Hm, difficult, canon Spike isn't exactly known for hiding his feelings.
I guess Baby Steps by Kallysten would have been exactly what you're looking for. It goes AU at the beginning of S6, Spike leaves since Buffy actually starts dating Richard and comes back after a while. Richard's gone by then, leaving Buffy to raise her baby daughter on her own. Spike moves in to help after saying he doesn't love her anymore (yeah, right, but Buffy believes him) She falls in love with him too, but neither of them has the courage to tell for a very, very long time. Awkwardness and Misunderstandings guaranteed. It's one of my favorite fics.
Sadly it's an original novel now and no longer available online and Kallysten has requested not to pass it around. You could always get the book. Don't know if you're interested in that or how different it is. Or maybe you could contact Kallysten and see if she still has a Spuffy version and is willing to make a deal of some sort.
Oh, there's a free sample of the first 6 chapters of the novel somewhere. Won't get to the part that you want, but you can see if you like the writing. |