THE SPUFFY REALM

Because She Needs Me by CallMeKitten Rated: NC-17 Liked

Summary: Buffy returns from the dead haunted by a little girl in a cave crying out for her, needing her. Unsure of where or when the child Kaia is from, she turns to Willow for help to contact her. Willow goes one step further, sending Buffy into the past. Now she has to find her way home. Can Spike find her before something terrible happens?

Nominated at Rogue Poet Awards in Best WIP and Best Plot and at Spuffy awards for Most Original Plot, Best General Angst, and Best General Romance, Nominated for round 11 Fang Fetish Awards for Most Original and Best Angst/Dark, SunnyD Awards for Best Author/Best Drama/Best Angst/Best OC (Groma)/Best Plot/Best Unfinished (whew! and Thanks!) and Nommed at The Readers Have Chosen for the July 2009 Fanfic poll, too. OH, and I forgot Spark and Burn Awards, Reader's Choice, RD 6 for Best Plot, Best Angst, Best OC - Groma, and Best Villain - Kahn. YAY!
***Awards Won***
Sunnydale Memorial Fanfiction Awards Round 18
-Best Drama - Spuffy, Winner
-Best Angst - Runner Up
-Best Original Character, Groma - Runner Up
Categories: General Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Angst
Warnings: Violence, Adult Language, Sexual Situations, Rape, Child Abuse
Series: None
Chapters: 29 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 50629

[Report This] Published: 05/15/2009 Updated: 07/11/2010

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 06/03/2009 Title: Chapter 3: Chapter 3

At least she has Kaia's spirit to "tell" her things.. might be impossible to be there otherwise.. Still.. Won't be easy.
I'm almost hooked to this story now..

Author's Response: heehee Hooked you say *cheers!* no things will not be easy, and Buffy/Kaia's strength will be tested. Thanks for reading and reviewing.

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 06/03/2009 Title: Chapter 4: Chapter 4

I wonder what Willow knows, or thinks what happened?
Kahn! I knew there had to be someone like that.. How much of an asshole is he?

Author's Response: ok, I have been dying to say, Buffy will feel "The Wrath of Kahn" ... what an asshole is right :) Thanks for reading and reviewing, Kirsty!

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 06/03/2009 Title: Chapter 5: Chapter 5

What a choice! Both are very, very bad.
What is going on in SUnnydale? How long until they figure out what happened.. will Willow even tell what she attempted to do?She probably won't admit that the spell might have gone wrong..

Would like to have more to read.. so updates, please
I do believe I am now officially hooked to this

Author's Response: Thanks for reading all the way thru what I have posted and reviewing each chapter *squeeeee* it tickles my muse more than you know. There's lots going on in both locations, and I will address SunnyD soon. Your reviews made my morning ;) You rock Kirsty!

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 06/05/2009 Title: Chapter 6: Chapter 6

What? I believe there is some text missing..
So, with and ending like that..
The way wrote about her thoughts was...

Author's Response: MWAhahahaha her thoughts will be much clearer soon

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 06/11/2009 Title: Chapter 6: Chapter 6

so, I re-read this before going on to the new chapter..
Even on second read it kept at the edge of my seat wondering waht will happen..
Liked how she thought of Sunnydale (and Spike).
Loved how you wrote of the cave and the people and their actions.And made happy to live in this time and place.

Author's Response: I am tickled you not only reread a chap, but enjoyed it a second time :) I feel like I'm doing a good job when I read reviews like this. *hugs Kirsty tight*

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 06/11/2009 Title: Chapter 7: Chapter 7

Finally I had time to read the new update.. It was ok..
nah just kidding it was great!

Buffy found a way (maybe) to avoid The Bastard.. or at least buy some time.. He really wasn't happy the way things turned out. Still, I'm not sure what he will say.. I can see him agreeing and disagreeing. Either way I'm sure he doesn't give up easily..

Yay Buffy for not playing by their rules! I don't think she expects things to go smoothly..

Spike is worried.. as he should be.. I wonder what he will find out..

Looking forward to read more unexpected twists.

Author's Response: WOOHOO you enjoyed the update too! even better :) more twists and turns to come Thanks for the review Kirsty !

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 06/15/2009 Title: Chapter 8: Chapter 8

Oh great, another enemy.. Ullah. Doesn't she have eyes? Kahn is a disgusting bastard! At least they have Hourak, elder, on their side.
and poor Spike.I just wanna give him a hug.
Still loving this story.I like not being able to see at all what will happen to them, surprises are good :)
It's quickly becoming my favorite one. I hope you will keep on writing it and posting often.

