Buffy is pissing me off to no end. She making all the decisions- just like everyone always did for her on the series. Just what does she want to make her happy- for Spike to say, 'gee you're right- I was just grateful and now I'm with someone else???'

Author's Response: She doesn't want to hold him back from his path of self discovery. She was trying to control him much more before when she got bent out of shape when he started changing. She kept asking why he couldn't change with her by his side b/c they did all the major things together. She's since realized that he's right about doing it without her help, but he still claims to have done it for her and b/c of her. Buffy doesn't want it that way. SHe wants it to be for him, not for her. I know it sounds weird, but she is trying not to be selfish. She really feels that she is doing right for him.