Pictures of Spike and Dru with Angelus

I'm trying to remember A season 6-ish story. Buffy and Spike are lovers (I think) and trying to work through the muddle of their relationship. Buffy stumbles on a box or trunk of Spike's keepsakes. In it she finds a picture of a naked Spike in a pornographic pose sitting in Angelus' lap, looking possessive and dominating. A naked Dru is in a similar pose.

I think Buffy vomits seeing that side of Angelus exposed. She questions Spike about it and then really listens about how Angelus dominated him. In the end, the discussion brought them closer.

GAH! I know this one! I think it's Kantayra or Dawnofme! Or possibly Addie Logan. I'll try and find it.

Thanks for any help!

I am so sorry, I've opened every fic I could think of and searched for the words "sepia", "photograph", "picture" and in desperation even "lap" which brought up so many hits to look though you can't even imagine since there's no way to limit the search to whole words in Calibre, but I can not seem to find this fic! I'll keep trying as more titles come to me but I really hope that someone else can remember because it looks like I'm hitting a dead end.

Gah I was relying on you! I have definitely read this fic too. I've been searching then gave up in exasperation hoping you would succeed. I'll probably go back to it again now.

I think this is from "Forgive Me" by Herself, part of the Bittersweets Series. Buffy doesn't stumble on it she takes it away from Dawn after she had retrieved it from Spike's destroyed crypt. It's a angsty story, to say the least.

Buggerthis.net crashed a while back, so I can't find a decent current link, except from All About Spike :

http://www.allaboutspike.com/fic.html?id=647

Maybe the Wayback Machine or someone else????

Peyton, I used your word search method - "angelus". I knew it was Herself, but I couldn't recall which one.

Ah that is definitely the one I was thinking of. I knew it was one with wonky characterisations and actually started searching The Bittersweet series and got to Forgive Me when I stopped, I thought it was one I had read more recently.

WOOT!

Ah, this sounds like a Herself sort of story. I going to read it to see. Thanks so much to everyone!

Just wanted to add my Thanks for all the effort to help find stories - I have a feeling that this writer also has her works at the Archive Of Their Own site - Sorry to learn about her personal archive - it's a loss because this is one of the most outstanding writers in the Buffyverse fanfiction works.

FWIW, Herself also uploaded her stuff to Elysian Fields