I'm looking for fics in which Buffy dies or has been dead a while and Spike is in a really dark place, depressed and her death completely destroys him. And he tries to get her back somehow. Something along those lines. Just something that's a bit on the dark side, has lots of Spike and Spuffy awesomeness, multiple chapter preferably. Thanks a lot!

Oh, and there's a happy ending (but that might be asking for too much haha)

This is a one-shot, but it fits the bill. My Deepest Endearing Love and Devotion by Behind Blue Eyes is in one word--beautiful. Not only the story itself, but the reason why she wrote it. It brings tears to my eyes everytime I read it.


Spike reflects on his life, eighty years after Buffy has passed.

You can find it here on SR.

Enjoy it!

Journey series by Mary. Available at All About Spike.

Awesome! Thanks a lot!