I read it several times and I cannot find it again and it's making me crazy! Please help!!

Buffy decides to go to a bar and get drunk the night of Joyce's funeral. She is then attacked and raped by a group of vampires. She shows up at Spikes looking for help. Eventually turns into Spuffy, with of course the scoobies being against it. Any help would be appreciated!

breaking the slayer by dark rhiannon

Are you sure? Breaking a Slayer was based off of Who Are You and This Year's Girl where Faith steals Buffy's body and then allows her to be raped by vampires at a bar and she goes to Angel and Spike both for help. It is definitely a Buffy/Spike/Angel fic, not just a spuffy fic and also Joyce isn't dead. Those details are so critical to the story that it seems like the story being asked about must be a different story, at least to me.

Yeah it's definetly not that one, I cant remember where I read it either. Here are more details:
Buffy is raped in an alley by a group of vampires. Then she shows up at Spike's crypt and he let's her stay with him, he goes out and kills the vamps that raped her. The relationship evolves from there.
ANY help is appreciated thank you