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To say I was blown away by the number of reviews Chapter 23 got, would be the understatement of the year. THANK YOU! thank you, all of you so, so, so much :-D You made my week :-)


Also in case anyone missed it, I posted Chapter 23 on Sunday..you should read that one before you read this one.
In case anyone missed it, I posted Chapter 23 on Sunday..you should read that one before you read this one.


Chapter 24: Follow Me



Buffy was driving to the park on Saturday when a song came on the radio that made her stop and pay attention.



You don't know how you met me
You don't know why, you cant turn around and say good-bye
All you know is when I'm with you I make you free
And swim through your veins like a fish in the sea
I'm singing....



William certainly made her feel free whenever he was around. With him there it was easy to pretend that she was somewhere else, was someone else. He made it so easy to forget who and where she was, while at the same time, reminding her who she really was better than anyone had ever been able to. Anyone.



And he really had gotten in her system, it was getting harder and harder every day—hell every minute—to deny her feelings for him; she was just glad he'd decided to be the noble one and keep a lid on things, Lord knows what regretful (she was married after all, not something she took lightly) things she would have done by now otherwise.



Follow me
Everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you want to leave
I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me



He would make everything alright if she went with him, wouldn't he?



He'd keep her safe and loved and cared for, for as long as she let him. And she really didn't think she'd ever find anyone else quite like William.



When she'd first started to have these 'feelings' for William she'd thought that maybe it was just because he was different that Angel and that he wasn't really that unique. But as she'd thought about it, she realized that there were a lot more men like Angel (maybe not quite like him) than like William.



Won't give you money
I can't give you the sky
It better off if you don't ask why



Except that he could, William wouldn't be just some no good guy that she ran away with, he'd take care of her—monetary and otherwise, she was sure of that. He would give her the sky, too—and anything else she asked for. And that was just it, all she had to do was ask.



And that scared the shit out of her.



It had been a long time, if ever, since she knew that someone had that much feeling for her. Not only would he love her, he'd be there for Sam and take care of her as if she were his own.



But she was still scared that someday he would realize that she wasn't worth it.



And what would she do then?



*(*(*(*I*)*)*)*



Buffy shut off the radio before the song could finish. "Mommy, why'd you turn it off? I like the fishy song." Sam asked her mother.



"What do you mean the fishy song?"



"He says he's a fish, it's the fishy song."



Buffy realized in that instant how much simpler things would be if only she could see the world through Sam's eyes. Here she has been listening to a song and deciding how it was really a sign for her to leave Angel to be with William, while Sam had listened to the same exact song and just thought it was cool because he sang about being a fish.



If only she could have Sam's view of things.



But even Buffy (or maybe especially Buffy) knew she couldn't very well ask her daughter, "Hey Sam, honey, how would you feel if Mommy left Daddy to go live with William?" Yeah, couldn't ask that.



'But,' Buffy thought, 'you're a resourceful girl, who's good at asking things without really letting on what exactly it is your asking, there has to be a way you can outsmart a 6-year-old to get the answers you need….Even if she is the smartest 6-year-old in the whole world,' Buffy added with motherly pride.



"Sam, honey, can Mommy ask you a question?"



"Yup!"



"Are you having fun with William, doing your school work and everything?"



"Uh huh! And he didn't get mad at me for wanting to give you a birthday party and we made the decorations and the presents and the cake just us. He didn't ask Rose Marie to help us, even though Daddy said she's supposed to make everything. And our cake was way better than hers! And he let me get messy when we made the candles and stuff, we cleaned it up, but he didn't get mad at me for getting glitter on the table!



And, and, and he told me that I was the smartest little girl he knew and I told him he'd have a kid as smart as me, but he said uh uh that I was the smartest little girl. He's so nice, mommy! And he doesn't yell at me even when I do something wrong. He tells me that it was wrong and why it was wrong and why I shouldn't do it again.



And did you know that he used to have a puppy before he moved from England but it was his friends so she kept it when he moved? He said it's name was Kennedy and I told him that was a funny name for a dog and he said that Kennedy was president once, but not the dog Kennedy just somebody with the same name, but that his doggy was a girl.



And he said that maybe I should wait until maybe I'm older to get a dog because it takes a lot of work and you have to walk them a lot and since I have school I wouldn't be able to do it all the time.



And I asked him why some writing looks funny in the book he brought one day and he said because it was…..poe..tree…and that it was supposed to look like that. And I asked him what poetree was and he said it was how they wrote songs, but there's not always music to them. And I asked him if he ever writes songs and he said he has.



And then I asked him what kind and he said he writes love songs and I asked him if he had a girlfriend and he said no.



And he's so much fun Mommy. Why doesn't William have a girlfriend? Then they could have kids and I could play with the baby.



But then I said maybe he should wait to have a baby because I like him playing with me and he said not to worry because he'd need a girlfriend and then a wife and everything before he had a baby. Do you think you'll have a baby Mommy?"



Once again Buffy wasn't sure how Sam had made the connection, but she knew she needed to answer nonetheless. "I don't know honey, I don't think so." Wasn't like she could tell her daughter that she and Angel hardly….yeah.



But she had gotten some good information out of Sam's little speech. It seemed the only time Sam ever talked that much without taking a break was when she was discussing something she and William had done or talked about.



And Buffy realized for the first time just how much her daughter loved William. And she had a pretty good feeling that it was mutual.



Now all she needed to do was figure out exactly how she felt. And more importantly what she was going to do about it.



*(*(*(*I*)*)*)*



Why hadn't he told Buffy about Angel yet? He knew he needed to, knew he couldn't keep it from her forever. But somehow, he just couldn't bring himself to do it yet. He wasn't sure what was holding him back, whether it was the prospect of hurting her or if he just didn't want to risk losing this near daily contact with her. All he knew was that he couldn't do it just yet—something was holding him back.



And he just might have a way of remedying that.





Standing in the grocery store aisle not only could William not believe he was about to do this, but he also couldn't believe he hadn't had the necessary item already at home.



He'd promised himself several years ago, that he wasn't ever going to go back to this. Was going to steer clear of it—be William. But now? Now he knew it was necessary to go back on his word and embrace his former self.



It was only one little thing, but it would mean all the difference in the world.



He picked up the bleach and headed for the checkout.



William was going to become Spike, again.



TBC…….






One more time: Thank you so much for all of the reviews.





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