy reached for the girls other hand.

“Are you boyfriend and girlfriend?” Tara asked and Buffy froze. What exactly was this thing between her and Spike? Sure they shared a couple of kisses but nothing was ever mentioned about being exclusive.

“I don’t know.” Buffy replied with a frown.

“You like him don’t you?” Tara replied confused look.

“Very much.” Buffy said as she finished up the girls fingers. On the other side of the door Spike was literally jumping for joy. Her next words however had him stopping and staring at the door incredulously “But I don’t know if he likes me in the same way.” Buffy said as she put the cap on the nail polish.

‘WHAT?!’ Spike caught himself right before he blurted out his thoughts. ‘Is she insane?’

“Has he kissed you?” Tara asked with a thoughtful look.

“Yes, miss nosey, we have kissed.” Buffy answered as she grabbed a brush and began brushing Tara’s hair.

“Then he likes you. You don’t kiss someone and not want them to be your girlfriend.”

“It’s not that simple sweetie.” Buffy said as she started to braid Tara’s hair.

“Why not? Brian Kelly kissed Amanda Helms during recess and now they are boyfriend and girlfriend.”

“That’s nice honey but grown-up relationships are more complicated than that.”

“Grown-ups always hafta make things so difficult.” Tara said with a sigh.

Spike had heard enough. ‘I can’t believe she thinks that I don’t like her!’ He was pacing in front of the door when Buffy’s phone started to ring. Telling himself that he wasn’t eves dropping, he leaned against the door again.

“Okay, we’ll be down shortly.” Buffy said to the person on the phone.

“Tara your mom’s here.” Buffy said as she grabbed the girls book bag and headed for the door.

“I didn’t get to see Spike though.” She pouted up at Buffy.

“We can knock on his door and see if he is there, but we have to make it quick cause your mom’s waiting.” Buffy said as she closed her door behind them.

Spike heard the knock and walked over to open the door.

“Spike!” Tara squealed as she threw her arms around his waist and hugged him.

“Hey there Nibblet.” Spike smiled as he hugged her back. “What brings you by my dorm?” Spike said as he looked up at Buffy. He wanted to tell her right then that she was the only one he wanted, but didn’t think that it was a good idea with little ears present.

“I got to stay with Buffy because my mom had some errands to run. She painted my nails and braided my hair” Tara said proudly showing of her fingers and lifting her braids.

“You look beautiful, pet” Spike said as he lifted her up in the air. Tara giggled as he sat her back down on the ground.

“We need to go sweetie, your mom is waiting.” Buffy said as she adjusted the girls bag on her shoulder.

“Bye Spike.” Tara hugged him one more time and started for the elevators.

“See ya Nibblet.” Spike smiled when the little girl turned and blew him a kiss. He pretended to catch the kiss and put it in his pocket. Buffy smiled at their actions and started for the elevator as well.

Spike watched her walk away and smiled when she grabbed Tara’s hand and twirled the little girl. He decided right then and there that when she came back up to the floor she was going to find out just how much he liked her.

Chapter 8 – Connections

The hall was empty when Buffy got off the elevator. She paused a moment at Spikes door wondering what he was up too. ‘You should just go talk to him. Find out what exactly this is between us.’ She stared at the door for a few more seconds before sighing and walking into her room. “Chicken” she muttered to herself as she shut the door.

She kicked off her shoes as she made her way over to her desk. “If your not going to talk to him then you can get some work done.” She said to herself as she reached for her notebook.

She jumped as a pair of strong arms wrapped around her, one around her waist the other over her mouth to cover her scream. “Shhhh, luv. It’s just me.” Spike whispered in her ear. He released her and she turned on him quickly.

“Are you crazy?!” Buffy exclaimed and then scowled when all Spike did was smirk at her.

His gaze turned thoughtful for a moment. “Yes, actually I am crazy.” He placed his hands softly on the sides of her face and moved closer to her. “About you.”

Her eyes grew big and she was having a hard time breathing. “Huh?” was all she said.

“Let me put it another way.” Spike said as he crashed his lips against hers.

Buffy’s surprised squeal turned into a moaned as she wrapped her arms around his neck. Spike grabbed her upper thighs and about lost his balance when she jumped and wrapped her legs around his waist.

“God, I want you.” Spike said as he started to trail kisses down her jaw and neck. He had her pressed against their adjoining door as his hands moved under the front of her shirt.

Buffy was in heaven. The things he was doing with his hands were driving her crazy and all she could do was hold on tight. “Need…now…want…” Making a complete sentence was becoming impossible for her. Spike had unhooked her bra and was gently massaging her left breast as his other hand was trying to get the button undone on her pants.

“I know what you need kitten, Spike’s got ya now, gonna make you feel so good.” He lifted her shirt and quickly latched onto one of her nipples. He flicked it a couple of times with is tongue before moving his mouth back up to hers. He tightened his grip on her as he moved away from the door and walked to her bed. Their lips never lost contact when she unwrapped her legs from his waist and pulled his t-shirt out of his pants. She quickly slipped her hands under his shirt and ran them along his washboard abs. He was making quick work of her jeans and had them pushed down around her feet before she knew what happened.

Spike broke the kiss to pull his shirt over his head. She raised her arms for him and soon her shirt joined his on the floor. Her already unhooked bra fell to the ground when she reached for his belt and soon his pants were around his ankles same as hers. She raised her eyebrow at him when she noticed his lack of underwear. He just winked and quickly kicked off his boots before stepping out of his jeans. She stepped out of hers and pulled him down on the bed with her.

Spike kneeled on the bed between her legs, hooking his thumbs around the sides of her panties and began to pull them down her legs. “Lift up a bit, luv.” She did as she was told and soon they were both lying there naked to each others eyes.

Buffy started to fidget when she saw the intensity in his eyes. She started to close her legs but his hands on her thighs stopped her. “Don’t hide from me, pet. You’re the most beautiful thing I have every laid my eyes on.” She blushed at his compliment but didn’t shy away this time.

Spike started at her toes and began kissing all the way up her legs till he reached her inner thigh. He stopped and turned his eyes too hers. Her hands were gripping the comforter and her eyes were closed. She had a small smile on her face and a pretty blush on her cheeks. ‘Beautiful and all mine.’ He thought as he returned to what he was doing.

Buffy gasped when Spike softly ran his fingers along her outer lips. She had only been with one other guy in her life and he was never one for foreplay. Spike was awaking a whole new feeling in her and she never wanted to stop. When he started to slowly slide his finger past her folds and inside her she was sure she was going to explode with want. ‘This is just a finger, how the hell am I gonna handle all of him?’ She thought as she tried to gain some control. A moan escaped her lips when he leaned forward and started to lick her clit and move his finger around in her.

“You taste so sweet…like honey.” Spike whispered against her pussy lips. When she moaned again he decided to be nice and began licking her with gusto. He smiled when she threaded her hands through his hair and arched her hips off the bed. He could tell she was close and gently bit down on her clit sending her over the edge. “Spike!” Buffy screamed as she experienced the most intense orgasm of her life. He gently continued to lap at her juices until he was certain she was done.

Spike crawled up her body and gently kissed her lips. “You like?” He asked as he pushed her hair away from her eyes. He groaned when she pulled his head down for a heated kiss. ‘I’ll take that as a yes’ he said as he settled himself between her legs. They both groaned when his arousal rubbed against her stomach. Remembering a very important item Spike moved to reach for his pants. “Just a second, luv” He said as he climbed off of her.

“Where are you going?” The uncertainty in her voice had him turning to look at her wide eyes.

“Not going anywhere baby, just getting this.” He said as he held up a small foil packet for her too see.

“Oh.” Was all she said as he ripped the packet open and rolled the condom along his hard length. He settled himself between her legs and leaned down to give her a sweet kiss. “You sure about this luv?” He asked as she raised her eyes to his.

“Positive.” She replied and wrapped her legs around his waist and pulled him completely down on her. He smiled and brushed his lips gently against hers and he slowly slid inside of her.

“Oh God.” Buffy said when he was buried inside of her. She couldn’t believe how big he was and how good he felt.

Spike on the other hand was doing everything in his power to not explode now that he was inside her tight passage. His eyes were closed tight and he was trying to regain control of his breathing. “Damn, luv, your so bloody tight.” He whispered as he rested his head against her shoulder. He stayed still for a few more seconds trying to gain some composure and then slowly began to move in and out of her.

“Spike, please…I need….you feel so good.” Speaking was become an issue again and she bit down on his shoulder to keep from screaming.

“So beautiful....tight….Oh God….” Was all he managed to say in between thrusts. Her moaning was driving him crazy and he was certain that the whole floor could here them.

“So close Spike, harder…please…” She had her eyes close and a look of pure bliss on her face. “Open your eyes, luv.” He said in a husky whisper.

She opened her eyes and locked gazes with him. He sped up his thrusts and pounded into her so hard the bed began to hit the wall. He crashed his lips to hers when she started to scream out her orgasm. “Spike!”

“Buffy…my Buffy…so tight…all mine…” Spike was speaking incoherently and he buried his head in the crook of her neck as he emptied himself inside her.

Buffy was still holding on to him tight enjoying the afterglow as Spike started to move off of her. She held on to him tighter making it hard for him to move. “Luv, I need to throw the condom away.” He whispered against her hair. She pouted at him but non the less, loosened her grip on him. He disentangled himself from her and threw the condom away. As he returned to the bed she lifted the blanket she had crawled under so he could join her.

They were lying side by side with his arm around her waist. Her fingers were resting lightly on his chest. Neither of them spoke for the longest time. Just feeling content to be so close.

“You okay, pet?” He asked in a quiet voice not wanting to break the mood they were in.

“Better than okay.” She said as she raised her eyes to his. “That was amazing.” She placed a soft kiss on his lips and pulled away with a smile.

“My thoughts exactly.” He said with a wink. “I can’t believe you thought I didn’t like you.” He asked and immediately regretted it when he saw the look on her face. ‘Bugger all’ he thought as he closed his eyes.

Chapter 9 – Bonds

Spike would have laughed at the look on Buffy’s face if he wasn’t already in trouble with her. He remembered his mother telling him that it was better to be a fool and keep your mouth shut than to open it and remove all doubt, he decided to keep his shut.

“How did you know I thought that?” Buffy asked as she narrowed her eyes on him.

“Well…” Spike paused for a moment deciding that he was just going to have to tell her the truth, at least if he wanted to keep his privates. “I sort of…maybe…over heard you and the little one talking earlier…in your room…” His voice trailed off as he suddenly found a piece of lint on the blanket very interesting.

“You were spying on me?” She asked quietly, never taking her eyes away from her hands that still rested on his chest.

“I didn’t mean to listen so long. I heard you two giggling and then the bit asked about me.” Spike said as he chanced a look at her. “You mean to tell me you wouldn’t listen if you heard someone talking about you?” He asked as he placed a strand of hair behind her ear.

