Summary: Begins at the end of the episode "Fool For Love" (Season 5). What if Buffy hadn't kept completely silent when Spike sat down next to her? What if she had asked him to stay and opened up to him, even a little? (Continues through to the end of Season 5 with a dfferent ending then the show.)
Categories: General NC-17 Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance, Action, Angst
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 30 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 140360
Member Since: 11/02/2007
Membership status: Member
Bio:
still a huge Buffyverse fan and have been reading at this site for a long time -
owner of The Whedon World Gallery art site features original art and digital studies plus small amount of fic and poetry -
Membership status: Member
Bio:
still a huge Buffyverse fan and have been reading at this site for a long time -
owner of The Whedon World Gallery art site features original art and digital studies plus small amount of fic and poetry -
Yahoo IM: 
nmcil
Reviews by nmcil
[Report This] Published: 02/23/2005 Updated: 12/31/2005
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 01/07/2015 Title: Chapter 11: Chapter 10 - More Like A Family
Date: 01/07/2015 Title: Chapter 11: Chapter 10 - More Like A Family
You did a great job on this chapter - I've read this story before and I am enjoying it just as much this time.
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 01/08/2015 Title: Chapter 29: Chapter 28 - The End Is Nigh
Date: 01/08/2015 Title: Chapter 29: Chapter 28 - The End Is Nigh
Great final battle chapter -
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 01/08/2015 Title: Chapter 30: Epilogue
Date: 01/08/2015 Title: Chapter 30: Epilogue
It was such a pleasure reading your story again. One of my favorites.
Summary: Buffy/Spike stream of conscious thoughts as they are under Willow's spell. The story tells the events that follow the spell's end.
Categories: General NC-17 Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Sexual Situations
Series: None
Chapters: 29 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 103743
Categories: General NC-17 Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Sexual Situations
Series: None
Chapters: 29 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 103743
[Report This] Published: 05/24/2005 Updated: 07/05/2005
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 04/30/2015 Title: Chapter 25: Thirty-three and Thirty-four
Date: 04/30/2015 Title: Chapter 25: Thirty-three and Thirty-four
Smushy with the ring and his proposal and Joyce - but I enjoyed this just as much as before.
Author's Response: It's a very schmoopy fic. Totally not me. :)
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 04/30/2015 Title: Chapter 29: Chapter Forty
Date: 04/30/2015 Title: Chapter 29: Chapter Forty
Wonderful story -
Author's Response: :)
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 04/30/2015 Title: Chapter 24: Thirty-One and Thirty-two
Date: 04/30/2015 Title: Chapter 24: Thirty-One and Thirty-two
Having fun reading this one again -
Author's Response: Enjoy. :)
Summary: An unsatisfied Buffy comes across Spike while patrolling. This story is set in Season 4. Buffy and Riley are a couple but Spike is pre-chip.
Categories: Porn w/o Plot fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Series: None
Chapters: 17 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 23070
Categories: Porn w/o Plot fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Series: None
Chapters: 17 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 23070
[Report This] Published: 06/26/2005 Updated: 10/17/2006
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 09/16/2014 Title: Chapter 17: Chapter Seventeen
Date: 09/16/2014 Title: Chapter 17: Chapter Seventeen
NICE - I did enjoy it very much.
Summary: Roughly set about 8 months after the last fic
Categories: General NC-17 Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance, Action
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 16 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 29795
Categories: General NC-17 Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance, Action
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 16 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 29795
[Report This] Published: 07/05/2005 Updated: 03/15/2006
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 11/12/2013 Title: Chapter 16: chapter 16
Date: 11/12/2013 Title: Chapter 16: chapter 16
Read this series over at another site - great to see that you have another story in the series. I enjoyed this series very much and look forward to reading your other works.
Summary: This Christmas story is based on a ficlet I wrote for my Never Ever Tell series. I always wanted to extend it and explore their feelings in more depth. Season 3. Spike and Dru have left town, Angel wants to kill himself and Buffy goes to buy a Christmas tree and meets someone she thought she’d never see again.
