Summary: William "Spike" Giles is a 39 year old famous TV actor. Buffy Summers is his 27 year old best friend. Lately, Buffy is tired of hearing about Spike's womanizing ways and sexual exploits. Then he invites her out to L.A. to visit him on vacation. . . Some truths come to light, some life changes are made and a love that will change everything is discovered. Won Round 14 at Love's Last Glimpse Awards for Judge's Choice and Nominated at Caveman v. Astronauts for Best Angst, Best UST, Best WIP, Best AU and me for Best Author
Rated: NC-17
Categories: NC-17 Fics Characters: None
Genres: Romance, Angst
Warnings: Adult Language, Sexual Situations, Spike/Other
Challenges:
Series: None
Chapters: 56 Completed: Yes
Word count: 97079 Read: 100031
Published: 02/04/2006 Updated: 07/12/2006

1. Chapter One by Brat [Reviews - 33] Liked (2053 words)
Don't hate me for another new story. Please? I am not abandoning MHIY or TMSLL. Those are dear to my heart still. This one has been nagging me and it won't leave me alone...so without further ado....

2. Chapter Two by Brat [Reviews - 25] Liked (1609 words)

3. Chapter Three by Brat [Reviews - 31] Liked (1541 words)

4. Chapter Four by Brat [Reviews - 34] Liked (1915 words)
thank you, thank you, thank you!! :)

5. Chapter Five by Brat [Reviews - 28] Liked (1507 words)

6. Chapter Six by Brat [Reviews - 24] Liked (1806 words)
Thank you to those that are staying with me on this...it's a rough road, but hey...it's Spike. He'll get there. Don't give up on him yet!

7. Chapter Seven by Brat [Reviews - 22] Liked (1494 words)
How bout a midday treat?

8. Chapter Eight by Brat [Reviews - 21] Liked (1549 words)

9. Chapter Nine by Brat [Reviews - 32] Liked (1954 words)
Hey guys, just wanted to thank you for sticking with me on this. :)

10. Chapter Ten by Brat [Reviews - 27] Liked (1852 words)

11. Chapter Eleven by Brat [Reviews - 32] Liked (1657 words)

12. Chapter Twelve by Brat [Reviews - 30] Liked (2761 words)

13. Chapter Thirteen by Brat [Reviews - 20] Liked (1409 words)

14. Chapter Fourteen by Brat [Reviews - 30] Liked (1562 words)
Thank you for the continued support of this story.

15. Chapter Fifteen by Brat [Reviews - 43] Liked (1695 words)
Okay, well, I know that doing this will somehow come back to haunt me, but I'm gonna go ahead and take my chances anyway.

I admitted that I had based this story on JM. I was wrong in saying "based", and shame on me for using that word, since it seems to have been misconstrued into me writing the man's biography. I'm not. I don't know what JM's relationship is like with his son, I don't know what his relationship is like with his ex-wife, I don't know anything about those things. I DO know about Spike though. I do know what his relationship is like with Alicia, I do know what his relationship is like with his ex-wife, and I do know that he has a friend named Buffy. How do I know that? Because I made it up.

I was INSPIRED by JM, but it is NOT about JM. It is about Buffy and Spike. It is about Spike and his journey. It is about a person growing and evolving. It is about a person realizing they might have made some poor choices in their life and making some changes. It is a simple story and it is FICTION. And really, the only time I've thought about JM, is when I've had to read reviews complaining to me that I'm writing about his life and, as I've stated already, I don't know enough about the man to write his biography.

I do not 'bash' a character to just 'bash' a character. That is a ridiculous concept to me. That is not what I do. That is not how I write. I write about things that happen in life -- and I draw on personal experiences as well as things that I've come across that inspire me. It's what EVERY ARTIST DOES. I've heard of people going to a bookstore and seeing someone that catches their eye, and they make up an entire story about them based on what they saw, based on what the person said, etc. Is that the same thing? Is that writing their biography? No.

Again, I am not writing a biography.I am writing fiction. Whatever is gleaned from what I write is up to the interpretation of the reader and I have nothing to do with it at this point. If you do not like it, then simply don't read.

