Rated: AO-AdultsOnly
Categories: NC-17 Fics Characters: None
Genres: Angst, Romance
Warnings: Adult Language, Character Death, Sexual Situations
Challenges:
Series: Protect Me
Chapters: 20 Completed: Yes
Word count: 41439 Read: 29105
Published: 07/12/2012 Updated: 11/25/2012
1. Follow the Cops Back Home by Rae [Reviews - 11] (2158 words)
New story finally started! All I needed was a few days off work and eventually the writing just poured out of me! I have written about 10 chapters over the last 7 days alone and going by my plan as it stands now that’s half of the story, so although this is still a WIP I am confident that I can (unlike my previous stories) promise an update at least once a week if not more. The updates won’t always be on the same day as my rota at work is always different, but I’ll give you a heads up on my twitter about any updates coming (twitter.com/angelelaurarae don't need to follow me to view)...
This is a sequel to one of my other stories, this is more from Buffy’s point of view, although you won’t be totally in the dark about how Spike feels the beginning will focus more on Buffy. It will become clear why after the first Chapter…I suggest obviously that you read Protect Me From What I Want the first story, which you can find here on my SpuffyRealm account, to get an understanding of background of the characters lives and feelings and what they went through together, but it isn’t a heavy complicated back plot so I hope I get a few new readers too, you won’t be too lost by what’s happening, more that you will lose the insight into the character’s motivations and connections…
I’VE PUT THE WARNING FOR THIS CHAPTER IN THE END NOTE, because I’m aware that it might spoil the story for some, but it is an important warning so if you’re sensitive about any topics (its an upsetting topic, not violence or anything explicit) please scroll down to the end note at the bottom of the chapter and read the spoiler before reading the chapter, however if you don’t usually have any problems then please read on…
2. Come Undone by Rae [Reviews - 5] (1378 words)
Hi guys, I'm staying with my fiancé for a few days, so I thought I'd squeeze in an update before I left :)
3. Devil in the Details by Rae [Reviews - 4] (1861 words)
Hello people! I promised it this morning, but couldn't upload it until now...here you go another Chapter, please as I've said check my twitter for news about updates and follow me if you wish!
UPDATE! My banner is not working for some reason on this Chapter so it might get reuploaded a few times this evening, the text itself will not change at all so don't feel like it needs a re-read, it is only getting edited to try and make the banner visable for everyone because its not accepting the code I normally use!
4. The Never-Ending Why by Rae [Reviews - 3] (1412 words)
Hello another Chapter for you, a small interlude really, where the practicalities pull Buffy away from the cocoon she is making herself at home.
This might seem like an odd thing to put to some people, but I just want to apologise for something in this Chapter that most people will gloss over and think nothing of. I'm going to call someone a 'witch' in the derogatory way, and I'd like to apologise for this if it offends anyone. Obviously you don't know me, but I of all people would not throw around this word negatively in life because of its other meaning. However I am not writing what I would say and so when I tried other words it didn't feel right, it felt very visceral and inappropriate and thats what the line needed...some of you may not get my point but for those that do I needed to apologise!
5. Swallow by Rae [Reviews - 3] (1705 words)
Here's the second update this week (so if you haven't read The Never-Ending Why please go back a Chapter)! Not sure when the next Chapter will be up, its finished, but needs a final edit and I'm working a lot, but check my twitter I'll keep people updated on there when I've started polishing it!
6. Breathe Underwater by Rae [Reviews - 3] (1925 words)
Hey guys, work is going to be crazy for me the next few weeks so I might have to say only one update a week for a while, but hopefully thats temporary and I can push it back to two. Also my banner is no longer working, I keep posting it with the same code I always have but its stopped showing up :/
7. Teenage Angst by Rae [Reviews - 3] (2960 words)
Sorry for no updates this week, work was crazy as I thought it would be, next week I'm doing more overtime than contracted hours! Anyways, I've snuck this in just so I can keep my promise for one update a week! Next week's update should be early on Tuesday or Wednesday :)
8. Speak In Tongues by Rae [Reviews - 3] (2025 words)
Hello, a day late, but I did warn that on my twitter...Basically I've been helping sort through my old stuff at my parents house and its took all my 2 days off work to do it so had little editing time and am shattered, so apologises if there are mistakes in this but I've done my best with the time i had. I don't have another day off work now until next Thursday :(
9. I'll Be Yours by Rae [Reviews - 4] (1810 words)
Here's the update for this week! Hopefully its a welcomed one, there is smut! The reviews have been teetering off here at SpuffyRealm so I hope that doesn't mean people have stopped reading! Anyways I'm starting night college next week (wasn't meant to be but they've moved up my start date suddenly) so I'm going to have less time, I do have next weekend off though, so worst case scenerio it'll be this time next week again for an update. Enjoy!
10. This Picture by Rae [Reviews - 3] (1674 words)
Hello! So we're half way through so I'll give you an update on where I am writing wise. I've been a little busy beaver this week, and I'm pretty set with the Chapters after this up until 13, think they're almost finished editing to my own little standard, so I can start writing the last couple of Chapters next week on my days off, exciting! Quick note about this placebo song, This Picture with its weird lyrics, sad nostalgic meaning and upbeat music is a bit out there, but its a great song, so check it out. Its the one song that doesn't completely fit the Chapter its in, but in my mind its the overall theme of losing someone as Spike sees Buffy disappearing before his eyes thats the reason its here...anyway enjoy the Chapter! More soon!
