Well i've had an absolutely awful week and am feeling really down. Pain is good for the soul (if I still have one left) and i'm really needing to be reading some emotional angst.
I'm hoping for some of Buffy and/or scoobies really hurting spike's feelings and making him feel unwelcome, or just Buffy pushing him too far and reducing our poor boy to tears.
I know i'm evil for wanting such a thing but it's a reflection of how i'm feeling right now and I don't want to go through it alone lol.

Blood Bound by DreamsofSpike is the story for you. Buffy is totally abusive to Spike both emotionally and physically. In fact, I can't see myself reading the story again it's so harsh.

One Good Day by Raven X
http://www.sinister-attraction.net/stories/r/onegoodday.htm

A Gem of a Soul by Spuffy Luvr. Very long and very angsty.