buffy making amends

Hey! I was rewatching some episodes of seasons 5 and 6 and remembered how I HATE the way buffy was a bitch to spike. So I got in the mood for fics that show buffy making amends. I want to read stories in which buffy takes care of a suffering spike after being horrible to him. I wanna see her apologizing, caring for him, helping him heal his ego and making him see that she loves him. Make her grovel to earn his trust.
Also, I would just LOVE if it's nc-17... lol

xoxo,

Liz

Show Me by Behind Blue Eyes

During the episode Into the Woods, once Buffy discovered Riley's infidelity, she fled into the night. How would Buffy's and Spike's relationship have changed, if he followed her, instead of letting her go off on her own?

One of my favourites is EnigmaticBlue's Wounded Hearts, but I can only find it in Seasonal Spuffy Forum for 2009!

A lot of her writing deals with this aspect of BtVS, but she rarely goes overly NC17. The Cast Me Not Away Series follows straight on from Dead Things, so it's very much about Buffy realising her need to atone - but it takes a while and you get a nifty Wes story in the interim!

Wounded Hearts is available at Nocturnal Light as well.