Buffy thought about it for a minute. Of course she would listen if she over heard someone talking about her. She gave him a little smile as she finally met his eyes.

“Your making it very hard for me to be mad at you.” She said as she traced his sharp cheek bones with her fingers.

“I didn’t mean to upset you, luv. Am I forgiven?” He asked as he leaned down to place a sweet kiss on her lips.

He smiled against her lips when all she did was sigh into the kiss. “I’ll take that as a yes?”

“Not sure, you still may have to convince me.” She squealed when he rolled them over so he was hovering over her.

“I think I can manage that.” He said as he claimed her lips again.

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2 Hours Later

Two bodies lay interlocked and panting. “Am I… forgiven now?” Spike asked as he tried to gain control over his breathing.

“I’ll let you know when my brain starts functioning again.” Buffy replied as she snuggled further in to his arms and yawned.

He chuckled as she closed her eyes. “Tired kitten?” Spike asked as he placed a kiss on the top of her head.

“Someone wore me out.” She pouted up at him never opening her eyes.

“Well, I had to show you I was worthy of your forgiveness didn’t I?”

“You’re forgiven, now go to sleep.” She said already half way to dream land.

“As you wish” He replied following her into sleep.


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*Knock Knock Knock*

Buffy rolled over and glanced at her alarm clock. She groaned as she tried to extract herself from Spike’s body. He mumbled something under his breath as he rolled onto his back, allowing her to get off the bed.

*Knock Knock Knock*

“Buffy you in there?” Came the frantic voice of Willow from the hallway.

Buffy scrambled to get into her robe as Spike started to wake up from the noise. “On my way.” She hollered while tying her robe.

She threw the door open only to have a disheveled redhead rush into her room. Quickly glancing over at Spike to make sure he was covered she turned her attention back to Willow. “Will’s what’s wrong?”

“Cordy’s in the hospital!” Willow had tears running down her face as she tried to catch her breath.

“What?!” “What happened?” Buffy and Spike asked at the same time.

“Riley said they were attacked in the alley behind the gym. Someone hit Riley in the head and knocked him out and then when he woke up Cordy was bleeding and unconscious. We have to go but I can’t drive but we need to see her and make sure she is okay. Riley is okay just a minor concussion but Cordy won’t wake up!” Willow was crying uncontrollably by the time she finished her rant.

“Calm down luv, we’ll get dressed and I’ll drive us to the hospital, yeah?” Spike stood and wrapped up the sheet around his waist.

Willow nodded and watched as he went through the adjoining door to his room closing it behind him. Her eyes grew wide when she realized what she just walked in on and she turned her gaze to Buffy.

“Let’s save that conversation for another time, shall we?” Buffy said as she grabbed her jeans and put them on under her robe. “Who’s all at the hospital?” She asked in hopes to change the subject.

“Um.. just Riley and Cordy. Oz and Lorne went to go get Anya from the art studio and then they were gonna meet everyone there.” Willow said as she sat down on Buffy’s bed and put her head in her hands. “Did someone call her parents?” Buffy asked as she slipped on her flip-flops. “Yeah, they are on the next flight here. They won’t get here till tomorrow though cause they were in Spain on a business trip.”

Buffy sat down on her bed and wrapped her arms around Willow. She looked up when Spike came back though the door and tossed her sheet on the end of her bed.

“Ready to go?” He asked

Both girls nodded and Spike opened the door and followed them out into the hallway. When they got into the elevator Willow’s cell phone started ringing. “It’s Riley!” She said as she quickly hit the talk button. “How’s Cordy?” She asked not bothering to say hello.

“She woke up about 5 minutes ago.” A very tired sounding Riley answered. “Where are you guys?”

“On the way right now. You need anything?” Willow asked.

“Nah, just got a headache from hell but other than that I’m okay. Better now that she’s awake.” Riley replied quietly.

“Hang tight, we’ll be there shortly.” Willow hung up the phone as Spike unlocked his car for them. “She’s awake! She’s gonna be okay!” Willow said as she climbed in the backseat.

“Queen C’s a tough bird, of course she’s gonna be okay.” Spike said as he climbed in behind the wheel. He looked over at Buffy in the passenger seat and winked at her. She smiled back at him as he put the car in gear and headed to the hospital.

Willow was the first out of the car barely waiting till it was at a complete stop before throwing the door open. Buffy and Spike just rolled their eyes and followed her into the hospital lobby.

Riley was sitting on a couch in the waiting room with his head in his hands. He had a white bandaged tapped to the side of his head and some butterfly bandages on his cheek. He looked up when he felt Spike tap him on the shoulder. “Hey man, any news?” Spike asked as he sat down next to him.

“Nothing new. The doctors have been in there with her since she woke up. Haven’t had a chance to see her yet.”

“How are you doing?” Buffy asked as she sat on the coffee table in front of Riley.

“Head hurts like a bitch and they said my cheek might have a tiny scar but nothing as serious as what happened to Cordy.” Riley put his head back in his hands and finally let the tears fall. “I could have done something different. I should have been paying more attention to who was around, I don’t know maybe I would have seen them approach…” His voice trailed off as his emotions got the better of him.

“Don’t do that to yourself man, you didn’t know what would happen.” Spike said. They all looked up when the waiting room doors opened to let in Oz and the others.

Anya was getting ready to talk when a doctor walked into the room.

“Are you here with Cordiela Chase?”

Willow was the one to speak up. “Yes sir. How is she? Can we see her?”

“Ms. Chase is going to be okay. She’s lost a lot of blood from a cut on her abdomen, her left ankle was broken, and she has a nasty black eye, but she’ll pull through just fine.”

Sighs of relief came from everyone in the room. When Anya spoke up. “Can we see her?”

“She actually was asking for Mr. Finn.” The doctor said.

“Go on mate.” Spike said as he stood up beside Riley. “We’ll be here when you get back.”

“Tell Queen C we’re here for her.” Lorne said as he sat down next to Oz.

“I won’t be long.” Riley said as he walked down the hall to Cordy’s room.

After he left the rest of the gang got comfortable as they waited for Riley to return.

Riley walked into Cordy’s room and stopped right inside the door. She was hooked up to oxygen and had a couple of IV’s in her arm. Her eye was purple and swollen shut, and her ankle was in a cast.

“You going to stand over there all night or are you going to come all the way in?” Cordy’s voice was a mere whisper to his ears.

Riley walked over to the side of her bed and pulled a chair closer to her. “I’m so sorry.” He said as the tears began falling again.

“Why are you sorry?” She asked confused.

“I let you get hurt. I should have see it coming or something…I don’t know.”

“With what, your psychic abilities that you don’t have?” She asked with a roll of her eyes. “Riley, you saved my life. I wouldn’t have made it if you hadn’t of call 911 so quick. You didn’t do anything wrong!”

“Still feels like I did.” He said with a dejected tone.

“I’m alive because of you, you big dope! Now shut up and hug me already.” She said with a small smile.

Riley leaned over and wrapped his arms around her in a gentle hug. “Willow and the gang are all out in the waiting room. I’ll go let them know they can come and see you.” Riley said as he let her go.

“Sounds good. Willow wasn’t too hysterical was she?” She said with a giggle.

“Nah, I think the others got the brunt of the craziness that is Willow.” He said as he walked toward the door.

When she didn’t reply he turned to see her looking down at her hands with silent tears running down her face. “You okay?” He asked.

“I’m not going to be able to dance for awhile am I?” Her sad tone about broke his heart.

“Not for awhile sweetheart, but after therapy you’ll heal just fine the doctor said. You’ll be right as rain in no time.” He said as he walked over to her again and kissed the top of her head. “I’ll help you get better I promise. You’ll be up and twirling in those skimpy outfits soon enough!” He said and then smiled when he got her to laugh a little.

“Be right back sweets.” He said with a wink as he walked out the door.

“She’s ready to see everyone now.” Riley said to the gang in the waiting room. As they stood to go down the hall, Anya noticed Spike grab Buffy’s hand and elbowed Lorne to get his attention. “What’s that about?” Anya whispered to him.

“Not sure but it’s about damn time if you ask me, those two have been giving off serious UST for the past week.” Lorne said just as quiet causing Anya to giggle and the others to turn around to see what the commotion was about.

“Nothing.” Lorne and Anya chorused together making the others roll their eyes at them.

“Kids.” Willow said as she made her way down the hall.

Chapter 10 – Proof

Buffy was sitting in her music history class gazing out the window. Her thoughts traveled to the past few months at the academy. Spike and her have been inseparable. Lorne got the lead in the academy’s production of ‘Bye Bye Birdie” and was more of a drama queen than ever. Cordelia was healing quite nicely from her incident and Riley was helping with her therapy at the gym. They have formed a tentative relationship much to everyone’s surprise. They were raised so differently, Riley being a small town farm boy and Cordy a upper class princess. Never the less, they seemed to fit and everyone couldn’t be happier for them. Willow has developed a major crush on Oz who in turn has one on her. The problem seems to be that everyone knows this but them. Anya on the other had was driving Buffy crazy. She saw a picture of Xander in her room and now won’t leave her alone till she makes plans for him to come and visit. ‘Guess Xand’s coming for a visit’ She thought with a roll of her eyes.

She was brought out of her thoughts when all the students started standing and leaving the room. As she bent to gather her things she felt her cell phone vibrate in her pocket. She smiled when she saw Spikes name show up on the caller id.

“To what do I owe the pleasure of this call?” She asked as she walked out of the class.

“Just wondering if you wanted company walking back to the dorm.” Spike said as he walked out of a practice room.

“Well, I saw this really cute British guy earlier today, I was kinda hoping he would ask to walk me home.”

Spike smiled when he rounded the corner of the building and found her walking just ahead of him. “Do I know him?”

“Not sure, but he has these beautiful blue eyes that a girl could get lost in.” She said with a sigh then squealed when a pair of strong arms wrapped round her waist turning her around. Her squeal turned into a moan when Spike crashed his lips to her in a passionate kiss.

“He’s also a really good kisser.” She said when they broke apart.

“Is that right?” Spike said as he leaned his forehead against hers. “Anything else he’s good at?”

“Nope that’s about it.” She said as she turned to start walking.

The only response she got was a low growl as he grabbed her and pulled her backside against the hardness in his jeans. Spike leaned down and ran his tongue along her collar bone, up behind her ear. Buffy’s legs about gave out when his husky whisper sounded in her ear. “What was that kitten?” He turned Buffy around and smiled when he saw the look of lust in her eyes.

“Huh…what was the question?” Buffy’s brain seemed to stop working about the time she felt his hardness against her ass.

“You sure I’m only good at kissing?”

Buffy grabbed the back of his head and crashed her lips to his. Their tongues battled with each other until they were ready to pass out from lack of oxygen. When they were forced to break apart Buffy leaned into whisper in his ear. “Wanna show me what else your good at?”

