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Summary: Spike's life takes a backslide after witnessing a bitter betrayal. Sobriety's a bitch. Is Buffy the perfect drug?
Rated: NC-17
Categories: NC-17 Fics Characters: None
Genres: Romance, Angst
Warnings: Violence, Adult Language, Sexual Situations, Buffy/Other, Spike/Other
Challenges:
Series: None
Chapters: 17 Completed: No
Word count: 29739 Read: 17796
Published: 07/20/2008 Updated: 04/01/2009

1. Chapter One by Pandora [Reviews - 7] Liked (2220 words)
I've decided to go ahead and post the fic that I was working on before I started my other fic Blue. The two stories are extremely different, but I hope you enjoy them both. This story is quite a bit darker, but keep in mind, I am a happy ending kinda girl. Sometimes, it's just a little harder to get there. EDIT: Just wanted to add a note to new readers of this fic. Think some people might be afraid to continue reading after this chapter due to certain content near the end (you'll see what I mean), but I strongly urge you to, at least, check out the next chapter before you make up your mind. Thanks!

2. Chapter Two by Pandora [Reviews - 9] Liked (1364 words)

3. Chapter Three by Pandora [Reviews - 9] Liked (2017 words)
For those of you that read Blue, sorry no update today. I'm really busy with some not fun stuff until Tuesday, so I might have to slack off for a couple of days. I'll update if I can. Feel free to leave me a review in the mean time! Thanks! Hope you enjoy this chapter of Poison.

4. Chapter Four by Pandora [Reviews - 7] Liked (2108 words)

5. Chapter Five by Pandora [Reviews - 9] Liked (2437 words)

6. Chapter Six by Pandora [Reviews - 11] Liked (1602 words)
I am no longer insane! Okay, well, that statement is entirely untrue, but I will be trying to answer all reviews now. I apologize to those who have reviewed before and not gotten their reviews answered. I'm just new to the whole reviewer/reviewee relationship thing, but I think I have a hold on it now, and I'm lovin' it! Personally "talking" to each of you is much better than simply a blanket thanks in the author's note, though that's good too. You guys deserve both! There is no way I could write my fics without you. You have no idea how much I rely on your comments and encouragement. It keeps me writing! Thank you, everyone! And thank you, awesome reviewer who very nicely knocked some sense into me! Note for Blood Money readers: I actually have several notes typed up for Ch. 3, which doesn't always happen, but is really helpful when it does. So, it's just a matter of me sitting down and putting it all together. I'll try to get to it soon!

7. Chapter Seven by Pandora [Reviews - 12] Liked (2035 words)
Thank you for the wonderful reviews. Please, keep them coming! I love hearing what you have to say! I have a couple of notes on my other fics. I'll try to work on Blood Money later this week. And I'd really like you guys to check out my very first one-shot Love and Trust, if you haven't already. Let me know what you think! Thanks!

8. Chapter Eight by Pandora [Reviews - 15] Liked (1521 words)
Well, I got my first sick day in forever (normally, I have to work sick as we're horribly understaffed), so you guys are getting a fast update. I thought I might have trouble writing, because I feel so cruddy, but I think it helped that this chapter was already completely planned out. Since this is a relatively fast update, make sure you didn't miss the restaurant scene (Ch 7). I promise I'll update Blood Money at some point, though I don't know when. Also, because of the wonderful response I got to my one-shot Love and Trust, I do plan on a sequel like some of my reviewers suggested. It won't be in the super immediate future, though. Anyway, Heeeere's Chapter 8!

9. Chapter Nine by Pandora [Reviews - 15] Liked (1687 words)
Here's the deal. In between Ch. 8 of this and Ch. 4 of my other fic, I got some distressing work news on top of the already distressing work news I was dealing with. I've been one big ball 'o' anxiety ever since. Apparently, I can't write when I'm anxious. I feel like I can't put together a sentence more elaborate than 'see Spot run' right now. As this fic is my 'baby' of the moment, I've been scared to touch it. I don't know when things will be all right for me. I don't want to work on this fic if my writing isn't going to be very good. I tried to get myself to focus yesterday and today and here's what I came up with for Ch 9. I barely even got into my notes on this fic, so I probably have notes through the next couple of chapters, but I'm not going to flesh it out if my writing is not there right now. I'd be happy to explain the work stuff in a long answer to someone's review if you guys are interested, but I'm not going to make you guys suffer through any more of this AN. So here's Ch. 9!

