Post NFA - Human Spike gets crippled and refuses to see Buffy

Hi guys,

I am looking for a fic I read a while ago.

Spike ist shanshued, I think, and it takes place after NFA. If I remember correctly he got crippled in the fight and can't walk.

Buffy finds out he's still alive, but he refuses to see her. He spends some time in some kind of hospital and Buffy stays there to, but I think he doesn't know, at least he doesn't want to see her. He gets depressed and tries to kill himself, Buffy saves him.

It would be awesome if someone remembers the fic.

I think you are looking for A Loss of Pride by Mabel Marsters.

https://www.spikeluver.com/SpuffyRealm/viewstory.php?sid=30089

That's it. Thanks a lot