“Playing with fire, luv.” He said with a growl.

Buffy just winked and said “Race ya.” And with that she was off and running.

“Kitten wants to play.” Spike said with smirk and then took off after his golden goddess.

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“Spike harder….Oh God…..So Good” Buffy was in heaven. Laying beneath Spike was quickly becoming her favorite place to be.

After he caught up to her before the elevator doors shut and pinned her to the back wall of the elevator. Diving in for her neck and sucking on her pulse point till the door opened and they raced to the closest room. After all the clothes had been shed, Spike practically threw her on the bed.

“So tight…my Buffy….all mine.” Now Spike was having a hard time thinking straight as Buffy tightened her walls around his cock. “So wet for me…so sweet.”

Spike suddenly changed their position and threw Buffy’s legs up over his shoulders and then leaned down and gave her the sweetest kiss ever. He started moving again and smiled at the sounds that were coming out of her mouth. She was breathing heavily and her face shown nothing but pure bliss. “God Spike…never so good…harder.”

Spike complied and leaned forward more and sped up his thrusts. An inhuman shriek escaped her lips as the strongest orgasm she had ever experienced raced through her body. Spike groaned as her hot passage milked him for all he was worth, making him follow her into oblivion as he emptied himself inside her.

Once they were able to think clearly again, Spike rolled off her to throw the condom away then turned to look at her smugly.

“What?” Buffy asked as she narrowed her eyes at him.

“Oh, I was just thinking that for me not being good at anything, you sure did scream awful loud.” He chuckled when her face turned bright red.

“You don’t think anyone heard, do you?”

“I’d actually be surprised if they didn’t hear you on another floor kitten.”

“Maybe they’ll think it was Cordy again?” She asked hopefully.

“Queen C and Riley are at the gym, pet, and besides it’s not that bad. Just proves what a stud I am.” A pillow upside his head was the only answer her received.

He chuckled as he got up and started to put his clothes back on. “Come on luv, I’m starving, let’s go get a bite to eat shall we?”

“Leave it to you to think about food when my dignity is on the line. I mean this could change how everyone on the floor sees me. Its not like I’ve slept with anyone but you so it shouldn’t matter, right?”

Spike was just leaning against the door watching her get dressed very much enjoying the show. She was so cute when she rambled. He felt him self get hard again when she bent over to grab her jeans and gave him a great view of her ass.

“I’m not a slut or anything, they all just heard me have crazy wild sex in your room, and oh my god I’m a slut!” Buffy said as she finished getting dressed.

“Far from it luv.” Spike said with a chuckle. “Now come on, I’m hungry.” He grabbed her hand and headed for the cafeteria.

Chapter 11 – Arranging a Visit

Buffy walked into the dorm laundry room and smiled. Spike was standing with his back to her and his headphones on, folding his clothes. She walked up behind him and wrapped her arms around his waist. She was surprised when he grabbed her hands off his stomach and pushed her backwards. “Bloody hell Dru, I told you I wasn’t interested!”

“Umm…who’s Dru?” Buffy asked with narrowed eyes as she folded her arms across her chest.

“Buffy! Pet, I’m sorry I thought you were someone else!” He reached for her and frowned when she stepped out of his reach.

“You still didn’t answer my question, who’s Dru?”

Spike sighed as he rubbed his hands over his face. “Dru’s my ex, she was in here earlier flirting with me and I told her to back off. I swear nothing happened and I’m REALLY sorry I pushed you a minute ago. You okay kitten?”

When all she did was cock her head to the side and stare at him he began to get nervous. “Luv, you in there?”

“Huh? Oh, I’m okay. I just realized that we really don’t know that much about each other. I mean I don’t know about your past relationships, you don’t know about mine. Well Scott wasn’t much of anything except a complete jack ass but you should still know about him.” Buffy was pacing in front of him now completely on a roll with her rant. “I don’t know what your parents do. I don’t know if you had any childhood pets, and you don’t know any of that about me. It’s like our relationship is just based on sex. Great, hot, blow your mind sex granted but that’s not how I want us too be!” She was facing him now with wide eyes.

“Luv, our relationship is not just based on sex. We have only been together a couple of months.” He wrapped his arms around her and she laid her head on his chest. “If you want, after we get done with our wash we can head back to my room and do the whole ’20 questions’ thing with ice cream. What do you think?”

“I think you two need to take the PDA back up to your dorms.” Cordy said as she and Riley came in the room.

“Like you two weren’t going at the PDA thing hot and heavy in the common room the other day?” Buffy said as she rolled her eyes walked over to start separating her clothes.

“That was different, I was helping Riley practice a kissing scene for a play.”

“Practice makes perfect, ain’t that right mate.” Spike said with a high five to Riley.

“What?” The guys asked when both girls glared at them.

“Men” Was there only response.

“Buffy! There you are!” Anya said as she walked into the room. Buffy groaned and closed her eyes. “Hello Anya.”

“You talk to that stud muffin best friend of yours lately?”

Buffy was beyond annoyed at this point. Anya had been constantly nagging her about Xander coming to visit for the past month. “He’s working Anya. I don’t know when he’ll be able to visit.”

“Well, I was thinking that since all of us were staying here for Thanksgiving that he would be able to come up for the weekend. You know just for the holiday?”

Buffy reached into her back pocket and grabbed her cell phone. She knew that Anya wouldn’t let her be until she called so she might as well get it over with. Dialing the familiar number she waited for Xander to pick up.

“Speak into my good ear.” Came Xanders voice on the phone.

“Hey Xand it’s me.” Buffy said as she sat down next to Spike to wait on her clothes.

“What’s up Buffster?”

“Just wondering what you were doing for Thanksgiving. All my dorm mates are staying here and celebrating and I was kinda hoping you would be able to fly in an join us?”

“Any hot girls on your floor?”

“Maybe, you’ll have to come and find out.” Buffy said with a smile.

“I’d love too then. Should be pretty easy to get the weekend off and we don’t work on the holiday anyway. I get to stay with you or do I need to make hotel plans?”

“You can stay with me. Coed dorms and all that.” Buffy said getting excited at the thought of spending the holiday with Xander.

“I’ll call you with the flight details later and we’ll go from there?”

“Sounds great! I can’t wait to see you!” Buffy practically screamed into the phone.

“Me either. Talk to ya later. Bye Buff.” Xander said then hung up the phone.

“He’s calling me later with all the details. Are you happy now?” She said as she slipped her phone back into her pocket.

“Oh god what was I thinking? That only gives me a week to come up with ways to seduce him!” Anya said with wide eyes as she ran from the room.

Buffy’s mouth just dropped open and as she looked at Spike. “What did I just do? She’s gonna eat him alive!” Spike just chuckled and threw his arm around her kissing the side of her head.

“I just fed my best friend to a sex ogre.” Buffy said with a sigh and a shake of her head.

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Buffy was sitting on her bed with her guitar and notebook. When she was walking back from the cafeteria after dinner she got a tune in her head and decided to get it out before she forgot it. Spike went over to finish putting his clothes away then said he’d be over after. She was just finishing the last of the song when her phone started to ring.

“House of Buffy, how do you want your potatoes?”

“Smashed please.” Xander said with a chuckle.

“What’s up Xand Man?”

“My flight will be there Wednesday at 3pm your time and I leave Sunday night at 8 your time.”

“I can’t believe your coming!” Buffy screeched.

“Me either. Do I need to get a cab or can you come and get me?”

“I’m sure Spike will take me to get you.”

“Sounds good. I’ll see you Wednesday Buffster.”

“Can’t wait! Luv ya Xand.”

“You too. Bye.”

“Bye.” Buffy hung up her phone and smiled as she picked up her guitar. This was gonna be great! Now if she could just get Anya to be gentle with him she’d be all set. She started from the beginning of the song when Spike peaked his head in the adjoining door. She nodded her head for him to come in as she continued to play. He sat down beside her on the bed and just listened.

I won’t talk
I won’t breath
I won’t move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think
That I don’t look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I’m attached to you

I’m weak it’s true
Cause I’m afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

I’ve waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only things that’s true
So I will not hide
It’s time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I’ve waited
This is true

You don’t know
What you do
Every time you walk into the room
I’m afraid to move

I’m weak its true
I’m to scared to know the answer
Do you see me too
Do you even know you met me

I’ve waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that’s true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I’ve waited
This is true

I know when I go
I’ll be on my way to you
The way that’s true

I’ve waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that’s true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I’ve waited
This is true

Buffy leaned over and accepted Spike’s kiss. “What did you think?” She asked.

“Beautiful. And the song was great too.” He said with a wink and started kissing her again.

Chapter 12 – Truth or Dare

“Xander!” Buffy screamed when she saw him get off the plane. Spike cringed at the volume of her voice as she took off running and practically launched herself into Xander’s arms.

“Buff…can’t breathe….” Xander said as he tried to extract the excited blonde from around his neck.

“I just can’t believe you’re actually here!” She said as Spike came up to stand beside them. Xander just smiled at her and turned his attention to the platinum blonde.

“You must be Spike.” Xander said as he extended his hand. “Nice to finally put a face with a name.”

“Same here mate.” Spike said as he shook his hand. When Buffy had told Xander about Spike he couldn’t help but instantly like him. Buffy’s excitement at meeting someone was just to infectious and he didn’t have the heart to play the protective friend role. Besides, Angel hasn’t met him yet and that was always interesting to watch. Angel had the ‘big brother’ role down to a tee.

“Let’s head to baggage claim and then head back to the dorm. Willow ordered pizza and I can introduce you to everyone.” Buffy said as she linked her arms through both theirs and started to walk. “I got a rollaway cot for my room so you don’t have to sleep on the floor. I want you to come to the Center with me and the gang tomorrow for the Thanksgiving pageant that I helped with. Oh, and maybe we can have a movie night before you have to go home like we used to back home.” Buffy was on a role now with her talking. Both guys just smiled over her head at one another as the trio made their way through the airport.

**********

“You do realize that this is completely ridiculous, right?” Buffy said to the group in the common room. Dinner was over and they were now all sitting around trying to think of something to do.

“Come on it’ll be fun!” Cordy said as she sat down with her drink next to Riley on the love seat. Buffy was sitting between Spike and Xander on the couch while Lorne and his ‘friend’ Josh sat on the floor in front of the television. Anaya was sitting in the chair next to the couch as Willow sat at her feet. Oz was leaning against the couch by Spike’s legs playing idly with his guitar.

“Come on luv, a little Truth or Dare never hurt anyone.” Spike said as he pulled her closer to his side.

“Fine, who goes first?” She asked as she kicked her shoes off getting more comfortable on the couch.

“I vote Queen C since she thought of it.” Lorne answered.

Cordy nodded and got the game rolling. “Spike truth or dare?”

“Truth.” He replied.

