Omg, this is breaking my heart.

I want to say first that I love your stories. Yeah, you do torture my vampire, Spike, all the time. But your stories do show how the Initiative could have gone. Which it is very believable. At least in my opinion. But The first chapter to this story just blew my mind. What a very interesting start. Of course my heart broke for my Spike. I always felt that The Initiative were cruel bastards. They must have felt like very good people and catching demons. Saving people and such. But good people don't torture if they don't have to. If they wanted to keep humans safe from demons then they should have just kill demons. So, I almost saw them worst than the demons. Just reading about what happen to Spike makes me want to cry. They took away his sight and his beautiful blue eyes. They took away his thumbs. He can't speak normal. He seems almost like a machine. A vampire/machine sort of thing. At least Spike is being brave about it. I guess he doesn't have much of a choice. I'm also a little mad at Buffy for going along with The Initiative. She knew that they treating vampires like this. Maybe, not to the extent on how bad. But she knew what was happening and let it. I can understand the need for her to want to have normal life. But she shouldn't have never let The Initiative treat vampires like that and other demons. It just isn't right. I just hope Buffy realizes that she could have done something about this a long time ago but chose to ignore it so she can have a normal life. I'm not worry about if Buffy is with someone else right now because I'm concern for Spike right now and this is a Spuffy site. I know it will be Spuffy eventually if she is with someone else. I don't know if I like the idea of Buffy having kids. I guess it is because I don't want a lot of the story to focus on her kids. At least not with Spike needing help. But it does show Buffy really living her normal life. Which I can't fault anyone for wanting to have kids but it still makes me a little mad at Buffy. I hope you update soon. Please........

Author's Response: Wow - what an amazing review. Thank you. The final part is up now. Buffy has been living with her head in the sand a little - desperate for normality. Her eyes have been opened now and so what, if anything, will she do to help Spike? Looking forward to hearing what you think of the final part.

Devastating, but engrossing. Can't wait to see where it's going!

Author's Response: Thank you. It's a short story - only another 5k chapter to go - hope you enjoy it.

Oh my gosh! I think you have taken H/C to a whole new level. And I can't see any happy ending here. Buffy is in a relationship, and Spike's eyes and thumbs aren't going to grow back. My beautiful vampire! Sheesh. So of course I'm hooked.

Author's Response: Thank you very much for saying you are hooked - exactly what a writer wants to hear. Um...there is a bit more hurt but stick with it and the comfort is there - I promise! :D