Part 9... I think that is the part where it gets worse before it gets better *reads on* Mmmm Buffy is Spike's dirty little secret.. I wonder why Buffy didn't say something to Spike about his behavior. And then he comes less around and then he vanishes? That's not normal. Oh yeah, that is the bad chapter. Spike is back with Dru. How could he do this to Buffy? (Did he thought she wouldn't notice?) Maybe... It's heartbreaking. I see, he did it because he believed Dru that she stopped the drugs and would start again if he wouldn't take her back. All to make her (Dru) see that he didn't belong to her any longer? Bad plan that backfired terribly. He did hurt Buffy very deep. ~ Wow.. Spike told Buffy now he loved her (and had always loved her). And again.. after Buffy told him that she has to go back to work but is not leaving Spike thinks she'll leave him. Oh my... ~ Buffy is stronger than him. *sigh* And I think she always was stronger. Back then too when he hurt her so much.

Author's Response: Thank you, cordy. I know this chapter is the toughest to read, but I promise, stick to the end and it will be okay. :) And yes, Buffy is the strong one in this story- but Spike is about to find what he needs. Thank you for all the lovely comments you left me, hon. I have been away from here for too long! ::hugs::