I just found this story and love it. Yes, Spike's not very nice, but I like him like that. Some stories have him pretty much a saint - which is not Spike (IMO). Buffy is great, too. She's not an idiot, whiny, or naive. (I'm really glad she wasn't a virgin, because that is such a cliche'.) And I'm glad you aren't bashing Angel - I happen to like him. Spike should spend a weekend dealing with jealousy for once. (Jealous over Dru doesn't count. :) ) I just hope Spike doesn't end up in jail. This story has enough conflict you probably could have made her 18 and it wouldn't have changed much. (unless you are planning something else in the future.) Look forward to the next chapter.

Author's Response: so glad you love it, and that we see eye to eye on so much! makes my life a little easier to know you're out there :) I like my Spike far from saint-like (and I agree that when he is, that's not him), and I like my Buffy strong. She's kind of on her knees, at a low point, here (thus the title), but I'm so glad you don't find her whiny or naive. I worry about that. I never for a second considered making her a virgin. *I* even had a cringe moment when I established that she'd never had an orgasm before Spike, but I ended up concluding that it was far from unlikely that that would be the case; plus, I think that aspect makes how much she prostrates herself that much more likely. Probably shouldn't reveal things, but I'll go ahead and say, no jail time for our boy. her age is simply a kink of mine <coughs> thanks for reading!