I first read this fic on the Buffy and Spike Diaries so I honestly don't even know if it's posted here, but it was a story where Spike was part of the Scoobies before he was kidnapped and tortured (by the government?). When he was rescued/released he was primal, and he had kept his mind together when the torture got really bad by imagining the hair colors of the women close to him: Buffy, Dawn, Willow and Tara, I think. He envisioned them as a shield around himself, protecting him from the pain. One of the ways they got him back to his normal self was by calling in Angel to trade blood and sort of re-establish the 'sire' connection. For some reason I think 'colors' was part of the title, but maybe not. Thanks for any and all help, this is bugging the crap out of me! |