I loved this chapter. I'm so glad Spike went for the truth, even at the risk of losing Buffy. So well written. Loved every word. This is such a fantastic story.

Years ago, I always read and lurked in the shadows, never reviewing. I realized that it was very important to show my appreciation as a reader. I have loved your other stories in the past, but never got around to reading this fic.

Today, I had a chance to catch-up to it and am very happy that I did. I would like to express my appreciation for your story. I don't remember a lot of Jesse what-if tales, and think that this would have worked in canon. Xander's staking of his best friend was definitely part of his character development.

I also am a big fan of Buffy and Spike before the trauma of Angel/Angelus. You nailed Angel's enduring desire for Darla, fitting-in with what we learned from Angel the Series canon.

Even though you've been away from this tale, just know that your story is appreciated whenever it is updated. Thank you for your tale!

Author's Response: Hi lori, I was like you, never reviewing--until I started writing and I understood how it felt to hear from people. You have no idea how much it can encourage you to continue typing words. I really felt toward the end (of when i was actively writing) that I'd lost a lot of my audience. it was a really bad time for me, so I greatly appreciate everyone that makes the effort to let me know they are reading, even if they aren't happy with what is going on. I think I have been fascinated with the 'what if' possibilities surrounding Jesse. It seemed kind of cruel to kill him off so early, and it kind of stunted Xander's growth, I think, and I'm sure you can tell in this fic that I like Xander's character a whole lot more than I ever thought possible! Thanks again for reading and I hope you continue to enjoy it.

Loving this story so far. Your writing is amazing and the storyline is fantastic. Can't stop, I'm off to read the rest.

not hatred and i do like that you finally updated, but i don't like this turn of events. dark, depressing fictions are just not for me.

Author's Response: I'm really sorry to see you go but I completely understand. I would find this hard to read as well.

I don`t usually review, but I absolutely love this story please keep going.

Author's Response: Its wonderful to receive your review! I hope you're still loving it after another couple of chapters!

YES, YES!!! I loved this story and was so sad when it stopped being updated. Please keep posting. This chapter is great, but if you want to stop writing "dark" and come back to the lighter side of Spuffy I'm all for it. Whatever your muse wants to write is fine with me b/c I adore this story!

Author's Response: Well, I'm sure I've broken my records for the past couple of years. There's another update up, continuing the dark side of things. I feel awful with nerves. Ugh. I think it must be time to go to bed and quit worrying, LOL.

haHA! way cuter than creepy stalker guy too! love spike's foolproof plan.

I decided to reread this story, not realizing that it hadn't been finished. I'm surprised you didn't get that many reviews at the start - it's a wonderful tale. And I absolutely adore Redemption Spike - he's my favorite. And you do him very well here. Glad to see a new (to me) chapter. Please finish this if you can - it's really good. I love your fics.

Uh-huh.. Buffy should have trusted Jessie even less; too late now.
Dru knew what would happen...
Buffy not. She doesn't know this demon that attacks her now. And even with an open skull now *is worried what will happen now*

I was thrilled that this amazing story got updated! What a scary and upsetting turn it's taking. I'm hoping that the taste of Buffy's blood that Spike took in his feral state is able to bring him back to himself at least to some degree. Looking forward to more updates!

I've just been re reading this, as I know you havent updated in a while, its a cracking good read and I hope you'll update soon :O)

Yes, please!!! This is such a good story... Don't let it go! :whimper: ...Please?

Hi there! I don't mean to sound pushy, but... Are you planning to finish up this story, or has its muse left for good? (I do hope the muse will be back soon... Maybe she went for coffee?) :-)