“When and where did you lose your virginity?”

“Not pulling any punches are you pet? I was 15 and we were at summer camp.” Spike replied and glanced at Buffy to gage her reaction. She just smiled at him not in the least bit jealous of his past. After all, they didn’t even know each other then.

Spike just winked at her and continued the game. “Lorne, truth or dare?”

“Truth.” Spike grinned and decided to ask what everyone in the room wanted to know. “Are you and Josh an item?” Spike winced when Buffy elbowed him in the ribs.

“Have been for a week now.” Lorne answered as he grabbed Josh’s hand giving it a reassuring squeeze.

“Good for you mate.” Spike replied.

“Okay Anya, what’s your poison?” Lorne asked.

“Truth.” She replied

“Craziest place you ever had sex.” Lorne said with a wink.

“Couch in the art studio at Brenner Hall.” She said without missing a beat as she returned her heated gaze to Xander. Deciding to give him some slack she turned her attention elsewhere.

“Buffy, truth or dare?” Anya asked.

“Truth.”

“Someone is going to have to pick dare sooner or later.” Cordy said.

Buffy glared at the brunette. “Truth.” She said again. Cordy just rolled her eyes.

“What’s your favorite sexual position?” She asked with a smile.

Buffy turned bright red as she looked at Spike who just wagged his eye brow and smirked at her. She turned her glare to Anya. “You’re the devil.” She said as she thought about how to answer. ‘Just answer and get it over with’ she told herself. “Him on top with my legs over his shoulders.” She answered then buried her face in the pillow that was on her lap. The group just chuckled at her embarrassment when she burrowed further into Spikes side.

“Haven’t tried that one in awhile, so I forget what it’s like.” Anya replied while keeping eye contact with Xander. He just shifted uncomfortably in his seat and looked away from her gaze. Anya just sighed and slumped down in her chair.

“Xand, truth or dare?” Buffy asked wanting to get the focus off of her.

“I’m going with dare.” He said and then instantly regretted it when he received an all to familiar look from his best friend. “Play nice Buff, you love me remember?”

She just gave him an innocent smile. “I dare you to kiss Anya for one minute. Tongue and everything.” She said with a triumphant smile. Everyone tried to hide their laughs when Anya’s face broke out into a wide smile.

“Now who’s the devil?” Xander asked when he stood and helped Anya to her feet. He leaned over and softly pressed his lips to hers. When she put her hands on his shoulders he ran his tongue along her bottom lip asking for permission to deepen the kiss. Deciding that she really liked kissing him, Anya grabbed the back of his head and started kissing him with enthusiasm. Getting lost in her, Xander wrapped his arms around her waist and kissed her back with all he had.

The others stared on with wide eyes as the couple continued to kiss like their lives depended on it. When they pulled apart Xander and Anya just looked at each other wide eyed and panting. The moment was broken when Cordy’s comment sounded through the quiet room. “Now that was hot.”

“Oh yeah.” Willow and Buffy replied at the same time.

“Xand I think it’s your turn.” Spike said with an amused look on his face.

“Right, Josh truth or dare?” Xander asked when he finally found his voice.

“I’m gonna go with truth.” He answered quickly.

“How old were you when you decided you like guys?” Xander asked.

“12. I started paying more attention to the football players than the cheerleaders.” He replied with a small smile at Lorne.

“Oz?” Josh asked the red headed guitar player.

“Dare.” He replied never taking his eyes of his hands as he played.

“Serenade us.”

“Any requests?” Oz asked not fazed at all by the dare.

“Your choice.” Josh said.

“Can do.” Oz said as he started to play louder. The music was slow and soothing and everyone became almost hypnotized by his sound.

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same

All the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me.

Oz grabbed Willow’s gaze and never let go. He wanted to tell her so badly how much he wanted to be with her but couldn’t seem to find the right time or words. She was a red haired beauty to him and he couldn’t get her out of his head

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me.

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done.
It gets hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me

Willow didn’t know what to say. Everyone else in the room didn’t dare say anything as she continued to stare at Oz. She surprised everyone when the tears fell from her eyes and she got up and ran from the room.

“Umm…” Cordy tried to say something but just sent wide eyed looks at Buffy and Anya. Silently in agreement all the girls got up and went after the red head.

The guys just sat their in silence as Oz set the guitar to the side and got to his feet.

“You okay mate?” Spike asked

When all Oz did was shake his head yes and head for the door Spike dared to speak up again. “Where you going?”

Oz didn’t look back as he replied. “To get my girl.” Then disappeared through the door.

“Bout bloody time.” Spike said as he turned his attention to Xander.

“That kiss earlier was pretty hot.”

“What am I supposed to do? There is obviously a spark but I’m heading back to California in a few days.” Xander said with a defeated sigh.

“Well sweets…” Lorne began as he threw his arm around Josh’s shoulder. “You make the most of the ‘now’ and worry about ‘later’…well later.”

“I agree.” Riley spoke up. “Make some memories.”

Xander thought about it for a bit. Anya was gorgeous and a fireball to boot. Why not make the most of it? Not needing any further encouragement he shot to his feet and hollered “I’m doing it!” as he disappeared through the door.

They all just shook their heads and laughed as Lorne replied. “Drama, drama, drama.”

Chapter 13 – Old Enemies

“Willow, honey? Can we come in?” Cordy said to the red heads closed and very locked dorm room door.

When she didn’t answer Buffy knocked a few times and tried again. “Wills, come on sweetie let us in.” Buffy turned to Anya and Cordy and gave them a worried look when sobs could be heard through the door. “Willow, if you don’t open the door I’m gonna go get Spike and have him pick the lock, and you know he can do it.” Buffy tried.

Oz took this opportunity to join the three girls in the hall. “Any luck?” He asked as he shoved his hands in his back pockets.

“Not yet.” Anya replied.

“Okay Wills, I’m gonna go get Spike now!” Buffy shouted through the door.

“No, don’t get him. I’m coming.” Willow said as she unlocked the door. Her eyes widened when she saw Oz standing with them.

“You think maybe we could talk?” Oz asked quietly.

Willow was on the verge of closing the door when Buffy put her foot in the way and smiled. “Spike will have it open in 10 seconds.” She said sweetly. Willow just scowled at her but didn’t shut the door.

She cast a glance over to Oz who was leaning on the wall across from her door. She took a deep breathe deciding that it was best to talk this out with him instead of throwing a potential great thing out the window. “Wanna go for a walk?” She asked him with a shy look.

“Sounds good.” He replied with a nod. He reached out his hand to her and smiled softly when she took it and followed him down the hall.

“Crisis temporarily averted.” Buffy said then started to make her way back to the common room. Xander came running down the hall just in time to knock her on her butt. “Ouchie.” She pouted up at her best friend.

“Oh my! Sorry Buffster!” Xander exclaimed as he helped her to her feet. “You okay?”

“Just peachy.” She answered with a scowl. “I like being knocked on my ass.”

Xander was too preoccupied to reply to her sarcasm. His attention was currently on the other blonde that was looking at him with lust in her eyes. He just smiled as he wrapped his arms round Anya, leaning in to kiss her breath away. Cordy and Buffy just watched in amazement as Xander whispered something in her ear making her smile. Their mouths hit the floor when Anya grabbed his hand and made her way down to her room, disappearing inside.

“I do believe that I won’t be getting any sleep tonight.” Cordy said with a sigh as the girls turned to go back to the common room.

“Very doubtful.” Buffy replied as they walked through the door.

“What’s doubtful luv?” Spike asked as she sat down next to him.

“Cordy getting any sleep. Anya just dragged Xand into her room for some wild monkey lovin.” Buffy replied as she grabbed Oz’s guitar and started to play.

“You all wouldn’t have anything to do with that would you?” Cordy asked as she snuggled next to Riley.

“Not telling.” Spike replied with a wink.

“You wanna stay with me?” Riley asked as he hugged Cordy closer.

“God yes!” Cordy answered making everyone in the room laugh.

**********

Buffy was on her way to the Center to make some final touches on the Thanksgiving program tonight. They all decided that they would pitch in a have their own Thanksgiving dinner in the dorm. Everyone, surprisingly, was up bright and early getting everything in order.

After Willow and Oz came back to the common room last night, they announced that they were officially a couple. Buffy new a little about Willow’s lack of trust in the male species and figured it was a cause to her little break down.

Any and Xander have been absolutely sickening with the massive PDA’s since last night. Buffy couldn’t really blame them though. Xand was leaving in four days and they didn’t know when they were going to see each other again. Guess that roll away cot in her room could be taken down.

Lorne and Josh decided to take on the turkey today. The laughter that sounded through the room last night when they made that little announcement was almost deafening, even after they made it clear they were talking about food. Everyone had taken to their relationship with open eyes and arms. They were just to cute with each other to have it any other way.

Buffy’s thoughts were interrupted when someone ran into her. She groaned as she again got knocked on her ass. “This is getting out of control.” She grumbled as she looked up to see the culprit. Her eyes narrowed into a glare when she recognized that it was Parker, the guy from the lobby during orientation.

“Well look at what we have here.” The guy said as he leered at her. “You finally got knocked down a notch, eh Summers?”

“You’re a jack ass you know that?” Buffy said as she got back on her feet.

“Now that’s not very nice, sugar. Looks like you need to be taught some manners.” Parker said as he grabbed her arms and started to pull her to the alley behind the center.

“Let go of me moron!” Buffy yelled as she struggled to get away from his bruising grip.

“Not a good idea mate.”

Buffy had never in her life been so happy to hear Spikes voice. She would have jumped for joy but the colossal jerk still had her in his grip. “You’re so getting your ass kicked now.” She said as Spike stepped closer to them.

“I think it’s a great idea Giles. She thinks she’s better than me and needs to be taught a lesson.” Parker glared at Spike.

“Remove your hands from my girl or lose your privates.” Spike said taking a step even closer. His hands clenched into fists at his sides. This wanker better listen if he knew what was good for him.

“She’s your girl? How long did it take you to pry those pretty knees apart?”

Parker didn’t know what hit him. Actually he knew exactly what hit him, a really pissed off British guy. Spike’s fist connected with his jaw so hard that he was knocked off his feet. He lost his grip on Buffy’s arms causing her to lose her balance and fall on her ass yet again.

“You okay luv?” Spike asked Buffy when he reached his hands out too her.

“I’m getting really sick of being knocked on my ass!” She growled as she once again got to her feet.

“I’ll kiss it later and make it better.” Spike said with a smirk as he started to inspect her arms for damage. He scowled at the bruise already forming on her left arm. “That son of a bitch!” Was all he said as he turned his attention back to the man on the floor.

Spike made a move to kick him but Buffy grabbed his arm to make him stop. “I believe I’ve earned this.” She said at his confused look. She looked down at Parker and smiled as the pointed toe of her boot smashed into his ribs. He grunted and wrapped his arms around his stomach.