Categories: General Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 2580
Categories: General Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 2580
[Report This] Published: 11/28/2005 Updated: 11/28/2005
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 12/15/2013 Title: Chapter 1: Chp 1
Date: 12/15/2013 Title: Chapter 1: Chp 1
This is such a wonderful story - one of those neat little gems of the story of Spike and Buffy.
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 12/11/2016 Title: Chapter 1: Chp 1
Date: 12/11/2016 Title: Chapter 1: Chp 1
This is such a wonderful small story - small in words but very big in trying to understand these characters and how they love.
Summary: Buffy's back from the dead and the secret she learned is a doozy. Spike always says magic has consequences.
Categories: General NC-17 Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Sexual Situations
Series: None
Chapters: 8 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 33921
Categories: General NC-17 Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Sexual Situations
Series: None
Chapters: 8 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 33921
[Report This] Published: 12/19/2005 Updated: 05/30/2006
Reviewer: nmcil Signed 
Date: 02/20/2011 Title: Chapter 8: Epilogue
Date: 02/20/2011 Title: Chapter 8: Epilogue
enjoyed reading your story very much -
Summary: Pure Christmas fluff. Just when Spike thinks Santa, as well as the rest of the world, forgot all about him, he receives a cryptic Christmas card that might just bring him the Christmas miracle he wouldn’t even dare to wish for in the first place.
Categories: General Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 3913
Categories: General Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 3913
[Report This] Published: 12/28/2005 Updated: 12/28/2005
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 12/05/2012 Title: Chapter 1: chapter 1
Date: 12/05/2012 Title: Chapter 1: chapter 1
I just love this story and your voice for Spike - it's such, IMO, great study of Spike and his love for Buffy and his return. Heartbreaking lines about Spike and how alone and rejected he feels when he came back.
I have read this before and I think this is the time I have enjoyed it the most. The comic books have revived my love of Spuffy fanfiction and the great writers who have done such wonderful stories and explored these two in all the facets of their relationship.
Summary: Christmas time during S7. Buffy comes to an important realization...
Categories: General Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 6844
Categories: General Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 6844
[Report This] Published: 01/21/2006 Updated: 01/21/2006
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 12/10/2016 Title: Chapter 1: The Miracle of Christmas
Date: 12/10/2016 Title: Chapter 1: The Miracle of Christmas
Love your story - A beautiful and hope filled story for both of them. A wonderful growing up rite of passage story for Buffy and love for Buffy and Spike. To Hell with the rest of them, that's what I say.
Summary: Spike makes Buffy an offer she can't refuse. Set in Season 2, around the time of “What’s My Line – Part 1.” Then it…um…goes a bit AU.
Categories: General NC-17 Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Angst
Warnings: Sexual Situations, Freaky/Kinky
Series: None
Chapters: 3 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 5761
Categories: General NC-17 Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Angst
Warnings: Sexual Situations, Freaky/Kinky
Series: None
Chapters: 3 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 5761
[Report This] Published: 08/26/2006 Updated: 08/27/2006
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 07/08/2015 Title: Chapter 3: Chapter Three
Date: 07/08/2015 Title: Chapter 3: Chapter Three
NICE - had the series been on HBO - this would have made one hell of an episode -
Summary: Written for the Spuffy Kinkathon: Set Post-Chosen, Post-NFA. Buffy receives an unexpected summons to England, where she learns she's not the only one with nine lives. But a mysterious crisis threatens. How far is she willing to go to save the vampire she loves?
