Loved the not to dead things with the door. To show how connected they really are and how much that maybe doesn't matter in the end. Of course we know it still matters, but right now, they don't believe it. How do they come back from this I wonder. Can't wait to find out.

Author's Response: I love that scene so much I had to try my hand at it. Glad you liked it and I hope you like how they will mend things. Thanks for the review darling - huggles.

Can it get any worse? You almost made me cry...

Author's Response: Awww, I'm sorry, but I made it bad so the ending would be sweter. It was tough for me to write, it really was, but I felt it necessary at the time. Thanks for the review darling, smooches.

The door scene was perfect, I've always thought there could be a whole story around the little bit we see in the BTVS episode. You've captured it well.

Author's Response: I totally agree, that scene was just so powerful. I had to try my hand at it. Thanks for the lovely review sweety. SMoochies to you.

AHHHH! I didnt realize that this fic. wasnt finished when i started reading it. I didnt realize that it wasnt finished when I started reading this chapter.
Honestly I wont read something that hasnt already been completed for fear of the author never finishing it. Like what happens so many a time.
I love your story. Im seriously addicted. I need updates and fast! Im not used to not havin it right out in front of me to finish when Im ready.
OMG the suspence is killing me! Im taking it out on my husband and hes not very happy either. Usually he loves you because your story was wonderfully arousing and he did not mind one little bit letting me have my wicked way with him. Now we are both depressed.
e-mail me plz when theres an update- supurgirl150@msn.com
thx girl you rock


Author's Response: Sorry sweety. I've done that before - didn't realize something wasn't finished, but alas, we're on a roll now and not too far from the end. I'm so glad you're enjoying it - oh, and your hubby too. Smooches to you and thanks for the review.

I feel so deflated after reading this chapter. Glad William seems have stopped his drinking binge, even if it's temporary. I picked up the cues, and, while I don't understand why he's doing what he's doing, I understand his reasoning. I even understand hers. But, by the end of the chapter. I just feel like they've both given up hope, and, really, I don't get that. When two people love each other, there's always hope that they can make it work. Whatever you had to do to stay in this mindset, I give you kudos. This chapter is just so freakin' depressing. I almost just stopped reading it during their encounter in the hallway. But, I didn't. I don't give up on a story just 'cause I hate how things are going. Great writing. You have my respect for making it through this chapter without becoming a basketcase.

Author's Response: Sorry - I know - I hateed writing this, but the muse really felt it necessary. These two are just plain being dumb right now - not seeing past things into the larger picture... but it won't last. I'm glad you were able to keep reading sweety - God knows I hated to write things this way, hell... I'd have stopped reading and waited for a few chapters to pass myself, so I really appreciate that you took the time to review. Thank you so much. Huggles.

Well it looks like William and Buffy have more angst,and it is exhausting.It made me think of the time Spike and Buffy grabed each sde of the door.and when he finley opend his side she is gone..Talk about angst.Oh well I hope the next chapter is in a happer modeI think its time these tow wrap this up,and come back to the happy.But I still love this story.

Author's Response: Oh yes - I agree, it's time to wrap it up. Of course a bit of angst to make the reunion a lil sweeter never hurts either, lol. Glad to see your still enjoying it sweety - just a bit more to go before the final get-together I promise. Thanks so much for the review. Hugs you tight.

still reading and loving it.

Author's Response: Thanks sweety, gladd to see you still enjoying it. Hugs.

That was a powerfully emotional chapter, so I can understand how hard it was for you ! And the way you recaptured the door scene, when they're feeling each other on the opposite side...
I also loved the analogy with the liquids (water/whisky).
Sorry I can't write a better review, but I'm at my work !
Anyway, even if you don't like writing angst, you achieve it with much empathy for your characters and much sensitivity.
Still, can't wait for them to get back together !! ;-)

Author's Response: Hee, at work reading huh? I'm pleased you enjoyed the door scene and the whiskey analogy... Spike needed those moments so in the future he can see things clearly when he's ready to. Yes, that's what the muse set out to try and accomplish and that's getting the readers to 'feel' for the characters and their dilema. Thanks so much for the review hon. Huggles.

That was the most wonderful angst, imo, I think you have ever written! Phew! What a chapter. Raw Spuffy emotions drawn so meticulously it really must have taken it out of you. Then the 'icing on the cake' using the 'Door Scene' which is one of my most favourite Btvs scenes. You have outdone yourself hun!!! I am looking forward to how you are going to bring them back together!




