

Date: 08/25/2006 - 11:50 pm Title: Chapter Fifty
*Deep inhale, exhale*) That chapter feels like a ton of bricks have been lifted off everything. Glad that Spike told Buffy how drastic & desperate his immediate reaction was to HER DECISION about their relationship. I believe it's something she needed to hear. Hopefully, they can start rebuilding their relationship, if not now, then soon.

Date: 08/25/2006 - 02:52 pm Title: Chapter Fifty
Wow, poor Spike. Lots to get over losing his love. Breaks me up all over again. And that conversation she had with Robin, well that didnt quite seem like the whole truth either. Can't wait to see where either of Buffy's "relationships" goes. Another marvelous chapter.

Date: 08/25/2006 - 09:19 am Title: Chapter Fifty
GODDAMNITT!!!!!! WHY CANT THEY SEE THEYRE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER!!!!! i love this story so much and am so happy u updated. i cant believe that spike almost killed himself and that he said hes learned to live without her. i just wish that they would admit that they still have major feelings for each other and try to work it out between them. i really hope that buffy and robin dont get to serious and that spike and eve break up soon. please udate as soon as u can, i cant wait to read more and see wat happens next. thanx

Date: 08/25/2006 - 09:14 am Title: Chapter Fifty
Goes plotting with slinkyPK *gg* Sorry but I thought it was fun :) This time I wasn't ready to write all down so I don't know how long this one will get because the chapters still hurt / makes sad and therefore, because the move so much, my comments seem to get longer ;-)
Okay I was wrong.. Buffy did indeed invite Robin before she knew that Spike would be there. I thought Dawn did tell her before. Yeah I know.. if it had been for me Buffy and Spike would be together by now, madly in love. If it wasn’t so hard to read till it is finished / better aka Spuffy again, it’s better to have longer stories.. if I had my will it would be finished, right? :p Yeah, right.
Wood was sensitive. He noticed Buffy behavior and he asked her, and Buffy an-swered. What I did notice: HE didn’t freak out because Buffy was ‘dating’ Spike who is her ‘stepsibling’. I wonder if it will get so bad like Buffy feared and broke up. He (Wood) doesn’t want to get hurt by Buffy, with her being in love with someone else. But isn’t he right on his way to it? Being hurt? Wood wasn’t grossed out about the step thing. Maybe (hopefully) Buffy will see now that she acted overhasty. *points to not all puppies and rainbows*
What I don’t understand: Buffy said she ‘dated Spike’ for a year. Maybe it’s me missing a definition but she is dating Wood now. Buffy was (is still hopefully, yet to stubborn to acknowledge it) in love with Spike, she was living with him, Spike wanted to marry her ~ I think / I would it call more than ‘dating’. Maybe Buffy is still in denial or she doesn’t tell Wood deliberately. Whatever it is… I don’t like Buffy still dating him, it’s so sad. (See above and ignore me. I now that his name is Robin but I stick with calling him Wood.) like…
Wood: “I don't want to try to start something here with your heart belong-ing to someone else.” Buffy: “Spike and I are as over as two people can be.” and “I didn't want to run back into his arms”
Yeah.. therefore Buffy is crying her eyes out at the end of the chapter.
If I read it right Buffy hasn’t slept with Wood yet. And if she finds his kisses good but not mind-blowing like Spike’s she should think about it more than twice. Be-cause she’ll have to live with second best for the rest of her life. A thing I would hate. It’s time to wake up for Buffy, come out of denial.
This was unexpected but welcome: Spike called. Apparently Spike thought a lot of Buffy this day. I wonder since when he has the phone number (oh it wasn’t a cell phone so he should have it from Dawn, must be her number too).
Oh my.. Buffy wanted to avoid to kill Spike’s career and almost was the reason that Spike killed himself with drugs and alcohol. Oh my indeed. So fame hasn’t 's been all puppies and rainbows for Spike and almost killed him. I’m glad he was able to tell it Buffy. Does Eve know? It’s good to hear that he doesn’t drink to deal with his problems and isn’t taking drugs, but when he said that he learned to live without Buffy it makes me sad. *sigh*
And even more the reminder that Eve is there in his home, probably right in his bed. Why should she be at another place than his bed, in a guestroom? Yeah.. :(
And know he is going back to her. Eve was not the first of his lovers after Buffy but the longest one. I must stop now it makes me to sad to think through it fur-ther.
I wonder if Spike noticed that Buffy cried at the phone.
She was devastated after the phone call. I don’t know what hurt her the most: Spike telling he stopped loving her, Spike going back to sleep with Eve now, Spike not so worried then she was about the ‘step’ thing so maybe her sacrifice was totally for nothing, only hurting them both.
As far as I see it it’s time now for Buffy to come back out of denial, grow up a bit, not to hurt Wood too and start fighting for Spike. Why take second best? If he wants her back… He is not telling if he loves her. The contrary. The way Buffy acts you see that she still loves him but I can’t see yet if Spike does. I only no-ticed that Spike phoned Buffy so Eve didn’t hear it. But you could argue that he didn’t want Eve to be hurt and speak with Buffy without interruptions.
Clings to her mantra *Addie will make it alright and Dawn’s remark: I don't think he loves her. Not really anyway* … very hard. And it got long again, huh? I had to mix what I wrote yesterday evening with the one I wrote this morning and this afternoon. I hope it makes sense. Maybe parts are double, sorry about that. More on Tuesday, right? I’m looking forward to it. In a way I’m addicted to the story like crack lol. A good chapter, Addie, it got me rambling again. :-D

