Yay update! You have me hooked to this story. I think you have made it understandable why she is conflicted but I can't wait until she snaps out of it. :-) As for Palerider's story, thanks to Cordykitten I found it at: http://forever.hybrid-genesis.com/fictions/finished/palerider_curiosity.html. I hope Palerider puts it back up on her site (where I read it) because it's a great story.

Still angsty--but no complaints from me! No use writing a fic if you're going to make it easy on the readers :) This is one of my favourite fics, and the choices you've put in front of Buffy are very difficult for her. You've written an amazing piece of fiction and I can't wait for the next update!

first to your question: It's Pale Riders : It's on Spuffyfantasy but the link says Story not found. Maybe you can mail her if you don't find it. She has some stories of her at this side but not the one you looking for.. Cordykitten Stories archived on the site: CURIOSITY * NC-17 * Buffy lost her husband Angel in a car wreck two years ago, her life seems so pointless, she regrets not having children and is now desperate for a baby. She hates her job, but more than that she hates her womanizing boss. William Devlin. But when he offers her a bit of private work it will change her life forever.