11. You Don’t Care About Us by Rae [Reviews - 4] (1859 words)
Hello, another update for you lovely people :) Got work for the next 7 days so hence why I've squeezed this in now! I'm in a fantastic mood, thats because my two other stories have been accepted for nominations at the SunnyD Awards (that includes the prequel to this) so I'm very happy right now! I would tell you all to vote, but you don't even have to because the nomination is enough for me! It means my stories are out there a little more being read by a few more people and thats all I could ever hope for...also I'm sure those of you who want to vote will do so either way. But I thought I should share my good news :D
12. Bright Lights by Rae [Reviews - 2] (2015 words)
Hello guys, because of a recent review I realised I have been neglecting first time readers. So I’d like to talk a little about the Placebo element of the story for those who haven’t read Protect Me From What I Want. Basically when I had that story about half finished I was looking for a title. I don’t know where people come up with such great ones, I couldn’t think of a thing, so I looked in my music for something, and on my media player I had a Placebo playlist (because they’re my favourite band I started there) and they have a song called Protect Me From What I Want, that seemed to fit perfectly! Anyway they happen to have also recorded the song in French, and that version is called Protège Moi so when I was doing the same for the sequel that seemed perfect too, so that’s the titles explained.
After I had the playlist up I started looking through their tracks (they’ve had a lot of albums and I have probably about 70songs from them in my library) and the track titles and lyrics in them are very poetic, sometimes vague, sometimes very meaningful, but always beautiful and full of feeling, so I struck upon the idea to title every Chapter with one of their songs, and to include in that Chapter the lyrics from whatever song it was. So every Chapter title in both stories is also a Placebo song. And it works both ways, sometimes the Chapter inspires me to pick a certain song, and sometimes a song would inspire me to write a Chapter for it, it’s been a very fascinating process for me.
Anyway that’s a little bit about the series for those who are interested.
13. Kings Of Medicine by Rae [Reviews - 5] (2433 words)
Here's my update! I've been a busy little bee this week, got a lot of the story written now so it'll be all done soon! Looking at 20 Chapters altogether so although I've only got the last few to write there's still lots for you to read!
14. Ashtray Heart by Rae [Reviews - 2] (2261 words)
Hello again guys, here's another update for you! I'm really close to finishing it now, but the last 2 Chapters (Ch19 & Ch20) are stumping me a little...guess its partly not wanting it to be over!
15. Battle For The Sun by Rae [Reviews - 7] (2890 words)
Sorry its been so long waiting for an update, but I did squeeze this one in to keep my promise of a Chapter a week...I've had the worst few days and I've had to go to the doctors because I keep getting really weepy...he thinks I'm either exhausted, stressed, or depressed basically lol, so he's advised me to work less and do things that I enjoy more often and see if it improves my mood over the next few weeks...so thought I'd finally sit down and edit this Chapter seen as that's something I enjoy! Doctor's orders!
16. For What It's Worth by Rae [Reviews - 3] (3066 words)
Hello, I apologise for being 2 days late and not updating last week. I just don't know what happened, but I was all over the place. One of the reasons I went to the doctors is because I've been so forgetful and unconcentrated, so apologies guys! I'm feeling a lot more myself this week although I'm still struggling with stuff. I've felt like writing and just needed to find the time to do it, so today I'm sitting down to finish this story in rough! ARGH exciting! Anyway before I do here's the update thats been sat waiting on my computer for you all...
17. Twenty Years by Rae [Reviews - 3] (2323 words)
Hey guys, I've been super busy this weekend, but put some time aside today to do some writing; so hopefully I can get this story roughly finished by this afternoon and maybe start posting the last few Chapter next week or the week after! I think I would be sad if I wasn't so super excited about getting a start on my next story!
18. Unisex by Rae [Reviews - 3] (1297 words)
Just want to say a thank you to everyone reading this story at the moment. I've had my issues with writing and updating these past few weeks, and at times I've really struggled because its honestly what I would have liked to spend all my time on. But finally I have finished this story. The next two Chapters will be uploaded next week when they've had a final polish and then thats it!
19. Kitty Litter by Rae [Reviews - 2] (1994 words)
I am so sorry for the delay, these last two chapters have been sitting here all week waiting to be edited, but I have been so ill! Literally unable to move because I had a stomach bug and couldn’t eat anything for days, it just zapped all my energy for the rest of the week. Went to sit and do it yesterday feeling better and I then had a migraine! Don’t know if any of you guys know about migraines with auras, but they are a pain! I always describe it like when you take a photo and can see the bright box of the flash going off for a few seconds after. But basically I get a fuzzy light like that which gets bigger and bigger in an arc across my vision until it goes into my peripheral and eventually disappears. That lasts throughout the migraine, but my vision always stays a bit sensitive for the rest of the day so I couldn't read. So yeah, actual valid excuses this time for the delay! Woe is me!
20. Soulmates by Rae [Reviews - 4] (2393 words)
So this is the SECOND update today! Make sure you haven’t glossed over Chapter 19! Its good I promise, go have a read! Anyways this is the last Chapter! Officially done *tears* with this story!