“Consider this your only warning, mate.” Spike crouched down at the doubled over coward. “You come near her again and you’ll be eating your food through a straw for the rest of your life. Got it?” When Parker nodded yes, Spike took Buffy’s hand in his and continued onto the center. “Let’s get you fixed up luv.”

“Wanker.” Buffy mumbled as she let Spike lead her away causing him to chuckle.

Chapter 14- Giving Thanks

“I don’t think I’ll be eating for the next week.” Willow said as she laid her head on Oz’s shoulder.

The ten occupants of the common room were now lounged around and thoroughly stuffed. Dinner had been wonderful, each bringing their own little culinary skill to the table. Josh and Lorne made a lemon seasoned turkey that was too die for. Cordy had taken on the stuffing using her grandmothers recipe. Willow’s pumpkin pie was now one of the gangs favorite and Riley had requested one for his birthday next month. Buffy had made rolls, and her famous double chocolate brownies per Xander’s request. Spike and Oz decided to handle the potatoes, mashed and sweet. Riley called his mother and got her recipe for her noodles, and with a little bit of help from the girls, they turned out wonderful. After Buffy had pretty much busted a gut laughing so hard when Willow asked Xander what he was making, he decided to just take care of drinks.

“I have to agree with you on that Red.” Spike said from his position lounging on Buffy’s legs. Buffy was sitting on the floor with her back against the couch running her fingers through Spike’s hair.

“Who knew that that big of a feast was capable of being made by all of us?” Willow commented.

“Now the problem is going to come in about an hour when we all have to actually move to go the Thanksgiving program.” Xander said as he nuzzled his face in Anya’s hair as she sat in his lap in one of the chairs.

“Speaking of which, I need to actually get going now. Tara is meeting me early so we can practice her song one more time.” Buffy said as she patted Spike’s head so he would move.

“Wanna come with?” She asked him as he got to his feet to help her up.

“Sure thing luv.” He answered.

“You’re all going to be there at 7 right?” She asked the group as Spike grabbed her hand.

“Wouldn’t miss it for the world Cupcake!” Lorne said with a wink.

“Great. See you all in a hour or so.” With that her and Spike walked to her room to get all her things, leaving the rest to start with the clean up.

**********

“I don’t think I can do this.” Tara said as she helped Buffy arrange the music on the piano.

“Tara sweetie, you’re going to be great. If you get nervous just close your eyes and make them all disappear, okay?” Buffy said to the shy little girl.

“How are my two favorite girls doing?” Spike asked when he walked on the stage with two bottles of water.

“I’m gonna mess up I just know it!” Tara said as she looked at the both of them with big scared eyes, taking one of the bottles from him.

“Nibblet, you’re going to be great. Do you even know how wonderful you are?” Spike asked as he kneeled in front of her. Buffy just watched the interaction between the pair and couldn’t help but think what a great father he would make.

“You guys are supposed to think that, you love me.” Tara said with pout.

“We love you very much sweetie.” Buffy said as she stood behind the little girl and placed her hands on her shoulders. “Spike, your mother, and I are going to be with you the entire time and after tonight, everyone else is gonna know how much of a star you really are.” Tara offered a small smile and Spike just winked at her and drew her in his arms. She threw her arms around his neck and hugged him hard.

Buffy just smiled as she sat down at the piano. The program tonight was kind of a talent show with no prizes. Not specifically a Thanksgiving theme just the kids of the community putting on a show for everyone doing the things they love.

“Okay sweetie let’s get you warmed up and then I’ll go help you with your hair, okay?” Buffy said as she started to play the song that Tara picked out to sing.

“Okay.” Tara said as she made her way over to the piano.

As his girls warmed up, Spike had a feeling suddenly hit him. He loved her. He was totally, head over heels, in love with Buffy Summers. Sure he knew he’s probably been in love with her for awhile, but the feeling was never this strong. He watched as she laughed with Tara and played around on the piano. Listened as she helped the little girl with the notes. She was amazing, and she was his. ‘How am I gonna tell her without scaring her off?’ He thought. Spike knew how bad Scott hurt her. Buffy told him some about that part of her life but it was his talk with Xander that filled in the blanks. Scott basically used her and then tossed her aside with something better came along. How anyone could do that to a goddess like her was beyond him but Scott did and Buffy doesn’t trust easy now because of it. His thoughts were interrupted by the giggles of his girls. Buffy was tickling Tara and the little girl was screaming in delight for mercy. He just smiled thinking that he had to tell her soon. He just hoped that it didn’t frighten her away.

**********

The place was crowded. Buffy looked out from backstage and smiled when she saw all her friends sitting fourth row center stage. She caught Spike’s eye and winked when he wagged his eye brow at her.

Turning, Buffy listened to the program director give some final advice to all the kids. She walked over to the piano, and made sure her guitar was secure in the stand beside it. She was playing most of the music the kids were singing to and there were a couple of them that were playing the guitar with her. She was so excited to show the community the talent that these awesome kids had. The dimming of the lights told her it was time to start and she took her place behind the piano. They had a drummer and one more guitarist helping with the music tonight and Buffy had become fast friends with both of them. As the curtains opened she started to play the first song and smiled when the crowed cheered. All the kids participating in the program were in the opening and closing numbers. All together there were about 15. Some were performing by themselves or with a smaller group. Others were ‘background’ dancers or singers.

Buffy’s smile got bigger when all the kids ran on stage taking their places. 11 year old Kerri and 13 year old Brittney were the gymnasts of the group and everyone clapped as they tumbled across the stage with back handsprings. Tara and Ryan were singing lead for this song and they took their spot within the group.

Faith
Trust
Love
Love can
Love can move mountains

There ain’t a dream that don’t have a chance to come true
It just takes a little faith, baby
Anything that we want to do we can do now
There ain’t nothing in our way, baby

Nothing our love couldn’t rise above
We can get through the night
We can get to the light
As long we have our love to light the way, yeah yeah

With a little Faith
Just a little trust
If you believe in love
Love can move mountains
Believe in your heart
Feel with it in your soul now
Love can, love can move mountains
Oh yeah, baby, yeah

Oceans deep and mountains high
They can’t stop us because love is on our side
We can reach the heavens and touch the sky
Just believe in, believe in you and I

If we got love that is strong enough
We can do anything
We’ll get through anything
Cause through it all we will always find a way, yeah

With a little Faith
Just a little trust
If you believe in love
Love can move mountains
Believe in your heart
Feel with it in your soul now
Love can, love can move mountains
Oh yeah, baby, yeah

If you believe in me
I’ll believe in you
If we believe in each other
There’s nothing we can’t do

With a little Faith
Just a little
Trust
If you believe in love
Love can move mountains
Believe in your heart
Feel with it in your soul now
Love can, love can move mountains
Oh yeah, baby, yeah

The crowd was almost defining as the kids hit their final pose with Tara and Ryan right up front. Tara smiled big when she found Spike in the audience clapping and hollering for her. She turned and ran off stage smiling at Buffy on her way by. Buffy winked at her and smiled. ‘I can get used to this’ Tara thought when she made it back stage.

The next act was a group of four girls and two guys from the ‘hip-hop’ dance class dancing to a remix of Justin Timberlake’s ‘Senorita’. The crowd was clapping and hooting along with the performance making the kids confidence grow so much. Buffy laughed when she saw Lorne and Cordy doing the ‘cabbage patch’ in their seats.

The next act up was one Buffy was playing her guitar with. Ryan from the first act was playing guitar with Buffy and singing back up for another kid named Lane. The boys were both 14 and excellent musicians. Lane was in the middle of Buffy and Ryan as they all sat on stools center stage. Buffy and Ryan started playing as the lights dimmed and only a spot light was on them. Buffy closed her eyes when Lane’s voice filled the auditorium, letting the music take her away.

Whenever I’m weary
From the battles that rage in my head
You make sense of madness
When my sanity hangs by a thread
I lose my way but still you seem to understand
Now and forever I will be you’re man

Sometimes I just hold you
I’m to caught up in you to see
I’m holding a fortune
That heaven has given to me
I’ll try to show you each and ever way I can
Now and forever I will be your man

Now I can rest my worries and always be sure
That I won’t be alone anymore
If I’d only known you were there all this time
All this time

Until the day the ocean doesn’t touch the sand
Now and forever, I will be your man
Now and forever, I will be your man

The crowd went wild as the boys took their bows and walked off the stage. Buffy made her way back to the piano and smiled when Tara joined her. Tara giggled when she heard Spike yell “Go get ‘em Nibblet!” Buffy smiled at her and noticed that her confidence seemed to bloom with all the support she got. Tara sat on a stool at the side of the piano facing the crowd with a microphone in her hands. Buffy started to play and an awe settled over the crowd when the little girl started to sing.

There’s a song that’s inside of my soul
It’s the one that I’ve tried to write over and over again
I’m awake in the infinite cold
But you sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours I pray
To be only yours I know now
You’re my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours I pray
To be only yours I know now
You’re my only hope

I give you my destiny
I’m given you all of me
I want your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs
I’m giving it back

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours I pray
To be only yours I pray
To be only yours I know now
You’re my only hope

Mmmmmmmm
Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh

The audience jumped to their feet as Tara finished singing the final notes. Her mother was in the front row crying her eyes out as she clapped hysterically. Spike and the rest of Buffy’s friends were whistling and yelling to her that she did great. She looked over at Buffy who had tears in her eyes but was on her feet clapping with everyone else. Tara smiled as she slid of her stool and took her bow. She waved to the crowd and blew a kiss at Spike and giggled when he pretended to catch it again. She could REALLY get used to this!

The rest of the program went on with out a hitch. The center ended up with over 2,000 dollars in donations as well as some new volunteers from the Academy. Tara and the rest of the kids were stars in the communities eyes now as they should be. The little girl blushed at the flowers she got from Spike after the show and got them all laughing when she announced that his was the best Thanksgiving ever!

Chapter 15 – Advice

Spike was laying on his bed staring at the ceiling. Buffy and the girls decided to get some early Christmas shopping done at the mall and they all left about an hour ago. It had been about a week since the program and a week since he realized he was in love. ‘How the bloody hell am I going to tell her?’ He thought to himself. He got off his bed and started to pace the room. ‘If I tell her and she runs away, I’ll be devastated. But it’s killing me inside to not be able to tell her.’ He sat back down on his bed and put his head in his hands. ‘I need another opinion.’ He said as he got back up and made his way to the door.

“Hey mate you gotta minute?” Spike asked when Riley answered the door.

“Sure, what’s up?” Riley replied as Spike made his way into his room.

“Okay, I’m going to sound like such a ponce but here goes.” Spike sat down on a chair and took a deep breath. “Have you ever been in love?”

Riley just sat there wide eyed for a few seconds before a small smile formed on his face. “You love Buffy?”

“With all my heart.” Was Spike’s quiet reply.

