Their encounter at the bar was so sad. I really hope she gets Doyle to drag his ass out of there despite his harsh words.

Author's Response: Giggles, well, Doyle is just the driver unfortunetely. But he may play another small part. THanks for the review sweety.

Hon, you did a great job. I loved it and I´m so angry at him. But I think it´s interesting that he knows the words he said to her in their first night even he is drunk. And I think that it is a total lie he said this to all his jobs.
And I think they have a long way before they will be happy again. But I will be a good girl and will read the next chapter.
Hugs and kisses for you.


Author's Response: Oh yeah, he's lying his ass off, but he's just trying to get rid of her by any means necessary. They do have a ways a to go, its true, but of course it may take a few more conversations to get them there. I'm glad you enjoyed it sweety, take care my friend. Hugs.

Have been enjoying the story, but your English accents in this chapter have made this Londoner wince.

Author's Response: LMAO... on this I can claim total and utter ignorance. It's rather ironic I got your review when I did b/c I was talking on the phone with Beasleysmom last night, who, lived in England for a time. I've never even been there, at least not yet. I have relatives there I need to visit, especially concerning my geneology project, but anyways... she told me that there a tons of accents within the country. I knew there were differences to be sure, but after Beasleysmom said that London is broken up by different accents, like north, south and such, I found it surprising that even other cities and country towns were slightly different as well. Here in the states, particularly NY where I grew up, everyone talks the same until you hit NYC. THere and only there do you have accents like typical city slicker New Yorkers and then the Bronx accent and so forth. So sorry about any accent thing, but I've no way of even hearing what those differences would be. GLad you enjoyed the chappy hon and thanks for the review. Smooches

*tries to read slowly*
At last Buffy is willing to do what is needed to work things out; won't be easy with Spike still having a hangover.
*grins* Loved Jenny and Giles trying to listen to the conversation; especially Giles for bringing the glass.
Mmm Spike didn't knew first that Buffy don't have a new boyfriend even if he now says it doesn't bother him.
Oh bad, he doesn't believe Buffy that she hasn't a boyfriend and that's part of why he reacts like he reacts. Well if Buffy wants him back she really has to do it, what she said: I promise I'll do whatever it takes. But Spike saying he didn't believe her must have hurt Buffy. Good though that Jenny as a plan now.
Mmm so Buffy is going to England now. Hopefully Spike is more sober when she arrives than he was before.
Good to that Jenny can see auras and know that Buffy really loves Spike; though it would be indeed better to wait to talk to Spike: if he isn't sober enough it will go wrong like it went before.
Oh Jenny visited her. I really hope Buffy won't forget Jenny's advice because if Spike is drunk he'll only lash out at her, not being in his right mind. Buffy must let that go indeed (when he hurts her with words). Buffy isn't in the right set of mind too being too tired to sleep.
Uh-huh.. Jenny warned Buffy; even being drunk Spike still knew how to hurt Buffy the most. She forgot Jenny's advice. I hope she'll remember the advice before she is gone from there and goes back to William. Even when trying to stop him to drink didn't work so good, maybe it does the second time. If not she'll have to talk to him when he's home. And sober, if he is still drunk he won't hear her out.

Author's Response: Jenny and Giles are just such a cute couple in my mind. I adore giving them cute little moments as they are quite opposite at times. Nope, at this point Spike doesn't care whether Buffy has a boyfriend or not, he's hurting and just trying to protect himself. Naturally Buffy picked the wrong time to find him so of course things were going to get ugly. They'll both have some things to think about the morning after but of course that doesn't mean things will smooth out either... at least not right away, sorry. Thanks for the review honey, I always enjoy seeing you here. Hugs you tight.

You may not like writing angst, but I tell you, that final scene between Buffy and Spike was an emotiional kick in the gut. In other words, it certainly hit the spot. It was always going to come down to this; alcohol or not, this escort thing may have brought them together, but it was - or now is - a subliminal wedge between them and, ironically, the one who is most 'put off' by its existence, is Spike. Our poor, dear William. Sensitive soul that he is, that only booze can numb the pain - but his mouth, his very spiteful mouth more than makes up for it. And parallel this with Canon, then reverse it: Spike, here, seems more than just a little in love with pain. Ain't THAT grand?

Great chapter.

Author's Response: YAY, I mean writing that last scene was tough, but I wanted the readers to 'feel' for our characters. It really was a kick in the gut but you're right, it was going to come down to this whether or not there was alcohol involed. Glad you enjoyed the chappy hon, thanks so much for the great review. Hugs.

That complete and utter bastard! I mean, yes, she hurt him just as much, but William really is a mean drunk.

