Oh, Buffy gave Spike Willow's address? No wonder she didn't want him to drive her home. And Spike wasn't able to convince Willow he was sorry enough for hurting Buffy. ~ But Spike is clever, he found her. Or not.. only the house where she used to live. Her parents kicked her out? I wonder what happend...

Author's Response: :] Thank you for reviewing cordykitten love xx

Oh, wow, really didn't see that coming. I thought that wasn't Faith's kid =P. I adore how Buffy's few friends are so loyal and protective of her, it's gorgeous.

Author's Response: I'm glad you enjoyed it! Thank you so much for reviewing :]

great update, can't wait to learn the real story of buffy's life. more soon please

Author's Response: Okay, I promise :]

Well, not happy with breaking my heart over Buffy's traumatic past (& present) now you have to tie my stomach up in knots with this cliffhanger! I think you're evil for doing so but I'll forgive you just as soon as you post an update and tell us - Who Is Harrison?!! My first thought was that he's her son, now I've gotten this idea that he's going to be her dog or something. Please let Spike find her soon so they can resolve all their misconceptions and they can move on to the Spuffiness!!

Author's Response: Lol- thank you Melly. Sorry about the cliffhanger, though I'm glad you're willing to forgive me :) Just for that I'll get the next chapter up even sooner [type little fingers, type!] xx

oooo this chapter is very mysterious. cant wait to see what happens next!!!!!!!

Author's Response: Thank you rosie

Oh God! As you said, "even more mysteries to add to the pile"... It's going to be a big pile ;)!

So, that's the reason why Spike was so late... Discussion with Joyce, and a very heated one ;)! It's a very good reason, and it seems that Buffy has already told a lot about herself to Joyce... And it seems the girl needs a strong shoulder.

This chapter could be called "Catch her if you can!", the long run after Buffy. Spike tries to find her, and has two very different encounters, "pro-Buffy" and "versus-Buffy".

First, Willow, Buffy's best friend, who tells exactly what Spike deserves (and resumes all what we think ;)). And the way she talks to Spike: "So just stay away from her"... Brrr: she is a real Knight in a Shining Armor, not just a syndrom ;)!

And second, Buffy's parents, Hank and Isabella (Izzy?). Ahem... "parents", so to say. Because all we learn about Buffy's past... She was kicked out, disinherited by her own parents? And the horrid way they talk about her, the words they use. It's not only they hate Buffy, but it seems their own daughter is dead for them.

So, yes, THE question (ter repetitia): WHAT did Buffy do a year ago? Not only to be rejected by her friends, but also by her family?

And again, we have the mysterious Harrison, "that brute of hers", as daddy dearest names him... It seems, more and more, that Harrison is really Buffy's son. But with you, it's more careful to wait to make conclusions ;) ...

Light keeps on staying on Spike :) I just love your last sentences:

"Instead of wondering what Buffy could have done that was so terrible; Spike found himself wondering how he was ever going to be able to find her so he could apologise.

Whatever she’d done, whatever she hadn’t done; it was in the past now. He needed to leave it there, and so did everybody else."

To keep the past in the past, yes... But I have to admit I have a weakness for happy ends where bad people are punished (very slowly and painfully), but also where truth is revealed, old mistakes are rectified... and of course people who were mistaken beg forgiveness groveling and crying ;)! That little thing Giles names "karma".

I'm sorry to learn your computer broke. I had the same problem a year ago. Horrible :(! No need to say I sympathize. Thanks for this new chapter and to keep on updating regularly :)!

Author's Response: Yep, your on the ball again Klai! I'm glad you liked the chapter again- it always makes me happy to see that you approved!! :) Argh- you know my broken computer pain! Thank you for sympathising- it makes the pain all the more bearable. That little laptop was a good friend of mine- it's been a long time since I've used a Desktop Computer like my new one- eek! I like to be writing all over the house, now I can only do it in my room. Ahh well :) Thank you soooooooooooo much for being one of my favourite reviewers ever! You're an utter star, my friend :) xx

VERY MYSTERIOUS, THANK YU FOR UPDATING DID'NT REALIZE YU WERE HVING COMPUTER PROBLEMS . MORE TOMORROW RIGHT? RIGHT . GREAT STORY. REALLY.

Author's Response: Lol- right? Right? I'll try; I'll start writing it now, and it probably will be done by tomorrow, so don't fret :) Thank you for reviewing!

and once again i loved the chapter!!...happy spike saw the light... you know like after his mom practically shined it in his face...but still happy..so where does buffy live?... guess ill have to keep reading...cant wait till next update...which i hope will be soon!...

Author's Response: Hee hee- thanks ash. Each of your reviews has been fantastically encouraging, so thank you very much for that. I'll update soon, I promise!

i flippin love this story. please update soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Author's Response: Sorry about the delay- next chapter will be up as soon as it is written- I promise ya!

I'm disapointed in Spike - my parents' divorce taught me that there's two sides to every story. Too bad he didn't learn that with his parents divorce, perhaps then he would have asked someone what Buffy did to make her friends betray her. This is such a great, heartbreaking story - please update soon - this very second would not be soon enough!!

Author's Response: Lol- thank you very very much. Your support and kind words mean so very much to me. As I've said, my computer broke on Friday last week, so I've been delayed drastically in the writing of this story, but as my new computer is now up and running, it shouldn't be too long before the next update arrives. Keep reading Melly :)

poor Buffy, to wish yourself dead or not even born they must have done something awful...something i may say i am dying to know.....

Author's Response: Hee hee- thanks. Keep reading and you'll find out, I promise sweetie. Thank yu so much for reviewing :)

OMG! First, let me say Wow. I'm so glad that my curiosity got the better fo me and I decided to read. I'm absolutely loving this story so far. Do you have an LJ or something that I can subscribe to so I know when you update?? Hopefully soon! Please! LoL! Glad I started reading! Thanks again!

Author's Response: Sorry, I don't actually have an LJ [no idea how to do it] :( But do keep reading hun, and thank you soooooo much! I'm glad your curiosity got the better of you too!! xx