High School fic: Buffy tries to commit suicide

Hi, I've looked in the found fics and can not find it, maybe I passed over it, but I am looking for a high school fic where buffy tries to commit suicide. She's in love with spike, and he used to be part of the gang but went and became popular. Once he finds out buffy tried to kill herself he starts hanging with her again, and eventually they end up together. He also buys her kittens. I cannot remember of the name or the author.
Help is greatly appreciated, thankyou.

I think that's Lost Without You by Enchantress. She took down her fics almost everywhere recently, but you can still find them at Sinister Attraction.

I thinik it´s called only hope, her stepmom is bad with her and her dad allows it till the end, cant remember autor but its here on sr

Thankyou, its Lost with you, but i will be sure to also read Only Hope because that also sounds interesting.