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Reviewer: Lilly Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/04/2006 - 07:47 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Five

I haven't been here for a while, and so I missed the latest going -ons, and I have to admit I'm not very sad about that... Some people just have too much freetime.

So they finally seperated. Mhm... I understand Buffy's fears of ruining Spike's career by being with him, but why the hell don't they talk to each other?! Meanwhile, things are so confused that there's no easy way out anymore. Honestly, I don't see any solution to this at the moment, and I'm excited to see how this is going to end. Their last love time was really heart-breaking.

Lucky for me, there's another chapter to read - which I'm going to do right now.

Reviewer: Michele Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/04/2006 - 05:20 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Five

Ouch. That really hurt my heart.

Very well done, but so heartbreakingly sad....

Reviewer: Dirktavian Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/04/2006 - 04:35 am Title: Chapter Forty-Five

Heart-breakingly beautiful. When the realization dawned in Spike that it was the last time-- after he had tried so hard to reassuring during their love-making, was tragic. To see him beg and plead with her, to swear he'd change his ways-- just absolutely devastating. And then, the anger-- since anger is always much easier to feel than the pain. Great stuff!

Reviewer: Im_bloody_English Signed Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/03/2006 - 04:41 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Five

Arrrrghhhh, what a prick this Spike is - don't worry, I know you have your reasons. I can't believe he wouldn't keep fighting for her. I do understand why she did what she did, I just hope he doesn't go all diddling with tons of other women in the meantime until she comes to her senes. Great chappy, but so, so sad. Keep up the good work.

Reviewer: Im_bloody_English Signed Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/03/2006 - 04:40 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Five

Arrrrghhhh, what a prick this Spike is - don't worry, I know you have your reasons. I can't believe he wouldn't keep fighting for her. I do understand why she did what she did, I just hope he doesn't go all diddling with tons of other women in the meantime until she comes to her senes. Great chappy, but so, so sad. Keep up the good work.

Reviewer: Wolfspider Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/02/2006 - 09:58 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Five

OH FOR ALL THE GODS, would Buffy just grow the fuck up and talk to him. Nooooooo she has break up sex. ughhhhhhh I truly want to smack her right now. If she would just talk to him and instead of always running away. She needs to stand up for herself. Spike needs to fight for his woman too. He needs to have his shit together. Ughhhhhhhhh this is so damn brilliant of a chapter I can't stand it. I am so mad,sad and wild with wanting more I can't see straight. LOL You are just too damn awesome.

Reviewer: cordykitten Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/02/2006 - 08:10 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Five

*sigh* Reviewed before... I so hope somebody will bring Buffy to tell what Travers said and it will be better again. Maybe he will tell it if Spike says they are broken up. Yeah, I believe in dreams. But it is never so easy, right? Now I hope you can update soon because I hope it will get better. We have to wait and see.

Reviewer: Heidi Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/02/2006 - 06:04 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Five

I knew that more angst was on the way but still.... You made me cry!! :(
Hope everything works out in the end and I'm sure it does but....
Great chapter though.

Reviewer: GoofyMama99 Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/02/2006 - 04:47 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Five

i really really hate quentin.

Reviewer: Klai Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/02/2006 - 04:25 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Five

Powerful chapter! My heart shattered in thousand of pieces reading it :(!

I am divided between sadness and exasperation concerning our girl. Sadness because Buffy, after all she has gone trough, deserved some hapiness (even a lot of hapiness!). And exasperation because her sacrifice isn't a good solution.

"She'd done this not for herself, but for him, even if he didn't know it".

"This was for the best".

"His life would be better without her in it, and in the long run, once he got over the pain, he'd realize it, too."

So she breaks up because she thinks it's the best for Spike. But how can she know what is the best for him? Spike himself is the only one to know what is the best for himself, isn't it? And it's unfair for him, to decide for his own life.

Spike dreams of a real music career, but it's a part of a bigger dream: share this life with Buffy.

Buffy seems to want to punish herself, and she punishes Spike by the way. And I can't help myself to think she wants to do for Spike what she couldn't do for Angel: save him, in a way. In saving the dream of his life. In chapter 12, when she talks about Angel, she says: ""He died in my arms, and it was all my fault. He was there because of me," and "If he hadn't loved me, he never would've died. I…I killed him".

So I hope a miracle. An explanation between Spike and Buffy. And maybe seeing Quentin getting the the kick in the bottom which he deserves, this last part being not a miracle I hope, but a personal wish...

I can't wait the next chapters, and I have to go, some pieces of heart to collect and restick ;)...

