This chapter truly made me feel like crying, for me it was very powerful. Buffy is in SO much pain here. She did not want to have that abortion..or at least she must feel like she made the decision to have it for the wrong reason. I understand why Spike said the things that he did...I understand that he was very drunk at the time..and I even appreciate that he has come to his senses now.

But he screwed up. BIG TIME. His hurtful remarks have set off a chain reaction that caused Buffy to do something that will haunt her for the rest of her life. The decision to have or not to have their child should have been made together..with love between them. Spike should have been with her every step of the way. It's like what they had together is suddenly an ugly thing..no longer a beautiful memory. I can only guess that this realization that Buffy is now damaged is going to hit him VERY hard. He obviously loves her so much.

WOW..This story is so thought provoking..I am sure that there are many different opinions on the events here. That is a great thing though.. Good work!