Buffy is learning that words really can hurt. She deserves it but you've made me like Buffy too. lol I can understand bout POV's.


Author's Response: Yep... Buffy sympathy. This messed up a lot of readers, they didn't know who to like. Ultimately, I guess I was trying to say to like no one... I dunno. Thanks for reviewing.

I thought I already had read this... And I had... but I hadn't left a review, how rude of me :p
Anyway, I liked this chapter as well. Spike better watch out, or he'll get that disease...

Author's Response: :D Thanks so much.

love it more please.

Author's Response: More soon.

Good, I'm glad that he's kind of giving her a taste of her own medicine. Just because her home life is shit, doesn't mean she has to treat people the way she treated Spike. Great chapter, can't wait for more!

Author's Response: Yeah, definitely. But do feel a *little* for Buffy; especially when things start to heat up even more.

Seems like Spike is not only being really cruel to Buffy but taking all his frustrations about how the rest of the school used to treat him out on her. Looking forward to more.

Author's Response: That would be an accurate analysis. It will be explored more later in the story. Thanks for commenting.

I think you're doing well....though I'm a little worried about Spike's cruelty, and I fear it may stem from your own experince of, as you said, hating to love someone. High School is rarely a picnic for anyone, you should not (and I speak as someone who was a nerd a high school and had milk tossed at them) however, take it so seriously. Life is much bigger than those three years and so is the world. So some people are cruel in order to hide their insecurities (or in Buffy's case a bad home life and to punish herself for her family's death). Later on they can be the best people in the world. I learned that in uni, you go you meet new friends and you've no clue what they said or did in high school.
Today I teach at a post secondary level, feminist and political thought, and I try to impart to my students that a good man (or woman) accepts what he cannot change and does not dwell on it, he instead seeks to improve himself and the world in a positive way, not a destructive way...I say all this because as I read your story I rememeber the pain of being ostracized at school, and yes I at times had crushes on popular boys, but I never felt rage over it.....if how Spike is behaving is how you would if you could get this person you hate to love, I'd be worried, love should never be marred with retribution or dominance, real love is power with, together....not power over and I worry when men associate getting their balls back with treating a woman (no matter how awful a woman) with vengance, the real man walks away, or admits his weakness and works to cleanse himself of it.
Hatred eats the soul young man, and it exists everywhere in the world I've seen terrible things in my work, starving people in developing countries, AIDS ridden orphans, war and all we seem to do is meet hate with hate instead of trying to resolve these issues.
I understand your story, and I think it's good and I love that a young person is working their brain and writing (it means when I get them in uni they won't hand in papers that make me want to tear out my hair over the lack of writing skills)...but this review was more for you....I worry about your own situation and hope that a very creative young man doesn't begin to see women he can't (and who knows maybe if you tried you could) attain as enemies of some sort.
The story is young but I hope to see some gentlemanly behaviour from Spike in due time. I wish you all the best and hope you continue writing.

Author's Response: This review is really hard to respond to, so much good stuff but at the same time a little too personal. I'd like to say that this isn't a autobiography of my life or anything. I might have some of these feelings, sure, I relate to the story, but that doesn't mean I support every action and thought the characters make. If you must know, high school has been cruel to me, especially in frosh/soph years, but I've toughened up and really just become numb to the whole process. High school is really about becoming stronger and wiser. I *did* go through the whole loving people you can't have thing, and I hated those people with a fiery passion, but that doesn't mean I would do the same thing as Spike. In fact, after a while I gained sympathy for these people that I hated. I mean, seriously, people only want them for their looks. What type of a life is that? Just wanted for sex? It's terrible. Guys in high school put this girl on a pedastal for her looks and think they're hurting because they can't have her. But what about her? All guys wanna do is get in her pants, and nothing else. It's sad. Beauty is a curse. And yes, I know people change after high school. I might actually write Riley (who's probably the main antagonist) as someone who changes dramatically by story end. Along with Spike, Buffy, Angel, and Cordelia, of course. The story isn't done yet, a big part of the story is Spike realizing his shortcomings with Buffy, the Populars, school, teachers, life... I want to break stereotypes and show that the world isn't as black and white as I've written it so far. I absolutely hated it when Spike tore at Buffy like that, it was really hard to write. I had to borrow some lyrics from some song it was so difficult. It's meant to be painful. I agree wholeheartedly on the love paragraph, that's a whole other hurdle in the story. Where do you go with a relationship that's very foundation is hate? I can't say I agree with everything you said, but I'm definitely not some guy who was picked on in high school and couldn't get a girlfriend. The story might give you that idea, but that's just not the way I am. I just simply don't *care* about high school now. The story is destructive thoughts I have, not the things I've done or things I plan to do.

Great chapter!!! Please update soon!

Author's Response: Thank you!