You, however, are lovely for updating so soon^_^

Author's Response: ROFL, he was quite the bastard huh? I think its not so much he's a mean drunk, he's just really hurting and add alcohol to the mix and walaa... instant asshole, lol. Glad I could bring this chapter to you quickly, the muse saw fit to be cooperative. THanks for the review hon. Hugs.

Brill chapter. He's gonna have one muvva of a headache in the morning and dare I say a few regrets?
Can't wait for your next update!!!

Author's Response: Oh yeah, he'll probably even be doing the techni-color yawn too, lol. Thanks for the review hon. Smooches.

Ahhhhhhh. There's not much better than watching Buffy grovel!! *makes popcorn and settles in to read again* Although....... I did feel sorry for her there at the end. Looking forward to all the rest !!!

Author's Response: Isn't it gratifying to watch her grovel? I enjoyed writing that part, *snickers*. She deserved what she got but yeah, its hard not to feel a bit sorry for her. Thanks for the review hon, hopefully not long before I update again. Smoochies.

Remember only drunks and little children tell the truth. Actually I think he accomplished his goal of hurting her. Really don't want this story to end, I have really enjoyed reading it. Thank you for sharing.

Author's Response: THat's true, but in SPike's case, he just wanted to get rid of her. Oh yeah, he hurt her good alright but it will be a good test of Buffy's strength. Thanks for the review hon, hugs.

Wow. As much as the angstyness hurt, that was a fantastic chapter. The dialogue was really well done-- oftentimes the "cutting" lines given to characters don't really hurt, but these? Very much with the ow my heart you broke it. :( Beautifully hurtful, and damn well written! Great job, looking forward to more!

Author's Response: It was pretty painful huh? But I figured why sugar coat it? Drunk and hurting Spike is not one to be approached at this point. I'm so glad you liked this chapter... sorry for the heart break, but it will make the end that much sweeter. Hugs you tight.

Hurray for Spike! Love the end speech he gave to Buffy. That's exactly what i want him to say to her! Throw everything to her face let us see how tough she is! Coz its what Buffy have to face right now before she declares her undying love to Spike. She has to give him her total ACCEPTANCE AND TRUST! Spike is hurting so much because he knows that Buffy wont be fully able to forget what he was and whatever future relationship they will have is bound to be doomed if Buffy wont give her total trust to him! She cant just drop Spike like what she did when Harmony spread her lies to her when she meets another former client of Spike! I know how Spike feels right now. He feels disgust with himself for becoming a prostitute and worst of all falling in love with his client. Buffy's rejection made him feel and realize the folly of taking on that profession. He could never go back and the past is bound to haunt him wherever he goes and whatever he does in the future. Redemption will escape him forever unless someone will truly love him unconditionally. I hope that Buffy for once will decide on her own what to do and how to show Spike that she is really sincere this time. I hate to see her acting only again upon Anya's advice or Giles' or Jenny's proddings! Why cant she act on her own for once! And lastly, I hope that Spike will sober up! He wont be able to convince Buffy that he has gotten over her if he continues to act like a pathetic drunkard!

Author's Response: ROFL. I just knew this chapter would tickle you pink. I think anything less that what I wrote just wouldn't cut the mustard either. It was dumb of her to go out and find him like that, with her being so tired and him drunk... but that's them for ya. It's not to say he won't regret what he said (if he remembers it, lol), but yeah, him lashing out like that is a good test of her will. Buffy will have to grin and bare it if she really wants him back. You hit the nail on the head when you mentioned that his past could potentially always haunt him. THat is also something Buffy has to think about as well. I can't say too much more here without giving away any spoilers, all I can say is that your perception of things is clear. Thanks a bunch for the review darling. Huggles.

I got all teary! God, I'm feeling for them both. Granted, I'm leaning more towards Buffy right now, but that's because it's Spike who's lashing out right now. But he's lashing out because he's in pain. I get that. Doesn't make me want to knock him over the head any less, lol!

Really good chapter. If I wasn't so darn tired, I'd review more.

I'm so glad you're feeling better. =) I get to move in less than a month. wheee........

Author's Response: It was a tough chapter to be sure. Even with everything Buffy has put him through, it is hard not to feel a bit sorry for her. But of course drunk Spike is never of the good when dealing with... giggles over your comment of knocking him on the head. My heart goes out to you on the moving thing sweety, its no easy task. Good luck with it and thanks for the great review. Smoochies.

Wow talk about dark, he was positively vicious, I can't wait for the rest, I don't suppose you have the next chapter ready ? maybe? can we have it tomorrow? Please? Sorry ,no pressure ,I'm just greedy especially when a fic is this good.

Author's Response: Yup, little bit vicious - bad drunken Spike and bad Buffy for picking such a time to try and find him. Sadly I don't have the next chapter ready, but I am working on it, I promise. Thanks for the lovely review sweety. Huggles.