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Chapter 2 sorry for the cliffy last chapter hope you still love me haha.
The screen shows a very familiar graveyard, a few 30 some girls and a few demons are gathered around a black, shiny gravestone, beside it an all to familiar face looks into the crowd with her blonde hair shining in the sun. In the front of the crowd a brunette teenager is crying into a red heads shoulder and a very wrinkly demon is blowing his nose in a huge hanky, elephant noises can be heard from him,

Wesley silently entered Angels office and stands beside Gunn. The blonde on the screen moves beside the younger brunette, her face was tearstained.

And she smiled meekly at the young girl beside her, then she began to speak "Umm we are gathered here today to spare a moment for a friend and an

ally...alot of you, in fact most of you didnt really like Spike, not many of you knew him but he was the most amazing...person" as she said the last word her

breath caught in her throat, and a tear slid down her face. "Spike taught me more about life than anyone else i ever knew, which is ironic because he wasn't

technicly alive, but he had more spirit than any human i've ever known, Spike was always there for me, his support was un-wavering, even when others

abandoned me Spike was at my side." at the last sentance people looked around, guilty. "Spike seldom asked for more than we could give, for his entire

life...and unlife Spike looked for love, and companionship despite being dead at times, well evil, he devoted himself to others...it occoured to me, right before

he...died." a huge sob escaped her lips, and the older man with glasses on stepped up beside her and patted her shoulder, comforting her, Buffy looked

at the gravestone and with a deep sigh she continued her speech. "Right before he died i realized that Spike had never been loved, he had loved enough

for a billion people and he had devoted centuries to others, good or evil, but he never got anything close to love in return...but still he sacraficed his life for us...for me that night, and he died alone,

he sacrificed his own life because despite the fact that most of you hated him he cared about your fates, i dont care if none of you liked me but please, think about this, think about the life he led and the sacrifices he made, because Spike was a true hero, Spike was a champion,i hope you know that he is remembered."

a girlsih sobbing noise could be heard from behind the camera. presumably the person filming was touched.

The film cut to the gravestone, blades of grass and leaf obscurred part of the screen, and it was assumed the camera was hidden there.

Someones feet became visible in the frame and as she knelt down at the grave Buffy's face came into view. "Hi Spike.. I...I don't know where you are... or if you are,

but i wanted to read you your gravestone." Buffy sobbed quietly "it says here lies William, he was a true champion. i know its lame, but i just, there was so much i wanted to say to you,

so much was un-said and i don't know if you believed me in the end, if you just wanted me to leave but Spike, I do love you... i need you to know that you were loved, you are loved, youre life...or un-life ment so much to me.. i had this guy i was seeing for awhile,

i don't know why, i just wanted everyone to think i had moved on, the immortal was perfect but i felt nothing, i just felt more hollowness inside of me,

i asked him to leave, and he did." she looked like she wanted to cry but she was trying to put on a brave face, buffy let out a forced giggle.

" Spike, you have ruined me for every other man in the world." "Anyway i don't know how to do this...life or whatever they're calling it these days without you, and i know i said it before... but Spike i do love you, know that you were loved...are loved."

on screen Buffy stood up and walked away, leaving just the gravestone, the camara kept filming...but no one stopped it.

silent tears streamed down Spikes face, Andrew stood up and left the room. Gunn and Weasly looked at each other, they appeared to be in Shock,

Weasly contemplated something in his head before speaking out loud. "Spike what is love?" Spike eyed him as if he was crazy, but then he seemed lost in thought,

"It can't just be described like that, but Weasly..." the last part was added quietly...as if an afterthought. "She isn't love keeping a shrine of someone. not letting go, it isn't love."

Weasly looked as though that was the answer he was looking for and he left the room, Gunn followed him.

Angel sat at his desk silently staring at Spike , his eyes showed little emotion but suddenly he seemed to come to some sort of a conclusion. he reached into his desk and pulled a piece of paper out .