Reviewer: margaret Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/02/2006 - 03:47 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Five

wow, what a heartbreaker. i hope that evil travers will get his just deserts!

Reviewer: satindoll Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/02/2006 - 01:59 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Five

NO!!!!! You did it. Arghhh. I guess it was inevitable. But still. Now I'm going to be jonesing for an update real bad. Thanks for ruining my day! (just kidding) Great chapter. Oh so big with he angst that we all love to hate. Now I truly cannot wait to see what happens next!! You are the best! The selfless break-up with one for the road poke. A classic.

Reviewer: Mali Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/02/2006 - 06:35 am Title: Chapter Forty-Five

Ohh.. it's a beautiful chapter, full of heartbreak. It'll be interesting to see how they do without eachother.

Reviewer: olivia Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/02/2006 - 06:03 am Title: Chapter Forty-Five

NNNNNOOOOO !!!!! :( My heart is broken... please gon on !

Reviewer: BuffyRat Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/02/2006 - 05:35 am Title: Chapter Forty-Five

Gasp, sob, tear... My heart is breaking right along side them. Such pain and longing and you do it so very well. I hate that they have to go through this, but love is never easy and I trust that they will find each other on the other side. I loved this chapter and I bow down before your muse. Please, update soon.

Reviewer: txjmfan Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/02/2006 - 05:10 am Title: Chapter Forty-Five

LOL! I last 2 whole chapters before I had to find out what was going on! I know Spike's been an as with the drinking and stuff, but ya know, Buffy's decision overshadows that compeltely. Who is she to decide what's best for him? Who is she to make that kind of decision "for his own good" that will affect the rest of both of their lives without even talking to him about it? I really think she's using it as an excuse so she could leave him before he (supposedly) left her. Great chapters. This one pissed me off, but great writing makes induces great emotion.

Reviewer: Amanda Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/02/2006 - 04:49 am Title: Chapter Forty-Five

Ouch. Gut-wrenching. Looking forward to the next update. I know that buffy is partly just trying to help out spike and his band but I think she needs to hear the old saying of "the road to hell is paved with good intentions."

Reviewer: luxferi Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/02/2006 - 04:48 am Title: Chapter Forty-Five

Oh dear.... you got me all teary eyed! Angst is at the highest peak now, isn't it? I'm still tuning in though, to reach that light at the end of the tunnel.

Reviewer: Carrie Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/02/2006 - 04:18 am Title: Chapter Forty-Five

This is the part of the story that I love to hate! lol. You're an amazing author, and I can't wait to see more of this story to see how you patch things up between them! Any idea how many chapters are left? Just curious. Also, sorry if I've asked that before...I just can't remember. lol.

Reviewer: gotkona Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/02/2006 - 03:28 am Title: Chapter Forty-Five

Ok that was too sad. I hope that was the pit and they will build up from there but no matter I will keep reading. I know you always have a happy ending, eventually. :)

Reviewer: sarah g Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/02/2006 - 03:17 am Title: Chapter Forty-Five

NOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant believe that buffy broke up with spike just because it could ruin his career, he loves her way more than his career. i LOVE this story so much and am SOOO happy u updated. i really wished buffy hadnt broken up with him, they are both heart broken now. i really hope that she talks to him and explains why she broke it off and they work things out. also i hope that spike or buffy doesnt do anything stupid, like hook up with someone else and that everything turns out ok. please update as soon as u can, im dying to read more and see wat happens between them. thanx

Reviewer: Nicki Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/02/2006 - 02:42 am Title: Chapter Forty-Five

Ahhhh (smack on the forhead) I just got caught up with this story from Chapter 23 to now. Is that anyway to leave someone hanging!!!!! I seriously love this story though.

Reviewer: DaniD Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/02/2006 - 02:39 am Title: Chapter Forty-Five

Knee jerk reaction...Buffy is sooo stupid. She has to learn to fight for something that is worth it..and her and Spike's love is worth it..

At the same time..I can't help but to sympathize with her. She feels as if she will be a burden to Spike. Her being his stepsister WOULD cause back lash..so her heart IS in the right place. It's a shame that she chose not to talk it out with him..Though the timing of this coming on the heels of their bump in the road makes me understand why she didn't. I hope that SOMETHING happens soon to make things right again! Great update ; )

Reviewer: Laura Liz Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/02/2006 - 02:09 am Title: Chapter Forty-Five

i don't know what to review other than very nicely written....but ouch...my heart hurts

Reviewer: sara m Anonymous Liked [Report This]
Date: 08/02/2006 - 01:37 am Title: Chapter Forty-Five

aw, crap...

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