Quick Note: I know in this part I practically copied the whole events of the ep...but I absolutely love Spike angry!! Especially when he sets out to Kill Buffy…I know I’m all about the Spuffy loving and I assure you it will be that!!!!! Anywho…. Continue to enjoy!!!
Rage
Anger
Madness
His eyes were filled with fury as he barged into the crypt; Harmony jumped at his entry, running over to her Blondie bear as he was fishing around in a huge trunk.
“ Spike what are you doing?”
“Beneath me…I’ll show her six bloody feet beneath me” he growled as he found what he was looking for he pulled out a gun.
“Hasn’t got a death wish…” he loaded the gun, before snapping it close again, “Bitch wont need one!”
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South America, 1998
“Why can’t you kill her?”
You’re the one who keeps bringing her up I haven’t said a word about the bloody slayer since we left California, she’s on the other side of the planet Dru!” he yelled at her.
“But you’re lying! I can still see her floating all around you!” She spoke, “you can’t blame the girl Spike, you’re all covered in her…when I look at you, all I see is the slayer.”
Sunnydale 2001
Realization
Truth
Awareness
At that moment Spike knew, what he felt for Buffy hadn’t just happened a couple of weeks ago, it had happened years ago. From probably the first time he saw her…or even before that. He was drawn to her, he was destined to her…no way could he kill her now…he was going to have to tell her the truth…
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Buffy couldn’t believe it, she sat on the back step and ran her hands in her hair, weeping silently to herself…she couldn’t bear the thought of loosing her mother, her words replaying in Buffy's head…
“You know the nothing I’ve been dealing with…it might not be nothing”
“I’m getting a CAT scan”
From behind the trees and bushes a figure appeared, walking towards the crying Buffy was Spike, carrying the gun from before, his face one of determination. He sauntered straight up to her, ready to shoot. When she looked up, tears streaming down, her face etched with sorrow and sadness. Spike found himself softening…
“What do you want now?” she asked annoyed that he was seeing her like this, she was exposed to him, her weakness revealed.
“What’s wrong?” he asked, concern in his voice as he stared at her, wanting to comfort her more than anything.
She looked back into his eyes, she wanted him now more than ever, she wanted to live and not have to deal with the pain of death being so close. She realised then that she had to be strong even though she was weak she couldn’t, shouldn’t give in to temptation. She averted her eyes, breaking contact and brushed him off, “I don’t wanna talk about it” she whispered.
He lowered the gun, still gazing at the crying beauty in front of him,
“Is there something I can do?” he genuinely wanted to help her…if he could he would die for her just to make her happy. He tilted his head slightly trying to see her better read her. She didn’t reply he was going to carry on, to ask her what happened again, but he stopped, and silently sat down beside her.
He tried to look at her but she tilted her head away, nervously but gently, Spike rose his hand and softly petted her on the back. Her eyes went wide with the realization that Spike was trying to comfort her, he cared for her. He removed his hand slowly and placed it back on his knee. They sat in silence for a while before Buffy spoke still staring ahead.
“My mothers going into hospital…tomorrow…she’s getting a CAT scan.”
He looked at her, hurt was across his face too, out of all the Scoobies Joyce had been his favorite. She had never judged him, she listened to him go on about Dru, and she seemed to be the only one who truly understood him. She used to make him delicious hot chocolate with little marshmallows. When he was around Joyce he was reminded of his own mother, memories began to return to him now, and before he got too emotional he replied to her.
“Joyce is a wonderful woman…she doesn’t deserve this.” He spoke quietly his head hung low. Buffy was touched by what he said, she looked at him, and saw he was upset by this news as well. It shocked her and calmed her knowing that someone was here with her now, who would listen.
She placed her hand on his arm, rubbing up and down; she looked into his crystal blue eyes, and smiled. “I know…spike” she whispered travelling further down his arm to grab a hold of his hand, entwining their fingers, he gently massaged the top of her hand with his thumb as she continued… “Thank you.”
He smiled back at her tilting his head slightly and biting his bottom lip, no one had really been this nice to him, no one certainly had said ‘Thank you’ to him.
She watched him closely and couldn’t help but feel aroused as he sucked in his bottom lip suggestively. The kiss earlier that night meant nothing, she was almost sure of it. Yet there was something telling her it wasn’t nothing that it was incredible,
It was right
And it was true
And it was… love.
That something was her heart, and she felt it now more than ever.
She took a deep breath as she leant in slowly using her other hand to cup his face and bringing him closer. Finally their lips met softly, they freed their clasped hands and explored the others bodies. Their soft kiss soon turned passionate as lust took over and Buffy was left groaning into his mouth.
She had to break away for air, panting furiously she looked up at Spike…and instead of running away as she usually did! She smiled, wrapping her arms tighter around his neck bringing him in for another burning kiss, as they pulled away again, Spike began leading a trail of kisses along her neck, trying to compose her self Buffy whispered in his ear. “Come with me…to the hospital I mean…” she asked hoping he would she needed him there to be strong, she couldn’t do it without him…
“ Of course baby…I’ll never leave you.” He spoke pulling away so he stared into her eyes, she knew he wasn’t lying. A slight tear trickled down her cheek but Spike caught it with his thumb, he smiled at her gently as they continued their make-out session…
A/N: I know its short but it was a good place to end…. Its not gonna be much longer probably another 2 chapters at best…. Please review! Love to hear what you think!