Summary: Takes place in an AU where things went a little differently at the end of "What's My Line", and the Initiative came to town a bit earlier than in canon.
Spike is not paralyzed in the church that night, but his unlife is still irrevocably changed. In a misguided attempt to restore her childe, Drusilla performs a spell that goes terribly wrong, and will change the course of not only Spike's life, but the Slayer's as well, forever.
Rated: 18
Categories: General Fics Characters: None
Genres: Romance, Action, Angst
Warnings: Violence, Sexual Situations, Rape, Buffy/Other, Spike/Other, Character Death
Challenges:
Series: None
Chapters: 57 Completed: No
Word count: 145748 Read: 57216
Published: 03/24/2007 Updated: 02/08/2008
1. Coming Home by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 8] 
(2248 words)
2. Big Plans by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 4] (2350 words)
3. Rude Awakening by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 5] (2871 words)
4. A Cry for Help by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 8] (2862 words)
5. Into the Fire by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 5] (2338 words)
6. Accidental Betrayals by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 4] (3119 words)
7. Trapped by the Truth by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 5] (2931 words)
8. Empty by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 4] (2129 words)
9. Facing the Truth by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 6] (2670 words)
10. Common Ground by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 7] (2468 words)
11. Scheming by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 3] (2307 words)
12. Lies and Answers by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 11] (2783 words)
13. Mutual Sympathies by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 3] (3131 words)
14. Unwanted Help by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 4] (3161 words)
15. Secrets and Spells by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 10] (2368 words)
16. Revelations by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 7] (2838 words)
17. Proof Positive by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 6] (3201 words)
18. Consequences by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 5] (2406 words)
19. Aftermath by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 5] (2352 words)
20. Revelations by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 4] (3082 words)
21. Mixed Messages by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 9] (2768 words)
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22. Hard Questions by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 5] (2775 words)
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23. An End to Madness by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 4] (2637 words)
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24. The Face of Evil by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 7] (2627 words)
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25. Loss of Life by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 7] (2175 words)
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26. Common Ground by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 2] (2883 words)
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27. Forgotten Confessions by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 9] (2530 words)
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28. False Conclusions by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 3] (2730 words)
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29. Reversed Roles by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 4] (2235 words)
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30. Tested Loyalties by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 4] (2643 words)
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31. Too Late Now by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 6] (3175 words)
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32. Friends and Enemies by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 6] (2310 words)
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33. Settling Scores by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 6] (2752 words)
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34. Reversal of Fortune by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 7] (2169 words)
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35. Twisted Family Tree by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 7] (2472 words)
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36. Explanations by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 4] (2703 words)
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37. Temporary Solution by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 5] (2615 words)
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38. 38 -- Lulled by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 4] (2655 words)
39. Played by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 4] (2633 words)
40. Future Secrets by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 5] (3036 words)
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41. Priorities by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 6] (2534 words)
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42. A Whole New World by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 6] (2522 words)
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43. Alone by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 9] (2405 words)
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44. Finding the Answers by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 4] (2620 words)
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45. Future History by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 2] (2208 words)
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46. Strange Encounters by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 2] (2378 words)
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47. A Fragile Hope by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 2] (2337 words)
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48. Out of Time by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 2] (2422 words)
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49. Courage under Fire by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 3] (2227 words)
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50. Shattering Illusions by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 2] (2752 words)
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51. Holding Out by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 2] (2284 words)
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52. Interruption by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 3] (2355 words)
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53. Back to Life by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 3] (2195 words)
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54. A Twist in Time by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 2] (2214 words)
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55. Out of Practice by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 2] (2260 words)
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56. Welcome Home by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 2] (1996 words)
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57. Conflict by DreamsofSpike [Reviews - 3] (1901 words)
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