“Have you told her?”

Spike sighed and rubbed his hands over his face. “No. She’s been hurt before very badly, and I don’t know if it will completely freak her out or not.” Spike looked up at Riley. “I can’t lose her now. She’s everything to me.”

Riley sat down on his bed as he thought of how to respond. “I don’t think you’ll lose her, man. I’ve seen the way she looks at you and how you two are together. She is completely smitten with you. I think you just need to tell her how you feel.”

Spike ran his hands through his hair and rested them on the back of his neck. “I’ve never been in love before. But I know it’s love because I can’t breathe when she walks into the room. And when were just lying there, you know….after” Spike grinned sheepishly as he continued. “I can’t explain it, I could just stay that way forever, whispering to her and watching her smile.”

“Wow. You really have it bad.” Riley said

“You don’t know the half of it mate.” Spike said as he rested his head in his hands.

“You need to tell her Spike. You’ll feel better if you do.” Spike looked up at him with a raised eyebrow.

“You tell Queen C yet?” He asked as he tilted his head.

“Not exactly.” Riley replied.

“You love her, right?”

“And then some.” Riley said with a small smile.

“We are right buggered, you know that?” Spike said with a chuckle.

“I repeat, and then some.” Riley said with a laugh of his own.

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“So Anya, have you talked to Xand lately?” Buffy asked as the girls sat down at the food court in the mall.

“You know its only been about three days since he flew back to California but I feel like it has been a lifetime. I miss him so much and only knew him for a couple of days. Is that possible?” Anya asked

“You can’t help who you like or fall in love with for that matter.” Willow said as she took a bit of her fries.

“I know that. I just wish there was a way for him to hang around longer.” Anya said with a sad smile.

“I’m going home for Christmas. Maybe you can come spend the holidays with me and my family if you don’t already have plans. Xander usually stays with us cause his parents take this annual business trip thingy. My family won’t mind.” Buffy said.

“I’ll have to call my folks but that sounds so much better than listening to my Aunt Helen ramble on about her fourth marriage…or maybe it’s her fifth. Anyway, you sure you won’t mind?” Anya asked.

“Not at all, now I’ll have some company on the plane and my brother will like it cause now he won’t have to go shopping with me to finish my last minute Christmas stuff.”

“I’ll call as soon as we get back! This is going to be so cool!” Anya squealed. The girls all laughed at her excitement as they got up to throw their trash away.

“So Willow, how are things with you and Oz?” Cordy asked as they made their way through the mall.

“Great. We don’t get to see each other a lot cause of our schedules. But when we are together it’s just amazing. I know we’ve only been officially dating for about a week now but I feel so close to him.” Willow answered dreamily.

“You too are good for each other.” Anya said. “Are you getting any orgasms yet?”

Willow’s faced turned the color of her hair. “No, and when we do decided to do…you know…that…it’s between us not anyone else.”

“I just think that you’re wasting lots of time just kissing when actual orgasms are so much better.” Anya said with a shrug.

“Okay, how bout Riley.” Willow asked as she tried desperately to get the focus off of her.

“He’s been acting funny the past couple of days. I tried to talk about it with him but he said that everything was fine and that I had nothing to worry about. You don’t think I have anything to worry about do you?” Cordy asked them.

“Honey, I’m sure he just has a lot on his mind with the play coming up and everything. I wouldn’t worry.” Willow said.

“Riley is definitely one of the good ones. I agree with Willow that he is probably just stressed out from the play. He did get one of the main roles.” Buffy said as she linked arms with Cordy.

“I know he is a good guy, I just wish he’d talk to me about what’s bugging him. I mean that’s what I’m hear for.”

“Then tell him that, I’m sure he doesn’t realize that it’s upsetting you.” Buffy replied.

Cordy just smiled at her. “You’re right, I’ll talk to him later.”

“Good, now lets go get some sexy underwear that will knock Xander on his ass when I see him in a few weeks.” Anya said as she made her way into Victoria Secrets.

Buffy just rolled her eyes with a smile as she replied “Christmas is definitely going to be entertaining if nothing else.”

Chapter 16 – Going Home

“Anya! Get your ass out here before we leave you!” Buffy yelled down the hall. The Christmas holidays were upon them and it was time to head to the airport to go to California.

“You got everything love?” Spike asked Buffy as he came up to stand beside her.

“Yep! Everything but my flying companion.” She answered as she turned to yell down the hall once more. “Anya! Don’t make me come after you!” Spike just chuckled as a very flustered Anya came bounding out of her dorm room with two huge suitcases, a duffle bag, and her purse.

“We are only going to be gone for a week and a half!” Buffy exclaimed wide eyed when she got a look at Anya’s stuff.

“You never know when I’m going to need something. I want to be prepared.” Anya said as Riley and Oz came up to help the girls take their luggage down to Spike’s car.

“Remind me to call Angel before we get there and tell him to pick us up in the SUV.” Buffy said with a roll of her eyes.

Anya ignored her as Riley and Oz grabbed the suitcases. Lorne had left for his parents yesterday after his last midterm. Willow and Oz were going to her house for the holidays. Riley was taking Cordy back to Iowa with him since her mom and dad had an unexpected business trip overseas. Spike was staying in New York with his mom. His dad was flying in from London on Christmas Eve.

After the girls said bye to everyone, Spike climbed in behind the wheel and headed to the airport.

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“I can’t believe that we aren’t going to be together for the holidays.” Buffy said with a pout. They were all checked in at the airport and now they were waiting for their flight to be called.

“It’s not going to be that long love.” Spike said as he pulled Buffy closer to his side. Anya was currently going through a checklist of things she and Xander were going to accomplish when she got to California, not paying a bit of attention to the sad couple.

Buffy rested her head on his chest and let out a small giggle.

“What’s so funny love?” Spike asked.

“Oh, just remembering my first night here. I was so home sick that I would have given anything to be back in California. Now that I’m going home, I’d give anything to stay with you. I can’t believe I’m going to say this but I guess you were right.”

“Of course I was right.” Spike said with a smirk. “What was I right about?”

Buffy swatted him lightly on the chest as she answered “You said that once classes got started my homesickness would go away and it did. I miss my family of course but I think I’m going to be much worse without you.” She said as she looked up at him and pouted.

“Kitten, like I said it won’t be that long. We’ll talk everyday, I promise.” Spike leaned in and kissed her lightly. “Now, make sure you call me when your plane lands. Want to make sure my baby got home safe.” He said as he kissed her again.

Buffy blushed as she asked “I’m your baby?”

“Your adorable you know that? After the things we were doing to each other just this morning, you blush when I call you my baby, which by the way you are.” He said with a wink.

“Speaking of this morning. How are we going to go that long without…you know….that.” Buffy asked quietly as her cheeks turned a bright red.

Spike chuckled and replied, “We’ll be fine, besides, haven’t you ever had phone sex?”

Buffy’s eyes grew comically large which made Spike’s chuckle turn into a full blow laugh. “We are so not having phone sex. What if my family hears? Or Anya, she is staying in my room you know.”

Spike looked thoughtful for a moment then said “You’re right, I don’t think you could be that quiet.”

Buffy playfully smacked him on the arm as the announcement for the girls flight came over the loud speaker. Spike leaned in and kissed her soundly on the lips before taking her into a tight hug.

“We’ll be together soon love. Call me when you get there.”

Buffy just shook her head as tears came to her eyes. “I’ll miss you.”

“Only half as much as I’ll miss you sweets.” The couple kissed one more time only stopping when Anya cleared her throat loudly behind them.

“Xander’s waiting on me so lets get a move on.” Anya said as she grabbed her carry-on bag and made for the ticket check.

The blonde couple rolled their eyes as Buffy leaned over to grab her bag. “Just a week and a half. We’ll be fine. I mean, it’s not like we’re going to grow apart in that amount of time…oh god! What if we grow apart in that amount of time. What if you find someone else better than….” Buffy didn’t have a chance to finish her rambling as Spike crashed his lips to hers.

When the need for oxygen became too much, the couple parted. “Love, you are the only girl I could possible ever want. You’re my world and I want only you from now on, okay?” Spike asked as he cupped her face in his hands.

“You mean it?” Buffy asked shyly not able to make eye contact.

Spike placed his hand under her chin and raised her eyes to his. “Forever” was his only reply.

Buffy just smiled and gave him one more quick kiss before turning to catch up with Anya. When she reached the counter and gave the clerk her ticket, she turned and blew Spike kiss, laughing when he pretended to catch it and place it in his pocket.

“Let’s go Buff, or the planes going to take off and I’m not going to get my orgasm’s from Xander.” Anya said as she grabbed her arm and started down the hall to the plane.

“Well, this vacation is defiantly going to be interesting if anything else.” Buffy replied with a sigh as she followed her travel companion onto the plane.

Chapter 17- Realizing

Buffy was exhausted. The flight consisted of trying to catch a nap, and listening to Anya go on about Xander. Anya finally got up to go to the bathroom and when she came back to her seat, Buffy pretended to be asleep in hopes that she would leave her alone. It worked for a little while until Buffy sneezed and Anya insisted that she couldn’t still be asleep after that and started with her rambling again.

When the plane landed she was greeted with open arms by her big brother. She started to giggle as he picked her up and swung her around in circles. “I’ve missed you little sister.” He said as he sat her back down on her feet.

“I missed you to big bro!” She replied as she wrapped her arms around his waist for another hug.

“Damn, I can see that good looks defiantly run in your family Buff, he’s even hotter in person than he is in the pictures I’ve seen.” Anya said making her presence known.

Buffy rolled her eyes but made with the introductions. “Angel, this is Anya. Anya, my brother Angel.”

“Nice to meet you.” Angel said with a smile.

“Believe me the pleasure is all mine. If I wasn’t so into your little sisters best friend then I’d be enjoying orgasms with someone else.” Anya said as she made her way past them heading to the baggage claim.

Buffy laughed at the look on Angel’s face and she linked her arm through his. “You’ll get used to her big brother. Now let’s go get our stuff. I can’t wait to see mom and dad.”

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The car ride home was actually calm. The girls had Angel laughing at some of the stories from school and Angel was telling them about how Joyce was driving him absolutely crazy with getting the house ready for the holidays.

As they all made there way into the Summers house they were greeted with an overly excited Joyce.

“Buffy honey, I missed you so much!” Joyce exclaimed at she wrapped her daughter in a tight hug.

“That’s okay, I learned how to not breathe while I was at school.” Buffy said in a strained voice as her face turned red.

Joyce finally released her and gave her a kiss on the forehead.

“Where’s dad?” Buffy asked as she took off her jacket.

“He ran to the grocery store to pick up some things I needed for dinner tonight. He should be back shortly.” Joyce then turned her attention to the girl standing behind Buffy. “You must me Anya.” She said with a welcoming smile.

