This one is an old one. It was loosely based on the movie The Crush with Alicia Silverstone and Cary Elwes. What I do remember about it, is that it's a past story set in the present (if that makes any sense), but the story is told in flashbacks ( I believe) as Buffy remembers her time with Spike (William) as she talks to her therapist. I also think Buffy is in a mental ward/hospital (not 100% sure though).

I don't remember how or why Buffy/Spike (William) got involved, but for some reason my mind keeps thinking he was her original therapist, and it escalated from there. I do remember that you never don't know what happened to Spike or why he was no longer her therapist or why he wasn't around, until the end, when Buffy is at his grave, I think with her therapist, and she says something like she didn't mean to kill him. And that he promised he would always be there for her. And then at the very end it describes her sitting in her room, looking at pictures of him, and letters he wrote, and she gets this kinda creepy smile, while her therapist and her mom are talking about how she is doing much better and that she would be released soon.

Now, since it's been a while since I read this, I'm not 100% sure about some of the details. So sorry... but I do remember it was loosely based on The Crush, and the whole story was pretty much one big flashback of her remembering him. I'm about 75% sure about him being dead at the end. If he's not dead then he was injured very badly and was definitely out of the picture.

Hopefully someone remembers this.

TIA

Could it be this?

Ain't Love Grand? by effection

"Sometimes, I think it's the best thing that ever happened to me and sometimes I wish it never did. Love's funny that way." Buffy Summers falls in love with Dr. William 'Spike' Pratt, but isn't it typical that sometimes, even the strongest love can't overcome certain obstacles? Ain't love grand that way...

0hallie0

It's close but that's not it . The one I am looking for had Buffy more than a little obsessed with him and for some reason I keep thinking that she killed/injured him in a fit of rage. If I remember more of the story I'll post it as it comes to me. I do remember I came across it in my early years of Spuffy reading so it would have been circa late 2004-2005 if that helps. It's probably lost to me. A lot of sites have been lost over the years, and it was probably on one of those. Could kick myself for not saving a lot of my favorites when I had the chance. Oh well hindsight is 20/20, lol. Thanks for looking though


Melts