Categories: General NC-17 Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance, Action, Angst
Warnings: Sexual Situations
Series: None
Chapters: 27 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 76635
Categories: General NC-17 Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance, Action, Angst
Warnings: Sexual Situations
Series: None
Chapters: 27 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 76635
[Report This] Published: 09/09/2006 Updated: 11/01/2011
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 04/20/2015 Title: Chapter 27: Chapter 27
Date: 04/20/2015 Title: Chapter 27: Chapter 27
Enjoyed your story very much - excellent blend of the series and post series events. Like how you used the Shanshu and Gunn and Illyria along with Buffy's inner circle and Spike.
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 04/19/2015 Title: Chapter 5: Chapter Five
Date: 04/19/2015 Title: Chapter 5: Chapter Five
Great exchange between Xander and Buffy -
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 04/20/2015 Title: Chapter 14: Chapter Fourteen
Date: 04/20/2015 Title: Chapter 14: Chapter Fourteen
Nice exchange between Buffy and Angel -
Love how you had Gunn and Spike be such good friends -
Summary: Response to Shan's challenge 285 at the Bloodshedverse, wherein Joyce survives but other major S5 events occur. Buffy is ripped from heaven, etc, but will Joyce's presence ease the Slayer's burden? Divergence from canon will be light at first. Some dialog in early chapters will be familiar. Characters not mine, for entertainment purposes only, no infringement intended.
Eventual NC-17 (if my courage holds out), Eventual Character Death(s).
Categories: General Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance, Angst
Warnings: Violence, Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Series: None
Chapters: 22 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 53537
Categories: General Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance, Angst
Warnings: Violence, Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Series: None
Chapters: 22 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 53537
[Report This] Published: 09/13/2006 Updated: 10/24/2006
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 08/15/2015 Title: Chapter 5: Chapter Five: All the Way
Date: 08/15/2015 Title: Chapter 5: Chapter Five: All the Way
great chapter and use of events from the series. Enjoying your story very much.
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 08/16/2015 Title: Chapter 12: Chapter Twelve: Dead Things
Date: 08/16/2015 Title: Chapter 12: Chapter Twelve: Dead Things
Poor Joyce - it's hard to understand how she kept thinking that Buffy could have a normal life when she so clearly was not a normal young woman.
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 08/16/2015 Title: Chapter 18: Chapter Eighteen: Seeing Red
Date: 08/16/2015 Title: Chapter 18: Chapter Eighteen: Seeing Red
Great chapter but in the super misery kinda of way - like your changes to events in the series.
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 08/16/2015 Title: Chapter 20: Chapter Twenty: Fix It
Date: 08/16/2015 Title: Chapter 20: Chapter Twenty: Fix It
It was great reading your wonderful story again - LOVE the perfect selection for saying Good Bye to Xander.
Summary: Buffy is still reeling from seeing Spike and Anya together, but the Trio doesn't give her the chance to catch her breath. When the Trios' plan backfires, Buffy and Spike are catapulted back in time, and must face their own demons, and find a way to get back.
Categories: General Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance, Action, Angst
Warnings: Violence, Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Series: None
Chapters: 37 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 54957
Categories: General Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance, Action, Angst
Warnings: Violence, Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Series: None
Chapters: 37 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 54957
[Report This] Published: 09/20/2006 Updated: 06/21/2007
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 09/26/2015 Title: Chapter 2: Chapter 2
Date: 09/26/2015 Title: Chapter 2: Chapter 2
NICE - double Buffy - time travel that is always a bad thing.
Summary: Follow's canon up to the Something Blue episode then goes AU from there.
One of the demons chasing the 'demon magnet' injures Spike.
I don't own, wish I did! Please don't sue.
Beta'd by Spikeslovebite. Banner by Karyn.
Categories: General Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance, Angst
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 12 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 26588
Categories: General Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance, Angst
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 12 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 26588
[Report This] Published: 11/07/2006 Updated: 11/20/2006
Reviewer: nmcil Signed
Date: 08/05/2015 Title: Chapter 12: On With The Show
Date: 08/05/2015 Title: Chapter 12: On With The Show
I love this story - was in need of some Spuffy with lots of Hope and Transformation your story was perfect.