Hey, I�m looking for this fic, unfortunately I can�t remember much about it.

I�m fairly certain it�s highschool, Buffy and Spike are friends. Buffy has cancer (i think) and is dying, but she doesn�t want anyone to know. There�s also Dawn.

Well, that�s pretty much it. I was so certain that I read it on Sweet Temptation, but I can�t find it.

Help please

And thanks!

Could it be this one:

A Love To Remember ----- by Lexa

http://spikeluver.com/SpuffyRealm/viewstory.php?sid=14736&warning=NC-17

Summary: Fantasy: All human in this fic. Buffy is a quiet girl who keeps to herself. Spike is a bad boy who just wants to cause trouble. But what happens when Spike and Buffy are clashed together? Will there mutual acquaintance grow to something more... possibly love? Based on the movie A Walk To Remember.

OR THIS ONE:

My Heart is True As Steel ----- by too_many_spike_posters

http://spikeluver.com/SpuffyRealm/viewstory.php?sid=36716

Summary: High School Fic. AU/All Human. After causing too many incidents around the school, Spike Williams is forced to join the school play to "meet different kinds of people." Buffy Summers, the self-proclaimed student head of the theater department, wants him to leave before he makes a fool of everyone. Full of mischief and mayhem, A Midsummer Night's Dream may make lovers of the most unlikely of people. (Sort of a mixture between Get Over It, A Walk to Remember and my own imagination)

Thanks, but that�s not it.

Maybe it�s been taken down.

Hi Maggie,
I think it could be "Keep holding on" by TammyAsh666 but I am not quite sure about Dawn being in it, you might check it out Even if that's not it, it's still a great read!

Summary: Spike Rayne is the most popular guy in school. Buffy Summers is the new girl that gets under his skin. When she shows no interest in him, he's willing to do anything to get her attention. How will Spike react when he finds out something about her that he never would have expected? Will it bring them closer together, or tear them even further apart? Nominated at the Cradle of Humanity Awards.

Here's the link:
http://spikeluver.com/SpuffyRealm/viewstory.php?sid=29105&warning=NC-17

Thanks, I�ve already found that one too, but it�s not it either. I really think it�s been taken down, which is sad...

I�m sure Dawn was Buffy�s younger sister and Buffy was dying of cancer and didn�t want her or Spike to know...but that�s pretty much all i can remember.

I remember one where Spike was the one who was terminally ill and I recall he and Buffy sitting on the beach at night talking. But not where it was Buffy who was terminal (in high school, anyway). I wish I could help, but this one just doesn't ring any bells.

im just curious smac. but the one where you found that story. when spike is terminally ill. what is the title called and what website is it at? i heard about it from a friend and i would love to read it. it will be greatly appreciated.

I wish I could remember! I have thought for a very long time that it was 'Almost Seventeen' but when I took a look at it briefly last night it didn't seem right at all. And if that's not it then the title escapes me. But it seems like the title was something along those lines -- like he was dying and would not live to get any older was in the title if you realized it when you saw it. Argh!! It is really bugging me so I am still thinking about it. If I can remember it I will post it here, I promise.

ok thank you so much!!

Well maybe I�m crazy and made that one up...which is more than possible with my state of mind.

Or maybe I�m mixing some stories together, I really don�t know anymore.

Thanks anyway for your help, I appreciate it.

During a search for 'Spuffy Fics: Buffy was/is dying of cancer'...this popped up, check it out and see if that's it:

Just Skin by Wolfram and Hart

Already read that - not the fic I was looking for. I really think I just made it up or something. But thanks

Maybe I�ve finaly gone crazy

I knew the age was in the title! I found the Spike ill story I mentioned for those who asked for it when I could remember what it was called:

Eighteen Forever by Captain

http://web.archive.org/web/20050212234851/vampires-kiss.net/kiss.htm

Summary: High School AU fic that really has nothing to do with high school. On a windy night Buffy took a walk out on the beach. There, she found someone who would change her life. And if you're still not convinced that it will be good, just know that Spike plays a guitar on the beach.

When you click on the link, to to 'archives' and then search by author name under 'C' for Captain and you will find the story that way. It is only complete through chapter 22.

I still don't know the Buffy ill one you originally asked for, but at lease now we know what the Spike ill one was.

Here's another Buffy ill and dying fic I just located. She's not in high school or anything but it looks promising and it's complete.

Headaches by wvu_kerq

http://web.archive.org/web/20050403190113/http://www.spuffyfantasy.com/

Summary: Buffy has a great life, a good job, great friends, and a good boyfriend. She has hopes and dreams like everyone else, but what will happen when she's given 8 months to live?