

Date: 09/01/2007 - 04:09 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Four
Looking forward to all hell breaking loose!!!!
More please more more more!!!!!
Author's Response: More soon, I promise. Thanks for the review! :-)

Date: 09/01/2007 - 02:22 am Title: Chapter Forty-Four
Brilliant update. I can't wait to read more!!!*
Author's Response: Thanks so much! I'm glad you liked it. :-)

Date: 08/31/2007 - 10:41 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Four
Angel is always there to twist the dagger in my vamp boys unbeating heart.
Really a deep down juicy chapter though I just did not want it to end please more when you have a chance I love seeing what they do next.
Author's Response: I'm glad you enjoyed it. Thank you! :-)

Date: 08/31/2007 - 08:50 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Four
Man og man Spikes taken a lot of hits lately please dont let Angel be another one I was cheering as Spike was angry and jealous and heading to her house.please God don't let him walk away please let something happen
I'm pulling for Spike!
Author's Response: Spike is really taking it on the chin, isn't he? Luckily, he's a survivor ... a very hurt, confused, and battered one. But he is a survivor. Thanks for the review! :-)

Date: 08/31/2007 - 08:44 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Four
Awkwardness is right I wonder how much of what went on Buffy will tell anybody I kinda want her to confide in Dawnie just because she's so put off by her friends right now and Dawn would be the most understanding. Willow and Tara need to move out and Buffy needs to take back her life and her Vampire hee hee!
Just love reading this and have to ask for seconds and thirds!
Author's Response: Seconds coming very soon, I promise. Thanks for the review! :-)

Date: 08/31/2007 - 08:38 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Four
I'm so glad Buffy told Angel she was the gitl he attacked in the past. I think it's great shes not looking at him with blinfers on and I have hope for Spike. I want Buffy to see him and see he is hurt I wanna see her react to pull her out of this gloom.
This so made my weekend love your writing :D
Author's Response: It's absolutely great to know that you do. Thank you! :-)

Date: 08/31/2007 - 07:09 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Four
Oh how mean you cannot just end there lol I an hanging by a thread waiting for buffy to turn around.
More please and fast!
Author's Response: lol. I am mean, aren't I? But I'm working on an update now. Thanks for the review! :-)

Date: 08/31/2007 - 07:00 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Four
"Spike’s expression was one of such raw emotion that it left his grandsire in absolutely no doubt of what he was feeling.
His arms tightened around Buffy’s shoulders possessively, and as he continued to stare at the younger vampire, his lips quivered in what might have been the shadow of a smile."
Ok I wanna punch Angel but I see where he is necessary in order for Buffy and Spike to move forward but I still wanna punch him just for being there.
I was so excited and dare I say giddy to see a new page of this and now I'm wanting so much more!
Author's Response: lol. Judging from my other reviews, I think everyone is wanting to punch Angel right now. I can't say I blame you guys. Thanks for the review! :-)

Date: 08/31/2007 - 06:56 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Four
No no no no no don't end it there please!!!
I need more!
Author's Response: More is coming soon, I promise. Thanks for the review. :-D

Date: 08/31/2007 - 05:39 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Four
Buffy strprise me and stand up for Spike!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!
Need more!!!
Author's Response: More soon. I promise. Thanks for reviewing! :-)

