drugs are bad?

I was wondering if anyone knows this fic where spikes a drug dealer...?or maybe buffy is i dnt remember theres tourniquet by jim wicked but thts not it, but if neone has tht one or can find it thtd b greatly appreciated too, but this was a very dark brutal fic n spike n buffy were less than good, but it was rly heartwrenching, ne ideas neone?