16. Chapter Sixteen by Brat [Reviews - 31] Liked (1828 words)
You guys rock! :)

17. Chapter Seventeen by Brat [Reviews - 22] Liked (1419 words)

18. Chapter Eighteen by Brat [Reviews - 21] Liked (1309 words)

19. Chapter Nineteen by Brat [Reviews - 32] Liked (1544 words)

20. Chapter Twenty by Brat [Reviews - 23] Liked (1520 words)
Thank you everyone!!! :)

21. Chapter Twenty One by Brat [Reviews - 29] Liked (1389 words)

22. Chapter Twenty two by Brat [Reviews - 29] Liked (2027 words)
Hey guys, sorry it's been a while..Real life has been taking up my time --in a good way though :)

23. Chapter Twenty three by Brat [Reviews - 23] Liked (1314 words)

24. Chapter Twenty four by Brat [Reviews - 30] Liked (1823 words)
Miss me?

25. Chapter Twenty five by Brat [Reviews - 27] Liked (1594 words)

26. Chapter Twenty six by Brat [Reviews - 21] Liked (1302 words)
Can you believe it??? I'm updating!!! Yay!!! Ah, it feels good.

27. Chapter Twenty seven by Brat [Reviews - 26] Liked (1660 words)
Check it out..another chapter! Let's see how long this lasts lol

Thank yoiu so much everyone for welcoming me back :) Felt really good to know I was missed and thought of, thank you :)

28. Chapter Twenty eight by Brat [Reviews - 25] Liked (2012 words)
Thank you everyone!! :)

29. Chapter Twenty-nine by Brat [Reviews - 20] Liked (1895 words)

30. Chapter Thirty by Brat [Reviews - 23] Liked (1607 words)

31. Chapter Thirty one by Brat [Reviews - 24] Liked (2044 words)

32. Chapter Thirty two by Brat [Reviews - 18] Liked (1783 words)
Thanks so much everyone!! I really appreciate those that have read and reviewed this story. It means a lot to me :)

33. Chapter Thirty three by Brat [Reviews - 17] Liked (1936 words)
Not sick of the ball yet are you?

34. Chapter Thirty four by Brat [Reviews - 24] Liked (2266 words)

35. Chapter Thirty five by Brat [Reviews - 22] Liked (2251 words)
Thanks everyone!!

36. Chapter Thirty six by Brat [Reviews - 23] Liked (2002 words)

37. Chapter Thirty seven by Brat [Reviews - 15] Liked (1987 words)
Knock me so love if you feel so inclined please! I get all four wisdom teeth taken out tomorrow and could use the love :)

38. Chapter Thirty eight by Brat [Reviews - 20] Liked (2026 words)

39. Chapter Thirty nine by Brat [Reviews - 14] Liked (2301 words)
Hopefully this chapter makes sense as I'm currently feeling quite drugged up lol

40. Chapter Forty by Brat [Reviews - 27] Liked (1436 words)

41. Chapter Forty one by Brat [Reviews - 14] Liked (2059 words)
Hi everyone. Just wanted to say thanks for the reviewing and reading, and for the well wishes. I am feeling better, and funnily enough, will feel even better once I'm off the meds that are making me quite loopy. Plus, it'll be great when I can eat normally again lol. Thank you! :)

42. Chapter Forty two by Brat [Reviews - 17] Liked (1720 words)

43. Chapter Forty three by Brat [Reviews - 20] Liked (1707 words)

44. Chapter Forty four by Brat [Reviews - 25] Liked (1413 words)

45. Chapter Forty-five by Brat [Reviews - 37] Liked (1347 words)

46. Chapter Forty six by Brat [Reviews - 29] Liked (1375 words)

47. Chapter Forty seven by Brat [Reviews - 26] Liked (1683 words)

48. Chapter Forty eight by Brat [Reviews - 25] Liked (1505 words)

49. Chapter forty-nine by Brat [Reviews - 29] Liked (1372 words)

50. Chapter Fifty by Brat [Reviews - 26] Liked (1413 words)

51. Chapter Fifty one by Brat [Reviews - 28] Liked (1842 words)
Thank you so much everyone!!! :)

52. Chapter Fifty two by Brat [Reviews - 26] Liked (1538 words)
Thank you so much everyone for your great reviews!

53. Chapter Fifty-three by Brat [Reviews - 20] Liked (2234 words)

54. Chapter Fifty four by Brat [Reviews - 34] Liked (1765 words)

55. Chapter Fifty-five by Brat [Reviews - 21] Liked (1885 words)

56. Chapter Fifty - six by Brat [Reviews - 66] Liked (1582 words)