Date: 08/31/2007 - 05:32 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Four
I love Buffy is sort of in mourning for William I am just hoping she can still see the human sides in Spike if anything it was his loss of losing her that made him into the way he is now vs him becoming a vampire. The sad thing is here is in losing the woman he loved made him more into a monster then turning ever could.
I loved the inner struggle Spike is going through at the beginning of this and how he's trying to see it from all sides with the little bit of information he gets from Dawn. I'm sorry but I about cheered with someone finally in a fiction showing/confronting Willow about her just moving in and taking over, I am dying to see when Buffy finds out about the household accounts and Willow and Tara being there rent free and not putting anything into the household. And I suspect Dawn may have a inkling as to maybe Buffy being back in Spikes timeline given to what she has seen as his reactions to all of this. As much as Dawn wants some answers Spike is also looking for someone to convince him Buffy didn't leave him on her own and that their love in his past life was real. And I believe Spike would see Willow sold into a slave trade before he's ever let Buffy sell off his bracelet to her. It seems like Willow caused a lot of damage sending Buffy off back in time but was sitting pretty up at Buffy's place that maybe someday she might return to, seems to me Willow got more ahead in all of this while Buffy suffered. I wonder how that will be handled. I would be bothered too by a friend just moving into my mothers room I mean she's barely gotten past losing her mother.
I loved Spikes reaction to hearing about Angel being called because it's exactly how I saw it happening in my head. As well as Buffy inner turmoil in fighting herself in her own feelings and reactions to Spike and how she is fighting herself to not see him as the man she knew and loved. She is standing loyal to her love to William so it all fits exactly on what a girl would be feeling given all that has gone on. And I thought it rather sweet her picking apart her current appearance and in her head Williams voice telling her she was beautiful without things.
Betrayal is the perfect word here in how Spike would feel with someone he cared for at all in connection to do with Angel. I thought it was fantastic you had Spike feel like he was cheating on Elizabeth with his feelings for Buffy. And Buffy not being fooled by Angel and seeing thru him is at least hopeful. I felt so badly for Spike leaving one battle beat up and bloodied and then coming face to face with Angel. And being Angel and who he is you just know he's going to go after Spike for spite.
How can Buffy get past Angel trying to rape her in a ally but Spike being turned makes him no longer her William?
If Spike learns Angel was the one who attacked her in the at street that night he was out of town will there be hell to pay?
Author's Response: **** How can Buffy get past Angel trying to rape her in a ally but Spike being turned makes him no longer her William? ****
Poor Buffy. It's easier for her to believe that vampires are merely demons inhabiting dead bodies, and that they have nothing in common with their former selves. Otherwise, she would have to admit that Angel (her erstwhile lover) is the same creature who killed her Watcher's girlfriend and tried to rape her in London. She would also have to admit that William - *her* William, her ideal love - became a murderer. That can't be easy for her. Whether she will be able to face the harsh truth ... well, that remains to be seen. Thanks for reviewing! :-)

Date: 08/31/2007 - 04:19 pm Title: Chapter Forty-Four
Still Dawn has a point (clinging to the bracelet). I hope she can convince Spike a bit. ~ Uh-huh... if you see it this way it's just not right: Moving in into your friends house and using her money while she is gone to pay the bills. Maybe for house but for also for the costs of living their. That's what the rent could have been used for that she is saving because she moved in.
Sure, William is not Spike. Before Buffy went into the past she didn't know William but fell in love with him. it's almost as if she blames Spike that William is gone. ~ Buffy's thoughts go in the same direction as Dawn's, wondering why Willow is there. And it sounds as if the first answer was honest: She simply too the biggest bedroom. ~ What a pity Tom slowed Spike down. I didn't expect (but I should have knows better) Buffy would separate Angel and Angelus as if it were two persons. And now not only Angel has the wrong impression she was abused because she lived there when Buffy meant to go away; Spike arrived at the wrong time. I could kick Angel right now for being so possessive about Buffy when she didn't even notice yet that Spike was there especially when noticing how Spike felt. ~ Looking forward to more because I don't know what will happen next.
Author's Response: *** it's almost as if she blames Spike that William is gone ***
Precisely! Thanks for the review. :-)

Date: 08/31/2007 - 11:42 am Title: Chapter Forty-Four
aaagh! you are evil!!! I want to know what happens between Buffy and Spike with no stupid Willow or Angel any where near them!!!
Love this muchly!!
Author's Response: I am very evil, aren't I? lol. But I'm glad you're enjoying the story regardless. Thanks for the review! :-)

Date: 08/31/2007 - 11:32 am Title: Chapter Forty-Four
What a heart wrenching chapter. Buffy's sorrow and brittleness at the unfairness of being back came off the page in waves. I love that she's being short with Willow, angry at her proprietary attitude over the house Willow is also responsible for wresting Buffy's happiness away, she needs to be taken to task. I certainly hope there will be some words to that effect in the future.
Spike's anxiety and confusion were also palpable. He's got so many warring emotions - anger, jealousy, love, betrayal, sorrow - it's a wonder he hasn't gone mad. Coming upon Buffy and Angel at just the wrong moment may be the last straw. At least he missed Buffy's assertion that the place she'd been had been "terrible." That would have completely shattered Spike's heart.
Betrayal seems the overriding emotion in this chapter. There's no way Spike coming upon that tender scene could be seen any other way. This is so deliciously painful, it's difficult to read. In a good way!
This was an emotionally devastating, tight chapter. There were several wonderful turns of phrase, but this really sang:
"Again, when she entered the bathroom, she was struck by how bright it was, how ominously cheerful, like the smile of a friend who was about to stab her in the back." Buffy's sense of betrayal is so close to the surface, she's even thinking of the bathroom in those terms..
Thank you for another wonderful chapter.
Author's Response: Thank you so much! Spike is such a wonderful character in that he feels everything so deeply; it makes exploring his character in my writing that much more interesting I'm glad to hear that I'm doing him justice. :-)

Date: 08/31/2007 - 11:17 am Title: Chapter Forty-Four
That was an absolutely wonderful chapter. The emotions of your characters are so strong and real. I'm so excited to read more. You are awesome!
Author's Response: Thank you so much! :-D

