Road to Redemption…to your left and 5 miles ahead. Oh thank god. They’re not on that road yet but I feel it’s around the bend. I want so bad to forgive Spike I really do (he seems a pathetic mess of gooey feelings this round), but I think he deserves everything he’s getting from Buffy. And I hope she dishes out just a little bit more. Spike needs to ‘come full circle’ emotionally/mentally with himself as a man, his past and figure out exactly what it is he wants for himself. Until some form of inner-healing goes on, I don’t see him as capable of loving Buffy properly, nor should he try. Not to sound to cliché, but you can’t know where you’re going till you understand where you’ve been, poor Spike has just been existing, till Buffy came along and opened his eyes.

What is very disturbing is when Spike agrees to Angelus’ request of Buffy being the prize of the fight that has to take place between them for Spike’s breaking rules. Ok, first, I understand exactly why Spike acts the way he does, he has to no matter how he feels on the inside b/c this is Angelus he’s dealing w/. But, #1, this is soooooooooo gonna piss Buffy off, not the way to make her feel like she isn’t some toy (he better tell her about this BEFORE the fight goes down). #2 Maybe Spike’s not worried about winning this fight, but I am. What the hell is Buffy gonna do if Angelus does win, there’s no way she’s coming out of this one unscathed.

Buffy is really learning how to talk the talk/walk the walk when it comes to survival and her interactions w/ others. However she’s a sloppy liar (dropping crumbs every where for Spike…the crumbsnatcher), her behavior and words totally betray her feelings. Yeah right, she’s reeeeeeeeeeeal happy that he’s finally leaving her alone. Can’t have your cake and eat it too Buffy. Ohhh loooooooook , there goes another crumb on the floor.

Oh, and I totally think Cordy is one of the good guys. I agree w/ one of the other reviewers, that Cordy’s eyes are everywhere, BUT, I think she really SEES things for what they are. Still wondering though, where’s Cordy’s little boyfriend is lately? I didn’t forget about Buffy seeing her and Doyle all ‘couply-like’. Got the funny feeling the 4 of them are going to have quite a lot in common when it get’s down to the nitty-gritty. Possibly even relying on each other.

I’m truly curious to find out why Spike was even allowed to join the gang in the first place. Have a funny feeling Dru’s directly responsible (I’m thinking there’s some agreement or what not between D & A, b/c I don’t feel A would have bothered w/ Spike otherwise) but that his ‘initiation’, if you will, is something very dark and disturbing indeed. Angelus’ taste for the perverse having a good hand in it. Your line, “He’ll never be anything but my dark prince, even if he refuses to play by the rules” was not lost on me, or maybe I’m reading way too much into it.

Love this chapter, chock full of raw emotions and hints in every corner. I have learned my lesson though, I won’t assume anything, I’ll just patiently wait for the next chappy.

Thank you so much for supplying us w/ a way to receive email notification for updates. Every time I come to this website I automatically search to see if you’ve updated B4 doing anything else. Now I don’t have to, Brilliant!!!


Author's Response: I like your points, and yes, there will definitely be a scene where Spike tells Buffy what's going down. Lol, crumbsnatcher had a good chapter, didn't he? And it would be interesting to hear what people assumed, lol. Thanks for the long and lovely review!

Morning :) Cool new way to start the day in a Pj way.
(He thought of 450 ways he would eventually kill Angelus as he rushed to Buffy’s room) I really love how he runs when he fears for her I had a fangirl squee moment there and can Angel or Dru be anymore gross. Great post as usual Im dying for your updates. :)

Author's Response: Yay, I hope to give a few squee moments whenever possible! Thanks for the review!

Just when I think you cant surptize me anymore you throw us a whole new level. Fantastic update Comfort is my newesy fav of yours. Please add more soon. I liked how you ended it here with Spike saying the things he did.


Author's Response: Aw, you even know the title of the chapter, lol. Thanks!

I got a text message there was a update and ran home to read it and omg it was worth it I love how you ended the bottom of the page he seems to be trying so hard to fix things. It is so cool he's changing back into the man he once was for her and he does not even seem to know she is the kind of woman and life he wants. Much praise and a standing ovation on this my girl friends all dish on your work.*Please* have pity on us were hoping for a PJ sweeps week jejejejejej



Author's Response: Ok you seriously made me break into a wide grin. I hope you aren't serious with the running home thing, but that is too sweet for words! Also, it makes me happy to know there are more ppl out there reading it, even if you are the one mentioning them, lol. Tell them thanks too!

Oh, please, you must write another chapter soon???!!? This has me on the edge of my chair :)

Author's Response: I'll try, but school and work are so demanding. Stupid real life things! lol. Thanks for the review!

