Just started reading this. I was a little nervous at first because reading that you changed Spike's history a little. I was afraid that you would make him into a completely different vampire than he was on the show. Spike is by far my favorite character in the Buffyverse and if I feel that he isn't well written in stories that is based off the show than I will most likely not read. But since this is based off the show but at the same time AU. I decided to give it a read. I like it so far but I am still nervous about it. Both Spike and Buffy need to say how they really feel. But I think Buffy especially. I feel that way because Spike already told Buffy he was in love with her. I might have been a long time ago but Buffy should know the feelings are still there. I mean she said those awful things to him when he told her that she loved him. Of course he is going to be afraid and insecure to say it again. That he is going to doubt that Buffy loves because she never apologize to him or at least spoke to him about it. Yes, they both need to say how they feel but Buffy especially. That is just my opinion.

Author's Response: Thank you for our long review and that you gave it a chance. When I wrote that changed Spike's story I didn't really mean that he himself will be any different. It's just story of his human life that's not the same. (Remember - no Cecily?) Although I tend to write Spike more like I want him to be, not as he was on the show. Mainly I dislike Spike's reckless stupidity (but not his reckless bravery) and his 'uncultured' ways. In short my Spike is just more like a man from Victorian times than from the punk era. As to your opinion about B and S needing to speak to each other openly, I totally agree. But I can't make them do it if they themselves cannot open up. The story goes as it goes; I'm just writing it all down. ;) I hope you'll continue reading.