"If you hurt her i'll kill you." he said the words quietly before handing the paper to Spike and leaving the room. Spike looked at what was in his hands a one way Train ticket to good 'ole Sunnydale.


*********Back in sunnydale********

Dawn and Buffy we're sitting across from each other. Dawn had just finished telling Buffy that she could bring Spike back, ressurect him make him alive again, er well as alive as the un-dead could get

Dawn tried to read the emotions on Buffy's face but all she could see was pure shock, anger, and was that... love? "Well aren't you gonna say something?" "Buffy?" Dawn asked

"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU EXPECT ME TO SAY! THIS IS INSANE" she snapped angrily rising to her feet. Buffy paced back and forth running her hand through her hair, Dawn looked at Buffy, confused.

"Buffy i thought you'd be thrilled" dawn stated. Buffy turned sharply to face her sister "thrilled? are. you. mad.? people aren't supposed to come back from the dead! its wrong unnatural."

Dawn looked at Buffy and simply replied "you did." Buffy Fisted her hands and gritted her teeth she hated bringing up the fact that she died and her friends pulled her back to hell- er- earth she hated the fact she was pulled out of heaven and she hated the fact that her friends knew.

With a swift turn Buffy ran up the stairs and slammed her bedroom door, and slid down the back of it, to rest on her butt. tears sprag to her eyes and rolled down her cheeks.

A million and one questions and thoughts swam through her head, she was thrilled he could possibly come back it was a dream come true, a dream that replayed at night over and over again, ever since the day the hellmouth calapsed and he died.

But then there was the fact that Spike might not be normal, she chuckled at that thought Spike was never normal, he was better than normal yet ever so slightly frayed. but what if Spike wasnt Spike.

Ressurections we're taboo, things went wrong all the time, they always went wrong, she abrubtly stood up and walked over to her dresser, on it rested a dried up yet vibrantly red-colored rose and a picture of him.

she ever so gently caressed his face in the picture. and more tears slid down her cheeks "God i miss you" she wispered. "i miss you too pet"

Buffy gasped and turned around so fast she knocked the picture of him off her dresser. As if a whisper she thought she had heard it . heard his voice. well she always heard his voice but never as real as this was.

Tt was official she was going crazy, she had to be. she walked to her bed but stopped when she heard a crunch and looked down to see his picture smashed.

that was when she broke down, she wailed and wailed tears flooded from her eyes she just calapsed on the floor and cryed, loud sobs escaped her lips.

A few moments later the door burst open and Xander and Willow came through followed by Dawn "oh god" Willow shouted. blood. there was blood everywhere. "Xander get dawn the hell out of here" "no im not going anywhere whats going on." whats wrong" "is Buffy ok" "Xander get her out NOW!" Xander grabbed Dawn by the arm and pulled her out of the room, and slammed the door behind her.

"God Wills what as that abo- OH MY GOD." Xander said. there was blood everywhere glass shattered across the floor and he looked down and saw Buffy on the floor crying and clutching a photo

there was hunks of glass sticking out of each wrist. and the realization hit Xander. She had tried to kill herself.

"Xander call 911." Willow yelled "no they'll put her in the asylum." "do you want her to die?" "no bu-" "for god sakes Xander call giles then! hurry shes bleeding out!"

Buffy heard muffled shouts she presumed they we're her friends saving her again, but this time she didnt want them to save her.

this was it she thought Spike was right he was always right this was time she had her death wish. and know she'd finally join her lover.

Buffy thought back through her life nothing major had happened she had never lived an amazing life nothing great had happened she defeated many foes. had many good times and a heck of alot of bad ones.

she lived in solitude never telling her friend many things only telling one person. HIM. she thought back she had defeated every evil that arised except HIM

she lost Angel, Parker, Riley, and HIM.

then she gained Dawn, then she almost lost her to Glory and none we're strong enough to stand up to her except HIM he protected her, and Dawn then came the greatest evil she had ever faced. the first and the first was defeated because of HIM

her life had revolved around HIM and death.. always death. and know she would give in to death and join HIM.





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