Author's Response: Thanks Kirsty. It makes me smile to get reviews like this one, knowing you are actually looking forward to the next update. There is much more to learn of the fate of these characters. Please stay with me as the tale unfolds.

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 06/22/2009 Title: Chapter 9: Chapter 9

I wonder what Kahn will do? Only relying on physical strength is not engough.. Will he have a plan? I don't think he is actually stupid..or will it be Ullah to make more damage..

So, they are planning on leaving, good. And tellling Groma.. Good or bad? Will she react badly.. Or will they forget to keep their voices down and be overheard?

And lets not forget about poor Spike. The aura situation cannot be good. Maybe that will help Tara to figure out what went on in there..

So many possibilities.. So.. hurry up so I can find out!!

Author's Response: *whistles, and looks to ceiling* Kirsty, there are so many possibilites, but only one action, Kahn is a bad man, but is he stupid? We will find out soon enough. Groma, sweet Groma, will she accept what she's about to be told? And Spike, that aura has to mean something, something very important... more soon, I promise!

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 07/01/2009 Title: Chapter 10: Chapter 10

what a chapter!! so much emotion.
Spike is really suffering, poor thing. Maybe he and Tara are now closer to finding out about the spell.. and then I'm sure Willow will be in trouble, big time.
Now Groma knows, yay, no more hiding for Buffy. And even better that Groma so easily accepted not only the truth but Buffy as well. Good for both of them.
Loved the chapter. And now off to the next one..

Author's Response: Your review brought a huge smile to my face! I am thrilled you are enjoying, I cant wait to share the rest! Thanks Kirsty

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 07/01/2009 Title: Chapter 11: Chapter 11

again, what a chapter! I just absolutely love this story,
"The pleading look that Spike wore on his face caused a lump to form in Tara’s throat" yup, me too.
And I really, really want to take Willow's heavy bag and hit her with it, several times.
Oh no, the situation is looking very very bad for Buffy/Kaia..

More, please.

Author's Response: Thanks Kirsty, Am so flattered by your reviews :) theres so much more to share.

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 07/08/2009 Title: Chapter 12: Chapter 12

A new chapter! *happy dance*
I think I might feel sorry for Ullah..hmmm.. for some reason she (still) wants Kahn while he wants to get rid of her.. Although, her way of doing things will only make things worse for Buffy and herself.
Kahn is still.. there just isn't a word to say how much a bastard he is and how much I dislike/hate him. And when he decides what he will do next 'm sure I will hate him even more.

Spike is reeeaally angry at Willow right now, and she defenetly needs to be careful in what she will do to get Buffy back.. no need to anger Spike more.. (but I'm sure Willow will do something to "fix" the situation and Spike will not agree) Interesting to see what happened with the spell(s?).
And now Willow is jealous of Spike. Him knowing about Buffy's things and Tara sideing with him.

Love the Spike- Tara friendship. And I also like the strong Tara, standing up to the things she believes in. I wish I had a friend like Tara.

So still completely hooked to this and hoping for more.

Author's Response: Thanks for following and granting me such glorious reviews, Kirsty! The characters are all growing with the story, and I'm thrilled you not only see their growth, but understand it as well. Theres much more to come, I promise its no where close to being over :)

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 07/16/2009 Title: Chapter 13: Chapter 13

Now thay have Buffy's body.. but can they bring her back.. and her soul?And I do admire Spike's strength.. even I want to cause some physical pain to Willow.. Well i suppose Buffy's well being is more important to him.

And Willow.. If she was so convinsed she did the right thing with Buffy, then why go all the trouble to hide her body? She knows she did wrong, but won't admit to it. And trying to fix with more dark magick.. not a good idea.. what price will she have to pay?

What significanse does Buffy's dreams have? or are they just dremas and nothing more..

I do have my doubts that Buffy can handle whatever she may face.. I think there might be scarier things around than she suspects..

Enjoyed the new update. Made a crappy day a bit brighter :)

Author's Response: So good, you reviewed twice :) *giggles*

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 07/16/2009 Title: Chapter 13: Chapter 13

Now thay have Buffy's body.. but can they bring her back.. and her soul?And I do admire Spike's strength.. even I want to cause some physical pain to Willow.. Well i suppose Buffy's well being is more important to him.

