Buffy is on the right way now; for herself :)

As I wrote in my review for an earlier chapter, I agree with you, Brat. I believe that it is Spike's own fault that he ended up as the target for Buffy's anger. He denied her the possibility to directly confront Angel and Winifred. It should have been her choice to try and stop them and demand an explaination or not. However, she would have been able to scream her anger at them. Spike took that away from her. Now she feels that other people run her life while she is helplessly standing by. Perhaps Angel would have left anyway. But there's also the possibility that he'd chickened out and stayed because he felt guilty. Who knows... Was it for the best, that their marriage broke apart? Maybe... But it was NOT Spike's decision to make. Yes, she did not tell him that he was Lindsey's father and it was wrong, but he knew anyway. And the fact that Buffy had lied before does not make his lie any less severe. If I was in Buffy's shoes I would have kicked Spike's ass into next week.
However, I love your story, Brat. You show that it always need two to tango and that there is never only black and white, but mostly grey. Well, at least as far as relationships are concerned. :-)

Author's Response: Thank you, thank you, thank you!! LOL. I should have had you write my author's note for me! LOL. Seriously! You expressed that perfectly. :)

Way to go Plato and his cave allegory.

If fickin hate that guy.

But I

Author's Response: Awww...come on, Plato isn't so bad! LOL

You know what? I hear what you're saying, and I guess I even agree with it. But what annoys me is that it's Buffy who gets to have the meltdown, taking all the choices. She's cranky because Spike didn't tell her? I think it's one thing to admit that she didn't tell him about Lindsey, but another to NOT tell him about Lindsey. He has room for some pretty major resentment and anger as well, and is he? No, because he is blind and a wimp for love. He wants his family and he's been pining for ehr forever, but she just walks all over him and he has so little backbone he's letting her. So yes, while those things you say in your author's note is valid, and I like a bit of angst too, you have so much more potential by Spike actually acting like a man and showing ehr that HE also has a life and if she wants to reject him for that, then maybe he can decide that she can't ever accept him for who he is. Maybe if Buffy had some of her choices taken away for valid reasons, rather than have them made for her or being allowed to wallow for yonks until she's ready to make the right one, she might come out of that cave and see that there is even more to life than the sun and the clouds. Sorry for that, just had to get it off my chest, but i do like this fic. I just get sore that Spike seems to have lost his balls.

Author's Response: I can say that he's backed off, and there is a reason for that. There's potential for all of them, I agree with that. Which will also be shown later lol. There is a method to my madness. The whole cave thing had to do with Buffy seeing that there IS more to life and wanting to take part in it. It was an awakening for her. But thank you :)

Happiness is an update! Great transition chapter. It was really interesting getting into the mind of Buffy. I could totally understand why she was so angry with him. Just one more person to lie to her. It was also a very very bad time to find out. I'll be glad to get back to the happy spuffiness though even if I love the angst!

Author's Response: Thank you ! :)

Finally, some progress for Buffy here.

I'm not a big fan of 'group therapy' probably because I got overanalyzed myself.

However, when someone is hurting like Buffy is? She needs a venting place to go.

I'm glad for her and I hope that she understands that a person can only control so much in the world.

spuf

Author's Response: I was pondering her last night and I've come to the conclusion that Buffy is like an onion and the issues she currently has are all very onion like..many layers to peel back. She will, though :)

I'm glad Buffy is pondering her life and what she can do now to make it better for her and her daughter.
While I have always felt for Buffy and her situation, I can only imagine the kind of shit she has gone through and I know she has been through the emotional ringer...I also know that Spike made a big mistake, but I really don't see the "making decisons for her" thing...he with held infomation from her, but really, it wouldn't have changed things...Angel still would have left with Fred and they would be in the same situation they are in now.
I'm glad Spike is giving her the time she needs, cause at this point, Buffy does need to be handled with kid gloves, whether she thinks so or not, because obviously she is/was ready to go off at any moment.
What I hope to see is them coming together to an understanding, Spike begging on his knees for forgiveness is a bit trite see as I doubt there will be much Buffy will be apoligizing for, sorry, but it just seems her M.O at this point that she'll feel justified in her actions with Lindsay and all the hurtful things she has said and done to Spike.
Overall, glad to see there is progress being made to Buffy's emotional state.

Author's Response: Hi! Thank you :) You'd be surprised at the things Buffy really does feel bad for...so many layers! LOL. All part of my plan....my evil plan!! LOL. JK.