Date: 08/31/2007 - 10:46 am Title: Chapter Forty-Four
Spectacular chapter. You have me quivering with rage at that shadow of a smile.
Author's Response: I don't think you're alone in the rage. A line seems to be forming to beat up Angel, lol. Thanks for the review! :-)

Date: 08/31/2007 - 10:31 am Title: Chapter Forty-Four
Well that was a surprise. I didn't think she'd be so happy to see Angel. Oh well, the story is still great. Poor Spike he always get's a raw deal.
Looking forward to updates.
Author's Response: Thanks so much for the review. I'm glad you liked it. :-)

Date: 08/31/2007 - 08:12 am Title: Chapter Forty-Four
If I were Angel I would be shaking in my boots right now with this fake persona he pretends to be to Buffy and well everyone in this storyline. Like Spike said you know exactly what you were doing and did it anyways dispite being a vampire he did it because he wanted to. I always hate how they make it seem the soul is the only control a vampire has. You really call it into question in this and give people something to think about and that really cool.
Author's Response: Thank you! I'm glad you're enjoying the story. :-)

Date: 08/31/2007 - 08:09 am Title: Chapter Forty-Four
Two of my favorite stories posted on the same day I feel really spoiled here but am loving being spoiled lmao.
Dawn is so good in this story and her friendship with Spike is perfect. And her telling Spike of the money situation and about Willow
I liked Buffy going thru her closer and choosing to put on total void of fashion wear cause that is exactly whaat a girl does. Please Buffy see Spike all beat up and react to him as if he is still your William and go to him. Never mind Angel or whatever his butts doing there just see William in Spike right now he needs you to see *him*
Author's Response: You're so right. He's aching for her to see him as the same man as before, if only as a version that's been damaged by his experiences with the world. Thanks for the review. :-)

Date: 08/31/2007 - 08:04 am Title: Chapter Forty-Four
Yes!!! Someone finally addresses Willow like she has crossed a few lines. I mean you send your friend off to god knows where and then just step into her life? I would be mad and be like go home too.
Angels not fooling anybody here I just hope Spikes not at such a low point as to be hurt by anything Angel might say because Spike always see thru him and it looks like Buffy now is able to too. You cant just say Oh that wasn't you and believe it completely.
Love love love love loving this!
Author's Response: I'm so glad that you are. Thanks for reading and reviewing! :-)

Date: 08/31/2007 - 08:00 am Title: Chapter Forty-Four
she knew he was lying..............
She seems to know Angel is not the vision she used to have of him I hope she remembers that when she notices Spike standing there.
So much pain Spike has going on right now I hope she gives him something to hold on to as a sign of hope.
Excellent update I was hanging on every word.
Author's Response: To tell you the truth, "she knew he was lying" was more a reference to his telling her that it would be okay than any suspicions about his being the same person as Angelus. Maybe I didn't write that in a way it would be clear, though. If so, I'm really sorry. But it will be addressed in more detail in the next chapter. Thank you very much for taking the time to review. I'm glad you're enjoying the story. :-)

Date: 08/31/2007 - 07:56 am Title: Chapter Forty-Four
Angry jealous and really battered and he still comes and then to find Angel there comforting her. I say Spike do your snarkyest worst. But then if he does Buffy will think he's exactly what she thought he was a complete monster and nothing of her William left.
Oh this has so taken over my morning I have read it three times now.
More soon please!
Author's Response: Wow, it's great that you think the chapter was worth a second and third read. Thank you for letting me know! :-)

Date: 08/31/2007 - 07:53 am Title: Chapter Forty-Four
::::::Throws my sausage muffin at Angels head::::::
This just gets better and better and I have the sneaky feeling Angel might put 2 and 2 together on this. I loved Buffy putting Willow in her place a bit cannot wait till she hears about the money and Willow nor Tara working just spinging off her mothers money.
Author's Response: Angel is definitely not dumb, whatever else he may be, so you could be right. Thanks so much for the review. :-)

Date: 08/31/2007 - 04:53 am Title: Chapter Forty-Four
OH I hate Angel right now, and come on her last memory was him trying to kill her in the past. I hope she stands up for Spike, cause Angel just figured out who Spikes Elizabeth is.
Author's Response: Thanks for the review. :-)

Date: 08/31/2007 - 04:40 am Title: Chapter Forty-Four
You are taking us down some tricky road and you are being very true to character! Buffy in canon would not see Angel to be the same as Angelus and Spike as a monster. I really like where you are going with this, thank you soooo much for the update.
Author's Response: It's great to know you think I'm being realistic to the characters. Thanks so much for taking the time to review. :-)