I hate to say this but this is killing me. i've been reading the last 47! chapters non stop and right now i'm dying in side waiting until they get back together i know they will but ya i'm way to attached to this story and in saying that i just wanted to tell you it's amazing but right now i'm gonna combust with lack of happy buffy/spike

I know I've reviewed this chapter on another site, but I just wanted to lend some morale support. I didn't know your grandmother had passed, and I'm so sorry. I appreciate your persistence in finishing this story-- I really do like that you've fast-forwarded 3 years. I like Dawn's snarky comment about calling if there were an apocalypse. I love Buffy wanting to crawl in a hole and die. And I love the way some lovers are never forgotten-- Great use of James' song. Can't wait to read the next chapter you've posted.

I have a draft for what I want to as a review after I skipped the chapter, but to your AN first.
Addie, you are by no means a bad writer! If you were you couldn't make me feel like being on a roller coaster ride with this story. You awake feelings in your readers, you move them! You can make me cry with your stories. That's nothing a bad writer could. Well only a bad writer could make me cry because a story is so bad. ;-) Well but that's not what I mean. You're a good writer! My opinion but I'm not alone with it. Should I found a club *We trust in Addie* or did someone before and I missed my invitation? So, gonna read now and hope to be able to read what I wrote *gg*
Because of the S/other and B/other now when Buffy and Spike were together before the story is very sad for me (means hard to read). So I can't wait to read a new chapter and check it out. But I try to read it properly in order to write a review. It was very late anyway when I saw this and the new chapter and that's not a time when I can write good :)
Like I didn't catch the first time that Dawn is now living with Buffy.
Things are getting harder for Buffy day by day now. Not only Spike is "following her" (his new song gets played very often, the new billboard, his new video playing)... The hardest thing was maybe hearing the interview and Spike say that he is pretty serious with his current girlfriend and they are together now for six month *sob* (not really sobbing now ... but when I first read it... that's what I mean when I say you're a good writer. Not that you make me sad, you make me FEEL for the people in the story. That's a talent.) after getting asked if he wants to marry Eve. Torture for Buffy indeed. But a relieve for her to hear that Spike don't has plans to marry Eve Hart. (I wonder if you have a special ~ real ~ person in your mind for writing that character and if I have guessed the character right.) But when Eve is a bitch like Buffy thinks because she reads it a lot: Why is Spike still together with her then? Buffy should now that not all is true what's written; tabloid fodder. And the song.. does Spike really hate her? Maybe at first sight, on the surface but I refuse to think like Buffy does that he only hates her. If you love so deep there must still be something left. As I read once.. love and hate are only two sides of the same coin. *sniff* I hope I can translate it right.. But back to your story and what I wanted to write: Sadly the statics says that a widower is looking for a new wife very soon but not a widow. Seems Spike is just typical. He moved on. (Still I don't have to like Spike being with Eve *deep sigh* Because I don't.
Addie, I'm not complaining. I love reading your story (but I think you know that). After reading this chapter I thought of it: If Spike would marry Eve wouldn't he invite his real family? That would mean Buffy too. Super awkward for her. (Spike isn't showing he misses her, he ist only bitter. ... if you think of the song: (One I didn't know yet. I have the CDs but I don't have the new DVD.. I hoping for a new CD soon :) ) Spike is still very angry with her. ~ As I said (or not yet), good to see you (read you) again. Loved the chapter and yet I didn't like the Spike/Eve part. Understandable maybe.... I wonder if Spike was in contact with Dawn in these years.. or Dawn with him.. maybe meeting him on the birthdays of Giles? Or Joyce? Or if he saw a counselor in the meantime or if he is still drinking.
I do believe that you write a happy ending, Addie, I didn't forget what you wrote.. I just fall wholly in the chapters when reading.. is there a word limit for a review? There wasn't for adding favorite fics *gg* I'll find out soon. And after that on the next chapter. This draft I have for my review isn't so long like this was.
I don't give up on you, Addie... don't give up on your fans. Trolls aren't fans, trolls are trolls. Ignore them! If that helps... I know it must hurt.
*hugs you*
Cordykitten (I hope I didn't overlook somethings.. it's a bit long)

i thought this chapter was great.
if people think you don't know what it is like to be in a relaitionship they are nuts. you not only have gotten a good grasp of what going through a hard break up is like but have put into words what most can't even say let alone write. anyway addie i do have to point out that you warned everyone that this story was anst filled so if some are complaining then it is their fault you warned them a head of time. one more thing i love you stories but if you feel that you need to take some time to greve then do it i can't speak for all your fans but only for myself and i would think it only natrural.
anyway looking forward to reading the next chapter.

im so sorry to hear about your grandma and that some asshole has been sending u hate mail. i LOVE this story and i think that you are an amazing writer. this is one of the best stories i have ever read and i really think that she should just ignore wat those haters are saying to u, theyre just jealous of your creativity. take care

Poor Buffy. Seeing your ex happy with someone else, even when you ended things, sucks so much. I just want to give her tissues and chocolate mousse (which, coincidentally, I'm eating right now...yum).

Excellent chapter as always. You've made these characters so real, and I empathize and sympathize with all of them. I just wanted to stop and let you know that I enjoyed this chapter, even though the next is also up and I'm so ready to read it.

Last, but certainly not least, my condolences on the loss of your grandmother. I wish there was more I could say, but I know sometimes sympathy can seem inane and nothing I can say will really make it better. But know that people out there are thinking of you.

Every chapter that I read in this story fills me with so much emotion, that whether it's happy romance or bitter, painful angst, I look forward to it. And either way it is the highlight of my day. Everything that you've written and posted I've enjoyed immensely. This story has never been an exception and it dumbfounds me that people can be so disrespectful of the amazing prose you create.

I'm very sorry for you loss and I mean that from the bottom of my heart. Those pains never quite go away. My grandmother died 11 years ago and some days I'm still brought to tears thinking about her. It will get better and you do have support in this little community. Just thought you should know...

I'm sorry about the people being jerks to you. I personaly love your writing. Even though I don't really review don't think i don't like the story, I just don't know what to say. Thank you for continuing to post even though you have had a horrible loss and some people aren't giving you as much respect as you need.