Date: 08/25/2006 - 08:01 am Title: Chapter Fifty
Still hate Eve and hope Spike and Buffy get their act together soon.

Date: 08/25/2006 - 07:52 am Title: Chapter Fifty
I really hope they work it out. This is too sad.

Date: 08/25/2006 - 07:08 am Title: Chapter Fifty
Well, this was quite a surprising phone call in the middle of the night... I noticed that he called her pet and luv again... He had my sympathy when he told her about his time after the break-up. Hope the small steps they are making will go on and end with a satisfying end for both of them.
Furthermore, I'd like to agree to one of your reviewers: Please, try to hurt Robin not more than necessary. You indeed picture him really cute. But I think he already guesses that the way to Buffy's heart will be stony or even unreachable.
Good chapter, thanks for your kind words at the end of it. :)

Date: 08/25/2006 - 06:35 am Title: Chapter Fifty
Brilliant...you actually made me cry with that one!

Date: 08/25/2006 - 02:02 am Title: Chapter Fifty
Yay for more Spuffy interaction, even if it is over the phone. I think it's great that they're getting the chance to talk some stuff out, and I'm glad we got a glimpse at what Spike's life post-Buffy had been. And I can feel myself starting to feel even more sorry for Robin. Obviously, he's never going to be *it* for Buffy, but he's a sweet guy.
And so Spike has learned that he is capable of living without Buffy, but he seems a little miserable doing so. Here's hoping that Eve is soon nothing but a faint memory...
Nice work as always!

Date: 08/25/2006 - 01:39 am Title: Chapter Fifty
That was a fabulous 2 a.m. phone call-- Poor Buffy. Such a horrible feeling to still love someone and see them again. Logically, you want them to be happy with someone else, but it feels like your insides are being put through a cheese grater! You are doing such a great job of portraying the aftermath. To quote the Buffyverse, "Where do we go from here?" I wonder who is going to make the first move toward reconciliation. Wonder if Joyce or Giles will whisper words of wisdom in their kids' ears, or if it will be Dawn who brings them together.

Date: 08/24/2006 - 11:24 pm Title: Chapter Fifty
**is plotting an accident for Eve and hauling a barrowful of harmful-if-swallowed chemicals, sharp sharp objects, banna peels and wire cutters towards Spike's shed** Hey, maybe I should drop these off at Buffy's instead...**turns barrow around and reaches for car keys**

Date: 08/24/2006 - 11:22 pm Title: Chapter Fifty
He is making it so hard on Buffy. What is she going to do? You know that the phone call was the first of many. What is Spike thinking? We need something from his POV, maybe? It was a great chapter!

