Summary: Buffy is married to Angel O' Connor. Spike is a family friend who comes to visit the O'Connors one weekend. Secrets are revealed and past problems are resurfaced as Buffy's family falls apart. Who knows what and what are they hiding? There is extreme angst in this story; please do not read if you do not like that sort of thing Nominated at The Breathless Awards. Thank you!
Rated: NC-17
Categories: NC-17 Fics Characters: None
Genres: Angst
Warnings: Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Challenges:
Series: None
Chapters: 48 Completed: Yes
Word count: 77803 Read: 51593
Published: 09/30/2005 Updated: 08/19/2006
1. Prologue - Chapter One by Brat [Reviews - 20] 
(1825 words)
Let me know if you like it and if I should continue it!
2. Chapter Two by Brat [Reviews - 18] (1370 words)
I wanted to try something a little different in this...see if I can do twists and make you guess what's really happening..hopefully I succeed!
3. Three by Brat [Reviews - 16] (1092 words)
special thanks to Ciley for her help!! :)
Thanks for the reviews everyone! :)
4. Chapter Four by Brat [Reviews - 16] (1581 words)
5. Five by Brat [Reviews - 17] (1652 words)
Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!
6. Chapter Six by Brat [Reviews - 11] (1746 words)
7. Chapter Seven by Brat [Reviews - 13] (1733 words)
Hey guys, I wanted to thank all of you who are sticking with this...It's kind of dark, isn't it? lol. Hopefully I don't fall flat on my face weaving this tale. Trying something a little different here, so thanks for reading/reviewing !:)
8. Chapter Eight by Brat [Reviews - 13] (1997 words)
Thanks everyone!
9. Chapter NIne by Brat [Reviews - 13] (1205 words)
10. Ten by Brat [Reviews - 11] (1724 words)
11. Chapter Eleven by Brat [Reviews - 27] (1866 words)
12. Twelve by Brat [Reviews - 16] (1314 words)
Thank you everyone!
13. Chapter Thirteen by Brat [Reviews - 18] (1317 words)
14. Chapter Fourteen by Brat [Reviews - 13] (1343 words)
15. Fifteen by Brat [Reviews - 15] (1412 words)
16. Chapter Sixteen by Brat [Reviews - 21] (1719 words)
So, have I made Spike evil now?
17. Chapter Seventeen by Brat [Reviews - 13] (1887 words)
Thank you everyone, so much :)
18. Chapter Eighteen by Brat [Reviews - 20] (2038 words)
19. Chapter Nineteen by Brat [Reviews - 11] (1699 words)
Thank you everyone! :)
20. Chapter Twenty by Brat [Reviews - 15] (1893 words)
this story has been nominated at the Breathless Awards! Thank you, thank you!
21. Twenty One by Brat [Reviews - 12] (1495 words)
22. Twenty Two by Brat [Reviews - 11] (1807 words)
Thank you everyone for your support and kind words about this story :)
23. Twenty Three by Brat [Reviews - 19] (1279 words)
24. Twenty four by Brat [Reviews - 16] (1448 words)
25. Twenty five by Brat [Reviews - 13] (1623 words)
26. Twenty six by Brat [Reviews - 22] (1428 words)
27. Twenty seven by Brat [Reviews - 16] (2041 words)
28. Chapter twenty -eight by Brat [Reviews - 19] (1799 words)
Check it out ! An update! LOL
29. Chapter Twenty Nine by Brat [Reviews - 13] (1233 words)
Now I know a lot of people hate Buffy at this particular point in the story, and in some small way, I can understand it. Only a small way though. I realize that Spike is a wonderful man that loves her so much and did all these wonderful things for her, however, he did mess up. Yes, Buffy did keep the fact that Lindsey was his daughter from him -- but he knew and he never came forward either. While he was loving Buffy, she was loving Angel. That's just the way it is. She was a woman who did love her husband and was betrayed, not once, but twice by him in a manner that was an incredible blow to her self esteem. Spike did help her and made her feel better, but it's not always easy to bounce back from a hurt that deep. The person she leaned on and trusted, and considered her best friend kept something from her and his betrayal is just another hurt that Buffy had to endure. I have to ask how any of you would feel if the same thing were done to you? Would you forgive only because it's Spike? Or would you be angry as well? People do crazy things when they are hurt: they lash out, they don't always take the high road. She's HUMAN. And so is Spike. It's all part of the journey for everyone involved. Please try to put yourself in her shoes and consider how it would feel if it seemed everyone around you was making choices for you and you felt as if you had no control over your own life. It's a sucky feeling, I've been there.
You guys know me by now, or should anyway. You know that I love the angst and I love the pain (lol). But you also know that I don't want to make a story in which the characters don't grow and learn and evolve. IT WILL HAPPEN. I'm not saying you have to agree with everything she does (or I do), I'm just asking that you try to put yourself in her shoes for a minute and try to UNDERSTAND. That's all.
Thank you :)
30. Thirty by Brat [Reviews - 13] (1821 words)
Thank you to everyone who is sticking with this story
31. Chapter Thirty one by Brat [Reviews - 16] (1928 words)
32. Chapter Thirty two by Brat [Reviews - 29] (1534 words)
33. Chapter Thirty three by Brat [Reviews - 16] (1417 words)
Hope you guys haven't forgotten this story and still care to read it...
34. Chapter Thirty four by Brat [Reviews - 22] (1679 words)
Thanks everyone! :)
35. Thirty five by Brat [Reviews - 9] (1381 words)
36. Thirty six by Brat [Reviews - 13] (1810 words)
I sure hope this chapter makes sense....
37. Thirty seven by Brat [Reviews - 9] (1254 words)
38. Chapter Thirty eight by Brat [Reviews - 11] (1466 words)
39. Thirty Nine by Brat [Reviews - 14] (1487 words)
40. Chapter Forty by Brat [Reviews - 13] (2083 words)
41. Chapter Forty-one by Brat [Reviews - 12] (2357 words)
42. Chapter Forty two by Brat [Reviews - 10] (1312 words)
Thank you everyone!!!
43. Chapter Forty-three by Brat [Reviews - 12] (1284 words)
44. Chapter Forty four by Brat [Reviews - 12] (1653 words)
Thank you, thank you, thank you, for reviewing :)
45. Chapter 45 by Brat [Reviews - 19] (1891 words)
46. Chapter Forty-six by Brat [Reviews - 14] (1309 words)
47. Chapter 47 by Brat [Reviews - 8] (2316 words)
48. Epilogue by Brat [Reviews - 25] (1255 words)
Thank you, thank you, thank you to those that stuck with this story. I know it was tough for a while, a little touch and go, but thank you so much for sticking with it and seeing it through to the end :)