I find it interesting she doesn't like it when Spike ignores her and she's trying to figure out all that went on with Drusilla. Makes total sense her jumping to the conclusion he's just using her to pass the time with till he gets back with Dru. Also I dig that Buffy loses her concentration to Darla in the process. All is not what it seem with Buffy and her feelings towards him. She is sorta like a angry cat striking out at all that try to interact with her but hey you can't trust anyone so I get her reasoning's it's great how you unfold her reactions little by little in this cause she's had so much to process along with her hurt as well.

Ok Darla being the big ho can I just say I soooooo love that I had a great laugh over that and Cordy ripping on her as well.

Not many people write out Drusilla well and I think you did good with her in this.And I love the fact Drusilla and Buffy were about equal in their fight it shows she doesn't have to take Dru's crap much longer. God Angelus in this makes me even wanna take a shower and I'm only reading the fic here I think your doing outstanding here in this for he is such a puke when evil. I think Buffy played off of Angel well exuding her hate towards Spike I don't think Angelus is concerned that Buffy would ever have any emotion other then hate for Spike.

I think Cordy likes Spike with Buffy and she sees they could be good together in some ways. I think possible Cordy likes Spike less evil like when he's with Buffy after her whole torture -fest from Angelus.

I was amused at Spike and Buffy's couple like fighting at her door. I think Buffy is justified in questioning Spikes new behavior to her and calling him on it. I was reading that and thought screaming in my head
"How does she know it's a act! You bag-o-bleach head! Tell the girl!"
Then her complete and total indifference to him rocked! I was like "That's right get lost you jerk!" heheheheh. He just keeps trying to sooth her over in words or things that might have worked on the likes of Harm but sooooo do not work on her. Heck I just enjoy her making him work so hard to try to comfort or please her and see how long it takes him to notice this are slightly amiss with her.

This line I liked “Leave!” Her voice was filled with both anger and a pleading quality.

I'm not sure what she is more confused with her anger or herself for wanting him to comfort her. It's like she won't let him show her any other side of himself to her like as long as she can keep him as a monster in her mind she can deal or something like if she holds on to him just using her for sex then she doesn't have to face her having any other feeling for him. As for Spike's part I think the only way he can show any affections is thru sex cause he's had to shut himself so far off from the world he used to live in.

I could go on and on hehehe*
It's weird cause when I read this fic I start looking at them like real people vs it just being a bit of fiction and that is the coolest thing about reading your work you forget it's a story it's so visual in the way you deliver it and suddenly you find yourself in the plot.

Once again outstanding work and much praise on this I think I love your long updates the best!~







Author's Response: I left your response for last because it's the longest, lol. You always give me nice long ones :D The angry cat analogy is pretty good! And I haaaate writing Drusilla because there's just something about her crazy lines and ways that sounds so stupid when you make it up on paper. Only things that sound right are what she already said on the show, lol. The observation about his Harm-like tactics is pretty great too, and YES! The monster point is what I was trying to say/hint at. Thank goodness it was not lost in my confusing words :P I'm glad that the characters seem to come to life for you! You like the long updates? I think you like the feelings chapters ;) Thanks!!

Yeah, I have to say I get pretty giddy when I see an update to this story. I love how Spike is playing cool with Angelus. Very concerned about a fight (between Spike and Angelus?). Also concerned about what Spike is going to do about Amy. He's got to let her go eventually, right? Rack is gonna be pissed with Spike for taking her. What if he kidnaps Buffy in retaliation? I have a feeling he won't pretend to rape her. :( Loved the update!

Author's Response: I get giddy when I see people still reading, so it's ok :) Plead the fifth on the other stuff, lol. Thanks for the review!

Oh hell yes!!!
Another Spike and Angel fight bring it on!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Author's Response: Ok! Lol. Thanks for reviewing!

great update!

Author's Response: Thanks!

BRILLIANT CHAPTER! I loved it. I really love how Spike has changed, i've loved his progression throughout the story. Please update soon!!!!!!! When Spike said "You dont have to" did he mean that he's gonna help Buffy escape?????? I hope so!

OOOH i can't wait till the next chapter!!!!

Author's Response: Lol, escape? Soon? I will have to spoil you and say no. Did I mention this fic is long? *runs but not before saying thanks*

I love where the story is going. Can't wait to read more.

Author's Response: Thank you!

Oh, two steps back, and maybe then three steps forward.........could be through the comfort they might get through all the bull and find there is something they can make work together to help them both out of this hell they've been dragged into.......

Author's Response: Good steps analogy ;) Thanks!