“Yes, thank you for letting me stay with you over the holidays Mrs. Summers. I really appreciate it!” Anya said as she held out her hand to shake.

“None of this Mrs. Summers stuff, you can call me Joyce.” She turned to Buffy as she continued. “Now you two go on up and get settled and I’ll call you when your father or Xander gets here.”

“Sounds good.” Buffy replied as her and Anya began to gather all their luggage.

Just then they all heard the back door open. “I’m back.” Hank hollered from the kitchen.

“Daddy!” Buffy yelled as she dropped all her things and ran to the kitchen. When she saw him she immediately threw herself in his arms.

“How’s my princess?” He asked as he hugged her closed to him.

“Great daddy, I’m so happy to see you!” She said as she leaned in and blew a raspberry on his cheek causing them both to giggle.

“Hank honey, come and meet Anya then let the girls go get settled in before supper.” Joyce said from the kitchen doorway.

“Yes dear.” He replied with a sigh as he put his arm around Buffy’s shoulders and led her to the living room.

**********

“When is Xander going to get here?” Anya asked as she and Buffy put there things away in Buffy’s room.

“Mom said anytime. I figured that tonight we would just hang out here and watch movies and stuff, what do ya think?” Buffy asked as she sat down on her bed.

“Sounds like a plan.” Anya replied as she hung some of her clothes in Buffy’s closet.

“Girls, Xanders just pulled up and dinner is ready.” Joyce’s voice sounded from downstairs.

“We’ll be down in a minute.” Buffy answered.

The girls got out into the hallway before Anya suddenly stopped and placed her hand over her stomach.

“You okay?” Buffy asked.

“Yeah, just got a major case of butterflies all the sudden.” She said as she took a deep breath.

Buffy tilted her head to the side as she studied her friend. “You really like him, don’t you?”

“Does the word duh, mean anything to you?”

Buffy just rolled her eyes as Anya walked past her and started down the stairs.

Before she reached the kitchen, Buffy’s cell phone started ringing in her pocket. Looking at the caller ID her eyes widened when she saw Spike’s name on the screen. “Damn, I forgot to call him.” She whispered as she flipped her phone open and sat down on the bottom step.

“I’m sorry I forgot to call when we landed, but the airport was crowed and I just got caught up in the whole family thing, then we had to get our stuff put away and then Xander got here and now dinner’s ready so please don’t be mad!” Buffy was gasping for breath by the time she finished her apology.

She relaxed a little when she heard him chuckling on the other end. “I take it your not mad?” She asked with a sigh.

“I’m not mad kitten, just glad that you got there okay.” Spike answered.

“Everything is fine on this coast, how bout you? You at your mom’s yet?”

“I got here about an hour ago. Campus was getting pretty bare so I decided to leave early and beat some of the holiday traffic.” Spike said as he made himself more comfortable on the couch at his mum’s house. “How was the flight?”

“Not bad, although if I never heard another word about Xander I’d be happy.” She said with a sigh causing Spike to chuckle.

“That girl needs serious therapy.” Spike said as he kicked his boots off and got more comfortable. “What are you plans for tonight, luv?”

“I fully intend on turning into a vegetable this evening. We all decided to just hang out and watch movies since the jet lag is starting to set in.” Buffy replied as she turned to lean on the wall. “What about you? Big evening with your mom planned?”

“About the same. Mum fixed dinner and then we are just going to ‘catch up’ I think she said. Which is always fun.” Spike replied and Buffy could just see him roll his eyes.

Angel chose that moment to walk around the corner. “There you are, you coming cause mom won’t let us start without you and I’m pretty sure Anya is going to make Xander embarrass himself shortly if you don’t get in there.”

Buffy rolled her eyes as Spike chuckled on the line. “I’ll be right there Angel.” She said as Angel made his way back to the kitchen.

“I have to go eat, but I’ll call you later okay?” Buffy asked.

“On one condition, luv.”

“What’s that?” Buffy asked confused.

“You have to be naked when you call.” Spike replied, chuckling when he could practically hear her blushing over the phone.

“Spike, I’m not having phone sex with you.” She said in a whisper.

“Come on luv, you know you want to try it. You said the other day that you were pretty sure my voice alone could make you…”

“Hanging up now!” Buffy said as her face turned ever more red.

She scowled at the laughter coming from the other end of the line.

“You’re impossible you know that?”

“Yet you still want to….”

“Spike!”

“Okay, okay, I’m done. I’ll let you go eat.” Spike said trying to control his laughter.

“Talk to you later, miss you.” Buffy said.

“Miss you too luv, bye now.” Spike answered before he shut off his phone.

He sat the phone down on the coffee table and rubbed his hand over his face. This was going to be the longest week of his life. How was he possibly going to make it that long without her. Every time he tried to tell her how he felt about her, something came up or as was the case most time, he chickened out. The tension eased a little bit when he found out Riley hadn’t told Cordy that he loved her yet. He wished he would have told Buffy before she left. Not being able to tell her got harder everyday.

“You okay sweetheart?”

Spikes raised his head when he heard his mother’s voice in the doorway to the kitchen. Jenny Giles owns and runs the local day care center. Not wanting to give up the kids when her husband Rupert got offered a teaching job back in England she decided to stay in the states and keep the day care going. They flew back and forth from the States and England when whenever they got the chance. “Yeah, mum, I’m fine. Just tired is all.”

Knowing that he was lying, Jenny decided to let it go. He would tell her what was wrong in his own time. “Well, dinner is ready so come and eat then we can catch up afterwards, okay?”

“Sure thing.” Spike replied with a sigh as he got up from the couch.

**********

“You okay?”

The questions startled Buffy out of her thoughts later that night. She turned in her bed too look over at Anya who was looking at her with a curious look.

“Can I ask you something?” Buffy said as she sat up on her bed.

“Does this have anything to do with you being in love with Spike?” Anya said as she sat up.

Buffy’s eyes grew comically large as she stared at Anya. “Who said I loved him?”

“Nobody had to say it. Anyone with half a brain can see that you two are in love.” Anya replied as she rolled her eyes.

“You think he loves me? I mean, what if I scare him off by telling him? What if he doesn’t want that kind of relationship? What if…”

“He loves you!” Anya practically yelled at her to get her to be quite. “He’s completely head over heals in love with you. I’ve seen the way he looks as you Buff. That’s not a look someone gives to their ‘just sex’ partner. It’s love.”

“Really?” Buffy asked trying to hide the smile on her face.

“Yes! Now enough with the mushy talk, I need to get to sleep. Xander’s coming over to show me around town and I have to have plenty of energy for lots of orgasms.” Anya said lying back down and rolling over.

Buffy shook her head as she got comfortable under her covers. A smile formed on her face at the thought of Spike loving her back. Deciding that she would tell him when she got back to New York, she rolled over and drifted off into a Spike dream filled sleep.

Chapter 18 – Confusion

“What’s with the long face?”

Spike turned his gaze from the window of the family room and offered a half hearted smile at his mother. “Nothing mum, just thinking is all.” He said has his gaze returned to the front yard.

“You were awfully quite during breakfast. Anything you want to talk about?” She asked as she sat down on the couch.

Spike let out a long sigh as he joined his mother. “How did dad tell you that he was in love with you the first time?”

Jenny let a slow smile bloom on her face at her sons question. She had a feeling as to what was bothering him. He just had to come to her in his own time. “ Well, it was the summer after High School graduation. We were out for a late night walk and we ended up at the park near your grandparents house. We were sitting on the swings just talking and he told me.”

Spike smiled at the dreamy look his mother wore as she recalled the happy memory. “He just said it? Just like that?”

“Yes.” She grabbed his hand when he didn’t say anything for awhile. “What’s really bothering you?”

Spike sighed and closed his eyes. “I love Buffy more than anything mum. Sometimes it’s so intense that I feel like I can’t breathe.” He took a deep breathe and continued. “I’m terrified to ruin what we have by telling her.”

“Honey, I don’t think you’re going to ruin anything if you tell her you love her. I have a feeling that she is on the same wave link as you are. I saw the way she looked at you when I came to visit last week. If that’s not love than I don’t know what is.”

“You really think she loves me?”

The down right hopeful look in her sons brought a smile to Jenny’s face. “Of course, a mother knows these things!.”

Spike was about to reply when the doorbell rang. “Now go answer the door, I believe it’s for you.” Jenny said with a wink. At her sons skeptical look she just smiled and pushed him toward the door.

Spike walked to the front door and looked through the peep hole. A huge smile bloomed on his face when he saw his dad standing there. “Dad! I didn’t think you would be here till Christmas Eve.” He said as she accepted a big hug from his father.

“Me either. But your mother was very insistent that I get here today. Something to do with a present for you.” Giles said as he bent to get his bag he dropped to hug his son.

“Present for me?” Spike asked thoroughly confused now. He turned to his mother for an explanation. “What is dad talking about?”

“Well, I made a few calls and thought that the best present would be this.” She walked into the kitchen and grabbed a white envelope off the counter and handed it to Spike.

Spike slowly opened the envelope and pulled the contents out. “ A plane ticket?” He asked even more confused when all his parents did was smile.

“Look at the destination.” His father said when all Spike did was stare at them.

“California? Why would you get me a ticket to…” Spike eyes nearly popped out of his head when it all finally sank in. “Are you serious?” He asked once he was able to think again.

“I called Mr. and Mrs. Summers and made all the arrangements. Joyce, Hank, and Xander are the only three that know about the plans and they think it would be a wonderful surprise for Buffy and you as well.” Jenny started to get a little worried when all Spike did was stare at the tickets. “Honey, are you okay?”

“Does she know I’m coming?” He asked after a few more minutes.

“No, we decided that would be up to you to decide, if you wanted to tell her or surprise her. Now go get your bags ready and then we’ll take you to the airport. Your plane leaves in a couple of hours. Xander has made arrangements to pick you up at the airport. His number is in the envelope with the ticket.” Jenny said as she moved towards the kitchen to make Giles a cup of tea.

Not having to be told twice, Spike started for the stairs. He suddenly got an idea and turned back towards his parents. They both reappeared in the kitchen doorway when they heard their names.

“I don’t want her to know I’m coming. I have an idea on how to surprise her.”

Jenny and Giles both smiled as they nodded their heads in agreement. Then laughed out loud when he hollered “You’re the best” to them as he sprinted up the steps.

After Spike got all his things together he grabbed his cell phone and dialed Xanders number.

“Speak into my good ear.” Came Xanders voice on the other end.

“Hey mate, it’s Spike.” There was a muffled noise, loud crash, then finally a door closing. “I take it you’re at Buffy’s?” Spike asked with a chuckle.

“Yeah. I take it you’re coming to wonderful Sunnyhell this fine holiday season?”

Spikes smile got so big Xander could practically hear it on the phone. “You know it mate. Listen I don’t have much time before my flight and I’m going to need your help when I get there.”

