Hey all,
What I remember is it was an AU fic, Spike and Buffy are together (not sure if shes his mistress or not) and Buffy decides she can't deal with being with Spike anymore and tries to leave. She makes it to the airport but doesnt leave. Sits there for hours and Spike is still back at her apartment sitting on her bed with the door open. She returns to find him there, door open and all, and says "I couldn't leave... I sat there with my ticket for hours trying to convince myself to go".
Any clues?? | 
