Buffy wants Spike to be her First - Human AU

I did try searching first, by the way. Does anyone remember a Human AU fic in which Buffy and Spike are best friends, and Buffy wants to Spike to be her first. He at first refuses, because he's in love with her and he realizes she doesn't share his feelings. Oh, and I think they were all in high school.

I only vaguely remember this, and I can't recall where I read it, what the title is or who the author is. Thank you for any help.

That sounds like "Because" by Holly, which she took down and turned into original fiction.

Yep, that seems to be the one. Although others have touched on similar themes.

You're looking for "Because." Holly took it down because she turned it into an original novel. Of course, Holly has no qualms against sending it to you if you ask her as well

Yes it has been made into a novel, you can get it through her website...HERE

Also a very similar story concept has been found here, I found it when I did a search for 'virginity'. It might be worth a read:

AH: Buffy wants to lose her virginity and Spike volunteers