“Sure, what do you need me to do?”

Spike continued to get things together as he explained his plan to Xander. About 15 minutes later he heard his father’s voice telling him it was time to get going.

“You’re the best mate. I’ll see you tonight.” Spike said as he grabbed the box with Buffy’s surprise in it.

“Later gator.” Xander said as he flipped his phone closed and headed back in the Summers house.

“What was that all about?” Anya asked as Xander sat back down on the couch next to her.

“Family stuff.” He replied coolly. In his eyes Buffy was family so it wasn’t a lie.

“Drinks all around.” Buffy announced as she made her way in from the kitchen with her hands full.

“So Buffster, what are we doing this evening?” Xander asked. He needed to make sure she was here when he got back with Spike tonight.

“Mom said something about going to the mall this afternoon to finish up some Christmas shopping. I thought I’d tag along and see if I can find something for Spike. What are you two up too?”

“Quality time is in order, don’t you think Anya?” He asked knowing what she would think the ‘quality time’ meant.

“Oh good, orgasm time!” Anya said happily causing Xander and Buffy to roll their eyes.

“Anya, what did we discuss?” Xander asked as he rubbed his hands over his face.

“Oh yeah, I just don’t think it sounds as sexy when you call it ‘quality time’.” She pouted.

“Okay, I think I’m going to go change and go tell mom I’m going with her.” Buffy said as she made her way out of the room. “And don’t be having your ‘quality time’ on my bed!”

“Why aren’t you answering your phone?” Buffy said to herself as she closed her cell phone.

“What was that honey?” Joyce asked her daughter as she looked up from the menu in her hands.

They had spent most of the day at the mall finishing up some Christmas shopping and now they were seated in a booth at a local restaurant.

“Nothing mom, just wondering why Spike wasn’t answering his phone.” She sighed as she placed her phone back in her purse and grabbed her menu.

Joyce looked up at the sad sound in her daughters voice. She was nervous when Buffy first called and said that she had met someone at school. That feeling faded when Xander came home from his visit and told her what a great guy Spike was and how happy Buffy was with him. When Xander called her to tell her Spike was on his way she was excited that she was going to finally meet the guy that stole her daughters heart.

“I’m sure it’s nothing to worry about dear.” Joyce replied as she hid her smile behind the menu in her hands.

Buffy just nodded her head and went back to reading her menu. The waitress came and took their orders. When their food arrived, the conversation was nice as mother and daughter caught up on everything going on in their lives.

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They arrived home later that evening to find Hank, Angel and Anya engrossed in some sci-fi movie in the living room. None of them bothering to look up when the Summers girls walked through the door. After putting all their loot away, Buffy and Joyce joined in an were soon hooked to the movie as well.

About twenty minutes after getting comfortable in a big lounge chair, Buffy suddenly realized that Xander was not there.

“Hey Anya, where’s Xand at?”

“He said something about having to go and finish up some Christmas stuff. He said he would be back to spend some ‘quality time’ with me later.” Any replied never taking her eyes from the television.

Buffy rolled her eyes a the ‘quality time’ comment. Seriously, how much ‘quality time’ could two people have in one day. She felt herself start to turn red when she thought about the ‘quality time’ her and Spike shared the day before she left to come home. She was sure that the entire floor and maybe the ones above and below them got to hear just how much she enjoyed her ‘quality time’. Her face turned even redder when she thought about all the dirty things they were whispering to each other when the pace of their coupling had slowed to a nice leisurely one.

“You okay sis?” Angel had looked over to his sister and noticed that her face was flush and she looked a little sweaty.

Buffy’s head shot up when she realized that someone was talking to her. “Huh?”

“I asked if you were okay. Your face looks a little flush. You’re not getting sick are you?” Angel asked as he tilted his head and studied her better.

“Oh, I-I’m fine. Just tired I guess.” She quickly answered hoping he didn’t realize what she had just been thinking about.

“If you say so.” Angel just shrugged and turned his eyes back to the television.

The doorbell rang and Joyce had to roll her eyes as everyone in the room acted like they didn’t here it. “Don’t worry, I’ll get it.” She sighed as she went to answer the door.

She smiled when she saw Xander on the other side of the door. It turned into a frown when she didn’t see Spike with him. Joyce quietly shut the door behind her as she stepped out on the porch.

“Evening Joyce.” Xander replied as he stepped back to allow her to move away from the door.

Making sure to keep a low tone of voice she asked “Where’s Spike at?”

“Right here Mrs. Summers.” Spike stepped out of the shadows of the porch and smiled at her. “Just wanted to make sure Buffy didn’t see me ‘s all.” He finished shyly.

Joyce smiled in understanding. She reached out her hand for him to shake . “It’s so nice to finally meet the boy that has my daughter so smitten, and please call me Joyce. Mrs. Summers makes me feel old.”

Spike smiled at that as he place his hand in hers. “Nice to finally meet you, Joyce.”

“So how do you want to surprise Buffy? I’m sure you boys already have plan in mind. Do you need me to do anything?” Joyce said as she looked back and forth between the boys.

“Just needed to make sure Buffster was here. She is here right?” Xander asked with wide eyes.

“Yes sweetie, she is here. She is engrossed in a meaningless sci-fi movie with everyone as we speak.” Joyce patiently answered.

“I’ll go in with you then wait a few minutes then tell Buffy that I forgot something in my car and ask if she’ll go get it. The rest is up to bleach boy here.” Xander shook his head in the direction of Spike.

“Sounds like a plan.” Joyce said as she stepped in the house first.

Xander turned to Spike and smiled when he saw him grab his guitar from the porch swing and put it around his shoulder. “You ready for this man?”

“As I’ll ever be.” Spike replied with a small smile. Truth be told, he felt like leaning over the railing and tossing his cookies. He had never been so nervous in his entire life. Feeling his back pocket to make sure his girls present was still there, he took a deep breathe as he looked back up at Xander.

“Okay, I’ll send her out in a few minutes. Good luck.” With that said, Xander went into the house and greeted the summers clan and grabbed a seat by Anya.

A few minutes passed and Xander looked over at Buffy. He knew his best friend wasn’t going to go without some major persuading being that she was the most stubborn person he ever met. Knowing how depressed his best friend had been since she left New York was killing him. He hated to see her that way. He also had a feeling that Spike was in no better shape than she was. He couldn’t wait to see her face when she saw him.

“Hey Buffster?”

“Huh?” Buffy replied barely taking her eyes away from the show.

“I forgot my cell phone in the car. Would you maybe want to go grab it for me?” He held is breathe as he waited for her to reply. He was not disappointed with her reaction either.

“Why can’t you go grab it, you forgot it?” She said with an irritated voice.

“Please?” He tried again.

“Umm…let me think…No…got get it yourself.” She said as she turned her attention back to the movie.

“Elizabeth Anne Summers! He is your friend and he politely asked you a favor. Now go get his phone for him!” Joyce almost laughed at the look on Xander’s face when she intervened. The poor boy’s eyes got comically wide and his mouth was hanging open.

Knowing that she shouldn’t argue with her mother, Buffy reluctantly headed for the front door all the while mumbling something about ‘overbearing mothers and lazy best friends.’ Xander just mouthed a silent ‘thank you’ to Joyce who just winked in reply.

Buffy opened the door and stepped out on the porch. “Geesh, he was just sitting there, he could have gotten his lazy butt up and got the damn phone himself.”

Before she made it to the steps a soft sound had her turning to look into the eyes that have been the leading roll in her dreams since she left New York.

The music was soft and beautiful. Buffy couldn’t have moved if she wanted too when Spike started singing to her.

Maybe it's intuition
some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes
I see my future in an instant
and there it goes
I think I've found my best friend

Spike held her gaze as he took another step towards her. Never in a million years would he have thought that he would be here getting ready to tell the love of his life that she was just that, the love of his life.

I know that it might sound more than
a little crazy but I believe
I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

Buffy shook her head a couple of time trying to decide if she was hallucinating or not. Spike was in New York with his family. Not in California singing the sweetest song to her on her front porch.

There's just no rhyme or reason
only this sense of completion
And in your eyes
I see the missing pieces
I'm searching for
I think I found my way home

I know that it might sound more than
a little crazy but I believe
I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you

I have been waiting all my life
A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I found you

Buffy still couldn’t move as Spike finished singing and placed his guitar against the railing of the porch.

“Are you real?” She asked in a whisper. Afraid that if she spoke too loud he might disappear.

Spike chuckled as he grabbed her pulled her in his embrace. “Yeah, I’m real, pet.”

Wrapping her arms around his waist and inhaling the scent that was purely Spike she spoke again. “What are you doing here? I mean not that I’m complaining or anything, cause hey, you’re here!”

“Well, I have something really important to tell you and it couldn’t wait till we got back to school.” Spike said as he let go of her to grab the box out of his back pocket.

“What’s so important that you had to fly all the way to California to…..” She trailed off when she noticed what he was holding in his hand.

“Buffy, I think you’re what I’ve been waiting for all my life and I’m not letting you go. You’re my heart and soul and I couldn’t imaging being with anyone but you from now on. I love you.”

Buffy was shocked. He couldn’t have possible just told her that he loved her. And he possible couldn’t be standing there holding a beautiful silver ring what a pink heart shaped stone.

“Did you just propose to me?” She asked not able to take her eyes from the ring in his hand.

“Not a proposal. I don’t think we are to that point…yet. This is my promise though. My promise to always be here for you when you need me. A promise that I will always try and make you happy…..If I didn’t just bullocks everything up by telling you all this.” He ducked his head shyly after his confession.

Buffy was sure she was dreaming now. The man that she loved more than anything in her whole life was standing in front of her holding a ring and just declared to love her and basically promised to marry her when they were both ready. Then again she couldn’t be dreaming cause even her dreams didn’t turn out this great.

“Um….pet?” Spike said more than nervous when her gaze just kept shifting from his face to the ring. “Now would be the time to say something.”

Buffy locked her eyes with his when she snapped out of her daze. “Sorry, I thought I was dreaming.” She said with a tiny smile. “Spike I don’t know what to say.”

Spike got a sinking feeling in the pit of his stomach. She didn’t love him. Everyone had told him wrong. “I know this is crazy, I just thought that maybe there was some chance….”

“Spike.”

“You might feel like I feel, but I guess I was……”

“Spike.”

“Wrong. I’m sorry pet, I guess I…….”

“SPIKE!”

His gaze snapped to hers when she yelled his name to get his attention.

“Yeah?” He said dejectedly.

“I love you too.” Was her simply reply.

“You do?” He asked, still unsure if he heard her right.

“Everything you said before holds true from this side too. Now put the ring on my finger and kiss me already!”

He slipped the ring on her finger and put all his pent up tension into the kiss. After oxygen became an issue he broke from her lips and rested his forehead against hers.

“I love you Buffy.”

“I love you too Spike.”