And Willow.. If she was so convinsed she did the right thing with Buffy, then why go all the trouble to hide her body? She knows she did wrong, but won't admit to it. And trying to fix with more dark magick.. not a good idea.. what price will she have to pay?

What significanse does Buffy's dreams have? or are they just dremas and nothing more..

I do have my doubts that Buffy can handle whatever she may face.. I think there might be scarier things around than she suspects..

Enjoyed the new update. Made a crappy day a bit brighter :)

Author's Response: WOW, you did like the chapter! I am so glad I brightened your crappy day :) Buffy has obsticales in Caveville and SD.. theres still lots of story to tell, and I hope you enjoy the upcoming chapters as well.

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 07/24/2009 Title: Chapter 14: Chapter 14

"if Kaia was missing, no one would know to even go looking for her. "+
"A devious smile " Doesn't look too good for Buffy. Also I'm a bit worried she won't be able to fight him off, once it comes to that..

I love Tara!!Hopefully she won't be disappointed and will figure out how to get Buffy back..
Also the spell to keep Willow away..
"Should Willow’s heart be true, and should she come back seeking forgiveness, she would be given permission to cross the threshold once forgiven by all who resided within. " so seems like Willow wont' be back.. ever.. mwhaahhha..

I demand more, now!!!

Author's Response: Thanks for the glowing review Kirsty *grins widely* Love that you loved Tara and her spell, and yeah, not looking great for Buffy/Kaia, but more info in the next update.

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 07/30/2009 Title: Chapter 15: Chapter 15

Well faught Buffy and Kaia. But Now she better have more strength left after all.. she'll need it.. Unless something happens to Kahn before he gets to her..He's gross and no-one would be sorry if one vampire came and made him a snack..

Spike is just too sweet looking after Buffy..

And Tara.. Yay, for bending the truth a bit when talking to Angel! He better stay far, far away..
With her mind, I'm sure she will think of something unique to give to the Oracels.

Loved the chaper! More and soon.. very soon, please, pretty please..

Author's Response: Thanks for the R&R Kirsty, I am so tickled you are enjoying this story..I will be back from the beach in a few days, new chapter next week, promise :)

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 08/08/2009 Title: Chapter 16: Chapter 16

You just had to bring in Angel.. like this story already didn't have enough annoying and stupid idiots.. So many people to hit some sense into.. *sighs*
But then again Angel does bring out the best of Spike.. ;)

Willow is getting into more and more trouble.. And that just means more trouble for all.
Angel looking for brownie points .. yeah, please like those would help her to choose him over Spike..

Looking forward to the meeting with the Oracles.. and dreading the confrontation between Kahn and Buffy/Kaia.. I guess more Angel would be alright too.. and Willow..and Spike..

Author's Response: Thanks for the R&R Kirsty. Angel ... what can I say, I like him and Spike arguing :) And making him look like an ass... but, just keep reading. He and Willow will learn valuable lessons. Oracle visit coming soon.

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 08/09/2009 Title: Chapter 17: Chapter 17

Well. at least the gross bastard is now dead. But just a bit too late, though. I do hope Buffy/Kaia will survive and be ok.
Now what will happen to her, in the new cave.. Whar dangers will come upon them. And will Ullah leave them be?

Angel not able to babysit Willow afterall.. bad Willow! Will he remember after a while what happened.. then how will his ego react.

Spike is trying, but more needs to be done..

Loved the update, despite it being hard to read, but luckily not too hard nor too into detail.
Do keep on writing :)

Author's Response: Thanks for the R&R Kirsty. Kahns death is good, but there are repercussions as we've already seen. Angel... are we done with him...stay tuned. Spike will be doing more very soon. Much more coming !

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 08/20/2009 Title: Chapter 18: Chapter 18

Loved the chapter :)
Things are loooking worse and worse for Willow. So Willow still believes Buffy is just having a nice relaxing holiday with lots of sun.. And the nightmares..maybe time to change what she's doing?

Tara's meeting with the Oracles, finally. Wonder what the gifts are..
Spike is so sweet,aww.

Oh, and I love Hourak, too :)

Author's Response: Thanks for the R&R Kirsty :) Willow. What can I say. So desperate to be better than, more powerful than... things are not good. More to come in the next chapter!

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 08/20/2009 Title: Chapter 19: Chapter 19

Hourak is just full of surprises.
I think being able to (allowed) to cry did Buffy good. So they are off to their new cave.. will these people leave them be?

