i really like this chapter

i love the angst

keep up the good work

"A day? a week? a month?" When he closed his eyes and looked away, realization dawned on her. Well I didn't understand it (= I'm confused). Did Buffy notice now that Spike lied to her when leaving her? Or had he always someone else (=Drusilla, met her in L.A.? Or earlier?)?

(And no prob it wasn't NC17) I'll think I'll endure the next chapters and read on. Just.. when I was Buffy I don't think I would ever want to see him again. He hurt her too much and he did it purposefully because (as he repeated indirectly that he loved her. Well if I met him by accident.. but I would try to avoid him like hell. I don't know if there is an excuse for what he did. Buffy would have stayed with him. I don't think he is married to Drusilla. *sigh* I can understand why Buffy said he is beneath her. I feel temped to say he is. Buffy is the better person here.

Are you serious? Could this be anymore bad? I mean it was bad enough when Spike made all those promises..it was bad enough when he said he didn't love her..it got WAY worse when we found out he took her virginity on top of all that..NOW we know that he was having an affair with DRU! Uhhh...I am sure you have something good up your sleeve excuse wise..but I am going to need to see Spike groveling at Buffy's feet.
To be honest..I think it will help when you move the story along to a part where Buffy is happy, and really doing something with her own life. I want Spike to find her happy, healthy, and very desirable! Ya know? I guess we are going to just have to trust you on this one..LOL

Good update..YOu are VERY good with the angst!

I really doubt that hearing about Spike cheating on Buffy with Drusilla will make my anger for him lessen. He took Buffy's virginity while sleeping with Dru? Cause if it was only a week before he left, and he broke up with her right before he left, then he had to be sleeping with Dru while with Buffy. At least that's what I got from it (if that made any sense). So, he's not just beneath Buffy, he's scum. Not even sure if I want Part 2 to be a reconciliation at this point. Let Spike wallow in the misery he caused her. I'm kinda involved in this story, if you haven't noticed...lol. Can't wait for more.

Drusilla and Spike are a couple? No way!!! (sight, I hate that couple) I want to see him down and crying, I want him destroy, jajajaaa. Really really good story. One of the best I have read.

OMG that ba@@@rd, how in the world could he say that. poor buffy. i cant wait for more, and i gotta tell you that i can't wait to see how you get them back together cause i just don't see it after that. more soon please

i want to murder him!!! how could he do that to buffy?! i really hope she gets some of her stones back in the next chapter, i would really like to see spike at least appear to feel guilty for what he did when he rejected buffy. i am really loving your story and can't wait to read more!! please UPDATE SOON?

Wow. That must have totally sucked ass for Buffy ~sighs in sympathy~. And Spike's internal justification for his actions are sooo much more like the great poofter than Spike that I just wanted to slap him and tell him to grow a pair. Still, the more you hate a character's motivations the more satisfying it is when they have their moment of realisation, no? More soon please 8-)

great update

How could he hurt Buffy like that?? I can't believe him! I hope Buffy makes him suffer when he tries to get back with her! You did a great job! Keep up the good work!

To think about the way he had hurt her when he denied his love for her Oh yeah.. and calling Drusilla his muse and his love will hurt her even deeper. *sigh* Well, he really is an idiot. No one forced him to do it, leave Buffy. He choose to hurt her out of his own free will.

Angstt..but i love it..keep up the goodwork