Spike forces Buffy to choose victims

I think this may be a kidnap fic from a few years back. Spike forces Buffy to choose his victims, but this ultimately leads to an attempted suicide on her part because she can't stand making the choices. I thought it might be an Addie Logan fic, but I just can't remember. Does this ring a bell with anyone?

Might be Blood and Fire by Addie Logan.

http://dark-solace.org/elysian/viewstory.php?sid=299&warning=NC-17

I know there is a Kari Mouke story where Spike makes Buffy choose the victims or forces her to accept his killing. It had a title like 'It started with Sex' or something similiar.

Hmmmm. I don't think it's the Kari Mouke fic -- she seems okay to pick the victims in that one.

I'll check out Blood and Fire. I don't remember much about that one, so it's due for a reread! Hopefully that's the one I'm thinking of.

Thanks!

Maryperk, you were totally right on both counts -- I picked pieces of the Kari Mouke fic (Buffy choosing victims) and "Blood and Fire" (attempted suicide b/c of Spike's feeding) and combined them into one fic that doesn't exist.

I'm enjoying rereading both -- but "Blood and Fire" was definitely what I had in mind! Thanks!