A picnic?! haha, wonderful idea, and one i didn't see coming :) I want some Spike made pancakes, too. The meeting was defenetly worth the wait. And I knew the gift would be original, as it was. Loved it, loved it, loved it!!
A swirling blue orb, someone needing to ger Buffy? Spike, maybe?

Loved the chapter very much. So more please :)

Author's Response: Thanks Kirsty! Buffy being able show weakness, allowing herself to just let go is huge. Its something she would never permit herself to do at home... what does that say about her feelings towards each place? Who doesnt want some Spike pancakes?! more info on the orb coming up, I promise :)

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 09/16/2009 Title: Chapter 20: Chapter 20

Perky Angel? that's just... wrong.

If/when Buffy has to go home it won't be easy.. Seems like she's beginning to enjoy her time there.. Now all she needs is Spike ;)

Enjoyed the chapter.

Author's Response: heehee Kirsty :) *flicks Angel - all day long*
Spike will definately be in for a surprise when he finds her.... and so will she!

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 09/16/2009 Title: Chapter 20: Chapter 20

Perky Angel? that's just... wrong.

If/when Buffy has to go home it won't be easy.. Seems like she's beginning to enjoy her time there.. Now all she needs is Spike ;)

Enjoyed the chapter.

Author's Response: *sings* double your pleasure, double your fun...

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 09/16/2009 Title: Chapter 21: Chapter 21

Oh no.. pregnant? Didn't even think of that.. aand was defenetly hoping it would be something else.. And now..hmmm I don't know what to think.. But then again nether des Buffy.. I guess I will just have to wait to see what will happen.

I knew it would be Spike :) Now it will get (more) interesting.. And Buffy's been there already for months.. But I doubt it will be easy for Spike either.
And by the way.. Angel and ice cream.. is just wrong.

Author's Response: Thanks for the r&r Kirsty :) that pregnancy should throw everyone for a loop :-0
Spike should have a cape :P Every hero should,
Angel is just wrong, *flicks him again*

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 09/16/2009 Title: Chapter 22: Chapter 22

Ok, so Buffy is pregnant with Kaia? weird.. And I agree with Groma what does it mean?
And Spike..yes I agree, i hope there isn't any dinosaurs.. Hope he will find Buffy soon..
Willow is in BIG trouble now.. And chance to get away looks to be slim to none.. And like she's any better than Anya..
Tara is too sweet.. “Now, when he comes back, he will see her immediately.”

Loved the update. This is still very interesting story.. despite it aready having quite many chapters.. There's always something new to make it more interesting :) Keep up the amazing work :)
I want more..well no that's not true.. I need more!!

Author's Response: *smirks* yep, it is weird, but isnt living in another body too?!
*flicks Willow*
I adore Tara. But you already knew that :)
Am just so thrilled that "despite having so many chapters" you are still enjoying. I will have another update posted next week to feed your need :P *squishes*

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 09/18/2009 Title: Chapter 23: Chapter 23

Wonder what kind of a lesson will Willow get.. I mean she won't easily learn.. and yet, I don't feel bad for her situation.. She has only herself to blame..
Angel with a tummy ache? brooding? jealous of Spike? mwhahaha serves him right! :D
How will Buffy's pregnancy affect going back to Sunnydale? and Spike?
Once he sees her.. I can hardly wait to see his reaction..
And he will see her..right? those ancient vampires won't get him.. right?
Loved the update :)

Author's Response: Thanks for reading and reviewing Kirsty :) Wilow will get hers, Angel - LMAO, preggo Buffy might make that trip back akward, reunion is coming, and UberVamps vs. our guy? No worries, he's quick on his feet.

Reviewer: Kirsty Signed Liked

Date: 10/20/2009 Title: Chapter 27: Chapter 27

Sorry for not leaving any reviews for last chapters.. But I haven't had the time nor energy for it ( I know bad me).. So I've just enjoyed the story and let myself relax. So I'm still very much hooked to the wonderful story :)

What made me really happy was that Spike knew Buffy right away :) Good for all involved. And i was a bit sceptical about the pregnancy but now it seems very interesting.. And really How will it affect them getting back to Sunnydale?! And how will they actually plan to get back there.. How far is the pregnancy? Will Buffy take the baby with her? or what..

" She needed him, heart and soul, and it didn’t matter whether they were in Sunnydale or there." awww. Sweet. I'm so happy they are together again :)

Author's Response: Thanks for reviewing Kirsty! I know RL interferes with our Spuffy obsession far more than it should. As far as pregnancy, shes around 4 months. Stick with me on this, I think you will enjoy the outcome.