“Coma” by Guns n Roses album ‘Use Your Illusion I”
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Chapter 3
Buffy’s body began to convulse violently upon the bed, her lungs strained for air, mouth opening trying to suck what oxygen it could, as her insides burned and sizzled as it went without what it so desperately needed to survive.
Nails scrapped and dug into the sheet-covered bed, body covered in trickles of sweat, Buffy tore at her neck trying to force the spasms to stop…just one gulp of air…
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Hey you caught me in a coma
And I don't think I wanna
Ever come back to this...world again
Kinda like it in a coma
'Cause no one's ever gonna
Oh, make me come back to this...
world again
Now I feel as if I'm floating away
I can't feel all the pressure
And I like it this way
But my body's callin'
My body's callin'
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Peace encircled Buffy’s mind as visions of her brief life flashed before her. Images of her mother holding her after birth. Her father teaching her how to play baseball. Buffy crying as she tossing herself against her bed after being informed about her parent’s separation.
Meeting her first watcher, Merrik, him informing her of her destiny, the chosen one. Being told about vampires, dusting her first soulless creature. The death of Merrik at the hands of a vampire and trying to run from her destiny. Expulsion from school and the look of regret on her mother’s face. The finalization of her parents divorce and then moving to Sunnydale.
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Won't ya come back to this...
world again
Suspended deep in a sea of black
I've got the light at the end
I've got the bones on the mast
Well I've gone sailin',
I've gone sailin'
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Facing her new watcher, Giles, and reminder of her duty to mankind. Her destiny. She was the Slayer, the Chosen One. She was selected to save the world, to fight evil wherever it be, no matter what shape or form…she wanted to run from it never to look back again.
Freedom
Buffy could feel herself floating, floating away but something grabbed onto her. Looking down it was her Slayer demon summoning her back to her body.
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I could leave so easily
While friends are calling back to me
I said they're
They're leaving it all up to me
When all I needed was clarity
And someone to tell me
WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON
GODDAMN IT!
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Struggling against her demon they fought, clawing and kicking at each other. But they estimated what the other would do, arm would block fist, leg would block foot. But Buffy’s attention was distracted from the fight, hearing voices calling to her.
“In every generation, there is a Chosen One. She alone will stand against the vampires, the demons, and the forces of darkness. She is the Slayer.” Giles face flashed before her eyes.
“I’m the slayer, we come with an expiration date.” Willow and Xander’s faces flashed before her eyes.
“I lurk.” Angel’s face flashed before her eyes.
“I am Kendra the Vampire Slayer.” Her slayer-sister’s face flashed before her eyes, as well as her death.
“I love you sweetie…I worry that’s all.” Her mother’s face flashed before her eyes.
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Slippin' farther an farther away
It's a miracle how long we can stay
In a world our minds created
In a world that's full of shit
HELP ME
HELP ME
HELP ME
HELP ME
BASTARD
Please understand me
I'm climbin' through the wreckage
Of all my twisted dreams
But this cheap investigation just Can't stifle all my screams
And I'm waitin' at the crossroads
Waiting for you
Waiting for you
WHERE ARE YOU
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“I love you.” Angel’s voice echoed through her minds eye.
The fighting between the demon and the girl stopped as they stared at each other as if coming to an epiphany, the demon released the hold it had on her arms, Buffy turned to face the enveloping darkness.
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No one's gonna bother me anymore
No one's gonna mess with my head no more
I can't understand what all the fightin's for
But it's so nice here down off the shore
I wish you could see this
'Cause there's nothing to see
It's peaceful here and it's fine with me
Not like the world where I used to live
I NEVER REALLY WANTED TO LIVE
ZAP HIM AGAIN
ZAP THE SON OF A BITCH AGAIN
Ya live your life like it's a coma
So won't you tell me why we'd wanna
With all the reasons you give it's
It's kinda hard to believe
But who am I to tell you that I've Seen any reason why you should stay
Maybe we'd be better off
Without you anyway
You got a one way ticket
On your last chance ride
Gotta one way ticket
To your suicide
Gotta one way ticket
An there's no way out alive
An all this crass communication
That has left you in the cold
Isn't much for consolation
When you feel so weak and old
But is home is where the heart is
Then there's stories to be told
No you don't need a doctor
No one else can heal your soul
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Endless darkness and peace surrounded Buffy. She felt as if she was being was away, adrift in the sea as she accepted her fate.
