Spike can`t kill buffy, dru leaves him

I`m looking for a Story. Spike is kidnaping buffy to kill her for dru, but hi can`t, gets hard holding buffy, dru leaves him, he want`s revenge, meets joyce, who invites him in for hot chocolate, after he leaves he hears buffy moan and watches her masturbate and so on.

I`m sorry, i just found it myself.

so what fic is it?

What's the name of the story? Other people might also like to read it.