Summary: Goes AU after Chosen. When a grieving Buffy gets a reading from Lorne, she feels she is one step closer to finding the man she lost in Sunnydale's Hellmouth. However, what she doesn't know is that Spike is on a mission. To find out who he was before he woke up dazed and confused in an alley three months ago. First installment in a three part series.
Rated: NC-17
Categories: General Fics Characters: None
Genres: Romance, Angst
Warnings: Violence, Adult Language, Sexual Situations
Challenges:
Series: None
Chapters: 8 Completed: No
Word count: 14688 Read: 8675
Published: 11/16/2009 Updated: 04/01/2011
1. Chapter One by xoChantelly [Reviews - 9] 
(3966 words)
Okay, so just to clarify some things... There is no Wolfram & Hart and Lorne is still running Caritas. Cordy and Connor never got it on which never created Jasmine which never made Connor go crazy or put Cordy in a coma lol
A HUGE thank you goes to PaganBaby and xaphania for a lot of things. This fic probably wouldn't see the light of day if I didn't have them behind me 100%. I want to thank them for listening to me ramble on about plots, giving me suggestions, and helping me figure out the smaller details that helps everything come together really well. They've been amazing, and I'm forever in their debt! They both beta'd this chapter too.
Now, with that said, I would like the readers to know that I have a lot written out already and I'm majorly inspired. I will be posting once a week, every Sunday. I hope everyone likes!! I'm incredibly excited about this fic!
2. Chapter Two by xoChantelly [Reviews - 4] (2315 words)
Sorry its so late in the night, guys! I hope you enjoy this chapter. Beta'd by Xaphania!
3. Chapter Three by xoChantelly [Reviews - 6] (1443 words)
Well, I hope this fic is going as good as I hope. I'm in love with this fic, and I hope you can stick around for it when it progresses. It's going to be good, and the sequel will be better! This was beta'd by xaphania and thansks to PaganBaby for her awesomeness too!
4. Chapter Four by xoChantelly [Reviews - 6] (1795 words)
Thank you to xaphania for beta'ing!
5. Chapter Five by xoChantelly [Reviews - 6] (1450 words)
Okay, so it might not be Sunday for some people, but I have the chapter, all polished up and ready for posting, and its been Sunday for 2 hours. I can't wait to post, so I won't lol. If I did, I probably wouldn't post until late late later today, so meh lol. Hope everyone enjoys! Thank you to xaphania for beta'ing for me!!
6. Chapter Six by xoChantelly [Reviews - 6] (1345 words)
Thank you to xaphania for beta'ing! Thank you to everyone who has reviewed! It means a lot to me. I haven't been getting a lot of review for this, and it's not my most popular fic, but I adore it and I have lots planned for it. If I haven't responded to your review, I will, just give me a bit of time lol. I promise to respond to all of them *big huggggss* Reason for posting early is in End Notes. Hope you enjoy!!
7. Chapter Seven by xoChantelly [Reviews - 8] (1210 words)
Thank you to Amy for beta'ing!
8. Chapter 8 by xoChantelly [Reviews - 3] (1164 words)
So, it's been like, a year since I updated this, which I am really, really, really sorry for. But good news, I seem to be on a flow of words, and I've written a little over 800 words for the next chapter of Almost Famous as well. I'm excited to get back into writing! Though I won't be as frequent as I was when I first started writing, I will post as much as I can. This chapter is also unbeta'd, since I can't seem to get into contact with any of my Spuffy friends that I talk to outside of this site, which is a tad unnerving. I miss them haven't talked to them in over a month! Anyway, I hope you all enjoy, and I hope I still have some readers for this story. Thanks!