“You think you are finished, no you have just begun.”
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Got your mind in submission
Got your life on the line
But nobody pulled the trigger
They just stepped aside
They be down by the water
While you watch 'em waving goodbye
They be callin' in the morning
They be hangin' on the phone
They be waiting for an answer
When you know nobody's home
And when the bell's stopped ringing
It was nobody's fault but your own
There were always ample warnings
There were always subtle signs
And you would have seen it comin'
But we gave you too much time
And when you said
That no one's listening
Why'd your best friend drop a dime
Sometimes we get so tired of waiting
For a way to spend our time
An 'It's so easy' to be social
'It's so easy' to be cool
Yeah it's easy to be hungry
When you ain't got shit to lose
And I wish that I could help you
With what you hope to find
But I'm still out here waiting
Watching reruns of my life
When you reach the point of breaking
Know it's gonna take some time
To heal the broken memories
That another man would need
Just to survive
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After the last thrash Buffy’s body fell back onto the bed, a final gasp parted her lips. Eyes taking on a glassy appearance, lips stained with dried blood, nails still clenching at the now ripped sheets.
Drusilla and Spike exited the bedroom closing the door behind them. Now all they had was time until his new childe rose.
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Giles slammed the phone down and sat back into his sofa, running a hand over his face after removing his glasses. He flung said glasses onto the coffee table and stood up to walk into the kitchen.
Grabbing a glass he plopped two ice cubes in it and filled it with his favorite aged scotch. Sliding into a chair in front of the kitchen table he downing half the glass in one gulp. The conversation with Quentin Travers rang over and over in his ear and his mind.
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“There’s been a-a problem with Buffy.” Giles said placing his glasses back on his face.
“Yes, well I am so thrilled that you decided to including me on the standing with your ward.” Travers said in a clearly irritated voice.
“Never fret Rupert, we know all that there is to know. It seems your Slayer had a slight problem with a certain vampiress hasn’t she?”
Giles frowned. “Are you saying you have been watching us?”
“Please my good man. Do you think I didn’t know about that little incident with the Master, which you so kindly forgot to inform me about.” Quentin spat out,
“Don’t take me for a fool old man; the Council is what comes first. Slayers die and new ones are called.”
“They always have, and they always will. This is how is shall be until there are no more vampires. (a beat) I knew the moment Mss Summers expired and when Kendra was summoned.”
Giles was silent at this revelation as he removed his glasses rubbing them vigorously, trying to process this information.
“Well then Travers if you have your own watching my ward, why not help her? Why did they sit back and let her be taken by a demon?” Giles started to clinch his fist.
Travers chuckled into the phone, ice filled his voice as he replied; “Honestly Rupert, I though you would have more brains than that. Mss. Summers is a Slayer. My men are Watchers. It’s not their place to interfere with the post of the Chosen One. If she is as good as you believe her to be, then I have no whims about her coming back….” He paused to answer his other line.
Giles waited fuming at the arrogance of that cocky son of a bitch, ‘stupid bloody wanker.’ he growled to himself. What he wouldn’t give to knock that cocky smirk off that bugger’s face right about now.
“Rupert, I have news. There has been a new slayer activated. We all know what that means. I will expect your final report on Mss. Summers within three days, your report on your new slayer within the week. Ta.” The line went dead.
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Giles felt the bile rise towards his mouth and his chest constricted. He had failed her; he had failed Buffy. Giles hung his head low as he downed the remainder of the amber liquid in his glass, relishing the burn that it gave him, just a bit of pain, but nothing compared to the pain he was feeling in his heart.
Buffy had not only been his ward, his Slayer, and he her Watcher. But he had come to look upon her as his daughter even in the short time they were together. He believed, no he knew he loved her as a daughter as well. And Joyce, oh God Joyce, he would have to break the news to her. He got back up to refill his empty glass.
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A/N Ok I hope your still with me on this one. Drop me a review. ^_^
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Again it’s been a while since I’ve seen the old episodes so please bare with me.