Author's Response: Really? Wow, thank you sweety, I certainly did try my best. The door scenes was always a fav of mine too, and seemed a fitting way to end the chappy - boy, that was a difficult scene to write so I'm ecstatic that you enjoyed itl. Ah yes, to bring them back together now, that will be a task in and of itself, but far easier on my emtoions to write, hee. Thank you so much for the review, it really made my day and boosted my confidence sweety. Hugs and kisses to you.

Great chapter! Angst can be pretty difficult to write if your Muse doesnt want to cooperate, but I think you have done a spectacular job. Looking forward to more!

Author's Response: Awww, thank you sweety. The muse had a goal, I just hated following him there. I'm glad you enjoyed the chapter, however sad it was. Things will start to look up next chappy, I promise. Thanks so much for the review sweety. Smooches.

Hihi! BIG CLAPS! You rock - you are so awesome!

Work sucks horribly right now and you are my escape.

I've been bad about posting a review for the last few chapters, but I'm still a loyal reader!! I soooooo loved this chapter. So sad, but so good. Please write angst again!!! (Not in this story, no, but just don't swear off it) :-)

Can't wait to see if they'll get back together before she leaves or if they'll end up back in the states first. Glad that all is well and getting settled with your new house!

BUG HUGS!

Author's Response: Giggles, I'm very happy to provide you some distraction sweety. No worries about leaving reviews, I'm just glad to see you're still here and enjoying it. *Sighs*... I won't swear angst off all together but I can say that in the future, in future fics, I'll have to keep it toned down to mild conflict unless there's a really good reason the muse has for doing it. I'm so happy you enjoyed it though, I did try my best to make it quality rather than just writing an ugly scene with little explanation. They'll be getting together soon, sweety, that much I can say without spoiling anything for ya. Thanks - we're getting settled here nicely and of course its fun shopping to fill the house up with new things. Thanks for the lovely review darling, smoochies to you.

Wow , that was another very angsty chapter, I feel for them both, but she was such a dunce throughout the whole fic and now he's being a dunce.
Have I told you lately how much I appreciate you writing for us readers? and that i consider you one of the best ?!

Author's Response: Giggles, well, I had to tip the scales a bit, even things out to set up for the final get together. Spike will, all in good time, realize what he needs to in order for him to make better decisions and ultimately be with Buffy. It just may take some sober time first. He's through with the drinking - I can say that without spoiling anything for you. I truly enjoy writing for you and everyone here, and I'm appreciative for all the support thru reviews, I really am. One of the best? Oh god, blushing ten shades of red here. I'm my own worst critic when it boils down to it and to hear you say that just did wonders for my confidence, thank you so much sweety. Tkae care and I'll update as soon as I can. Hugs and kisses.

when i saw the story on the recently added list, tears of joy came to my eyes. by the end of the chapter, my joy was taken away and replaced by sadness. i can only imagine how eghausting writing this chapter was. it spoke to me in a way that none of the other chapters had never done before.

“Doesn’ matter what I believe. The chit’s always lookin’ for somethin’ to go wrong so she can take off runnin’. Well, `m not in the mood to be left behind anymore jus’ cuz she’s scared of gettin’ hurt from bein’ in a relationship.”

When I read this line, I had to re-read it a couple of times because I relate to it so much....I do exactly what spike is accusing buffy of and I guess this line just hit me right in the chest, you know?? both of them have way to much pride for their own good and I guess i can relate to that.

Anyway, both of those blondes are too damn stubborn. I love angst,especially your brand of it ,but I completely understand why you wouldn't want to right angst like this anymore. You'd drive yourself bonkers. lol.

updating to In the ARMY Now would be a great way to take a break from all this angst. just a thought! lol

loved it sooooo very much. Once again, i bow before the all might muse. give him hugs and kisses for me.




Author's Response: Oh no, I feel terrible now, from tear of joy to sadness. But in my defense I can only say that I tried for days on end to get this chapter just right so that readers could 'feel' each character's pain because then... the ending will be that much sweeter. Ah yes, you liked that line. Lots of people are like that in real life. Hell, for a time, I didn't mind getting into a relationship, but the second it turned serious on the guy's end, I bolted. Shame on me, but I had my reasons at the time. You like my angst? WOW, what a great compliment, especially considering I don't like writing such depressing stuff, thank you sweety. Ah yes, IAN, still working some things out in the back of my mind on that one. TE has really consumed me, particularly becuase I want to get our couple through this conflict. Don't worry though, I haven't abnadoned it. Giggles on the bow comment, but your work is awesome too, and so I salute you and your muse sweetheart. SMooches to you and thanks for such a wonderful review.