10. Chapter Ten by Pandora [Reviews - 14] Liked (1682 words)
Work issues still have me down, but I'm not out of the game yet! So, here's Chapter 10!

11. Chapter Eleven by Pandora [Reviews - 11] Liked (1732 words)
I've been working on the sequel to Love and Trust, but I took a break to write the first chapter of Fix You the other day and this chapter of Poison. If you haven't read Fix You, check it out. If you're interested, let me know! Thanks!

12. Chapter Twelve by Pandora [Reviews - 15] Liked (1346 words)
Well, since I feel like writing during all my free moments lately, I'm just going with it. My time available will change quite a bit when my facility shuts down in a week. I'm not sure yet how that will affect my writing. My old workplace talked me into going back to them. So, once again, I will be working in long-term residential treatment for teenage boys with substance abuse and psychiatric issues. I'll really miss emergency care, but I'm glad to still be in the behavioral health department under the same corporation. I'm currently halfway through the next chapter of Blood Money. Even though I just put out Ch. 5, I decided to work on it some more, so I can get my brain back in gear with it. Hopefully, after that, I'll be able to work on the next chapter of Fix You. I'll make juggling three fics work somehow. I'll probably hold off a couple of weeks before I work on the final part of my Love and... one-shot series. Now, here's Ch. 12 of Poison!

13. Chapter Thirteen by Pandora [Reviews - 12] Liked (2008 words)
I should change my name to Moody Pandora. Let's go over things, shall we. First, I'm busy but not having any problems writing fairly regularly, then I freak out and feel like I can't write at all and everything I do write seems like crap to me, then I freak out in a different way and start writing all the time, now I'm back to feeling anxious and like I can't write! I'm going nuts! I have one more day at my facility then a couple of days off before I start my new (old) job. I'm hoping I'll be able to write on my days off and won't totally flip out. Guess I'll wait and see. For all I know, I'll start writing constantly again! Fun fact: My main time available to write is during the morning and afternoon. However, I have a really hard time writing when it's light out, so I rarely write during this time. I would get so much done if I'd write more when it's light out. Luckily, I live in Alaska and soon winter will be upon us. So, more darkness for Pandora! Now, here's Chapter 13. Thanks for reading!

14. Chapter Fourteen by Pandora [Reviews - 9] Liked (1905 words)
Well, I've started my new (old) job. I'm not nearly as happy there as I was at my old workplace. I actually had a nightmare about it the other day. I guess I'll get used to it, though. So far, it's definitely making it harder to write...time-wise and stress-wise. Regardless, I hope you like Chapter 14. Thanks!

15. Chapter Fifteen by Pandora [Reviews - 12] Liked (1560 words)
*Thanks to Vette for my banner!* I am so, so sorry it's taken me so long to update. As some of you know, between my new job and well, life—I've been feeling a bit off lately. It's made it really difficult for me to write. Hope my readers are still out there to support me! Thanks!

16. Chapter Sixteen by Pandora [Reviews - 9] Liked (1367 words)
As I said in the author's note for Ch. 7 of Fix You, I'm so sorry for disappearing for so long. Life has been difficult and still is. In turn, it's made writing difficult. Being creative makes me happy and hearing from all of you makes me happy, so I'm going to try to get back into the swing of things as best I can even with my current rl issues. Hope you enjoy this chapter of Poison. Thanks!

17. Chapter Seventeen by Pandora [Reviews - 12] Liked (1148 words)
Sorry for the delay. Life has been madness, and I'm preparing to move across the country to get away from said madness. I can't wait to get settled at my new location, so I can have more time to write and a clearer mind to do it with. All of my fics are still active. I will even get to Bloody Money and the final part of my Love and... series after I'm settled. Thank you so much for sticking with me even with all the delays. I'm working hard to get my life sorted right now.