Interesting.. When someone hurts us, we hurt them back. Protection. Revenge but not totally fitting the case of Buffy. Spike hurt her because yeah why? Dru blackmailed him and therefore hurt him? Buffy didn't hurt Spike. I see.. Spike thought the same. ~ And Buffy is moving out; good for her.... well if her parents would have supportive... too late. ~ I'm not saying anything because of what Spike said about Dru *snorts*... Question btw: Does Spike takes drugs? Some chapters (last one?) he refused to take it. And Angel is right (what he said). Well.. I'm not sure how Angel can help Spike.

He needs YEARS of therapy! At least he's getting some help. I'm gonna hold out some hope that Buffy will do well at Julliard and that she'll be strong enough to face the past when she runs into Spike again. Still don't think that Spike deserves any kind of forgiveness, but I'll stick with this. Update soon

Great chapter! One thing popped into my head though... although in the fic Dru was seen giving Spike drugs, and Angel said Dru gave him drugs... I don't see drug induced behavior or at least physical evidence of him using drugs. Maybe a light user? Still, there are signs and Spike seem normal, except for the emotional turmoil he's having. *shrugs* Just my thought. But I love this chapter, and I love your fic. Please update soon?

“I know… I’m a bad person. Sometimes I hate myself. But – this – this isn’t me. I know there’s a part of me… somewhere that still knows who I am. Who I can be. But… I hurt. I hurt – god – I hurt everyone. I hurt the –“

Wonder if he was going to say..." I hurt the girl." ??
Very interesting, and deep. I see layers in this story...I can't wait to hear more about what happened to Spike from before.
Sure, Spike was an ass for what he did to Buffy..but there was an underlying cause..The session with Dr. Travers lit on to it..Spike was afraid..Maybe, afraid of being happy? Afraid of being in love? Spike was a coward, and he was weak..but I'm wondering if he wasn't pretty damaged underneath that happy exterior.

Yay for Buffy, Glad to see her at Julliard! I'll feel better knowing that she is making something of herself : D

BTW..I'm glad I was on the right track with Spike! I eagerly await your next update ; )

Loved the chapter! Spike was being selfish trying to convince Angel he did it for him. Still not liking Spike overly much. Love your fic though! Please update soon!

I think you are doing a good job writing this story. You really have people enraged with Spike. I like thie idea of Buffy standing up for herself. I'm sure her room mates will help her through. Seems Giles was the one who helped her get to Julliard. Good for him. I have a feeling Buffy is going to become a success, while possibly the success of the band may take a slide?

Sorry,, but Spke DOES NOT deserve help. Don't think I'll be reading this anymnore. It's not your writing- he just makes me too mad, and even now, he's being the victim when everything is his fault.

Author's Response: Suit yourself. Thanks for your opinion.

i find your story very mysterious and intresting! i can't wait to read what happens when they meet up again! i can't wait to read more! please? update soon?!

Oh well done Buffy, you follow your ambitions~gives two thumbs up and an encouraging smile~. I hope she's a huge success and has some encounter with the seedy underbelly of the music industry herself so she can show Spike how people with INTEGRITY conduct themselves in spite of their fears ~sends a pointed look in Spike's direction~. Nice to see Travers used in here too as something other than a complete misogynist LOL.

i'm not sure how he can redeam himself at this point but i'm willing to wait to find out. more soon please

YESSS. Buffy's moving out! I'm so happy about that, just one paragraph with her da in it made me all 'grr, it's her goddamn life'. And Spike at a therapist (not to mention the therapist being Q. Travers)? Interesting. Can't wait for the next installment.

That was so brave of Buffy to move out. Where would she get her income though? How can she pay her way through Julliard? I sense some hardships ahead of that one. ;) Hank was a bastard though... so patronizing.

As for Spike, I can't wait to see what you have in store for him, and what you will tell us in your own time. So far, I'm still loving this story and you've churned out another great chapter. Can't wait for the next one!

Author's Response: Thanks!