Buffy is dreaming, Spike is outside the window

I need help finding a fic, which I believe I read here on TSR. I think it takes place after Harsh Light of Day, and Spike is upset about losing the Gem of Amarra. He's outside Buffy's window watching her sleep. When he realizes she didn't disinvite him from her house from the last time he was here, he goes in and decides to try to sleep with her. I can't remember if she's dreaming or not, but I recall her tossing in bed, and he catches sight of her breast?

Ring any bells?

Sounds like Even Harsher Nights by Spikeskat. Can't remember which site it was on, but either Bloodshedverse or the Author's own site should have it.

Even Harsher Nights by: Spikeskat.

Just so you know, there's elements of non-con as well as a character death.

This is the one! Thanks so much!!