Date: 08/24/2006 - 10:21 pm Title: Chapter Fifty
Intense! I am racking my brain trying to think of exactly WHY Buffy even deserves this wonderful guy? She is so "Cleopatra" ... Queen of Denial. (But she's a heck of a lot better than Eve) She needs to crawl over broken glass through lemon juice ... beg his forgiveness and swear her everlasting and undying love for him after 3 years of proving it. (Am I getting carried away ---- I think YES)
I am so hoping for a romantic and happy ending here where B really appreciates Spike and they make up for all of the hurt. (But that's going to take like 137 more chapters ... arrarr) Hey, you can do it, you are the master!

Date: 08/24/2006 - 10:00 pm Title: Chapter Fifty
Excellent. Now fine tune those puppies (the 5 chaps) and post em right quick! I'm so certain they are going to get together again, but I'm on the edge of my seat here! A job well done on your part! I'm salivating for the next chap... and the next one.... and the next one.....

Date: 08/24/2006 - 09:30 pm Title: Chapter Fifty
You don't know how good it is too hear you getting excited about this story. I am so in love with this story. Of course you just broke my heart a little with this chapter. ; )

Date: 08/24/2006 - 09:24 pm Title: Chapter Fifty
About time she got to know the full extent of his pain. She always just assumed he'd be relatively okay.
I still don't like Buffy. She's a coward. She's too concerned with what other people might think of her. She's self-centered and thinks she has the right to play with other people's lives, "for their own good". God, I hate that phrase.....Anyway, so far, I still don't think she's the best girl for Spike. Not rooting for Eve, either. It would be a girl that's still out there, and really right for where he is now.

Date: 08/24/2006 - 09:11 pm Title: Chapter Fifty
I only have one request for this story...please don't make the thing with Robin end very cruel on his behalf..you make him sound so nice and caring in the story and it would suck if you just had something to hurt him,if any of that made sense!!!! :P UD SOON

Date: 08/24/2006 - 09:06 pm Title: Chapter Fifty
Wow....I figured that may have happened to Spike. It was kinda mean of him to tell her all about it but he had to do it and she had to know...I'm not sure why but I'm really not liking Spike too much at the moment in this fic....I'm almost starting to like Robin some. Not sure who'll she'll end up with or how I'll feel but I can't wait to find out! You just keep me wanting more and more! Update soon please!

Date: 08/24/2006 - 08:37 pm Title: Chapter Fifty
Yes, Eve is a bitch. But, I don't see how anyone can fault Spike for dating her. Buffy is the one who left him without telling him why, or working through it. In his conversation with her , he explained what all happened to him after the breakup. He ODed and almost died. Was he supposed to wait around for her forever. Yes, it's too bad they both were (are) in so much pain, but the majority is Buffy's stubborness to tell him the truth. He told her he'd do something else if the scandal ruined his career. Rambling. Very good update and thank you so much.

Date: 08/24/2006 - 08:30 pm Title: Chapter Fifty
I still see the light at the end of the tunnel, but this chapter was tissue worthy. Bravo for not writing it as a qick fix, fall back into your lovers arms type deal. I still am looking forward to the make up, and I hope it is soon. Great job sweety. Your style of writing is wonderful, don't worry what others think, or what they want to read, you're doing a wonderful job at weaving a good story.

Date: 08/24/2006 - 07:58 pm Title: Chapter Fifty
awwh, it's so sad! poor buffy thinks he doesn't love her anymore...
update soon!

Date: 08/24/2006 - 07:57 pm Title: Chapter Fifty
GLAD TO SEE THE UPDATE, AND TO HEAR ABOUT THE NEW CHAPTERS. I'M SURE I DON'T NEED TO TELL YOU THAT YOU'RE RIPPING MY HEART OUT. YOU WRITE SUCH GOOD ANGST.

Date: 08/24/2006 - 07:47 pm Title: Chapter Fifty
Really love this fic. The angst of them being apart is killing me :)
Looking forward to future chapters. Can't wait to see how they get back together and if there is a big blow out between Spike and Travers. Ooooh and more cattyness between Eve and Buffy.

Date: 08/24/2006 - 07:29 pm Title: Chapter Fifty
cant wait for the rest...

Date: 08/24/2006 - 07:29 pm Title: Chapter Fifty
addie that was amaizing heart renching but amaizing so i have oen question will they ever stop being so stuborn? looking forward to the next chapter
P.S. i was kidding about the stuborn part you know what they say about true love it is not worth it if it comes easiy